This long holiday is a bit long. I didn't dare to go out because of the epidemic, and I didn't dare to go anywhere at home.

It is said to be nested at home, but in fact this is not my home, but my ex-husband's home.

I didn't mean to live here, and he and I have no plans to remarry. The reason why we are together for the New Year, and even this unexpected long holiday, is for the sake of the children in the final analysis.

We have very smart and beautiful twin daughters who are just six years old.

In the eyes of parents who love their children, there is no doubt that their children will always be the smartest and loveliest.

In fact, when I first moved out to live alone, the children didn't react much, after all, they were still very young and didn't understand a lot of things.

Recently, Dabao has started to cling to me in various ways.

calling, sending WeChat, video, if she doesn't reply in time, she will take the trouble to ask why she ignored her.

I came back to live with them because their father beat Dabao so hard that his little buttocks were bloodied by slippers through his pants.

And I happened to see and hear it through the surveillance in the living room, and I went on a rampage. It was a very cold night, the north wind was howling, and I was shivering all the way from the cold.

Actually, I haven't gone far. I live just a few buildings away, and I don't want to leave too far because I don't worry about the children.

That night, I rushed to my ex-husband's house in a rage and rushed in like a cannonball detonating at full speed.

Dabao was beaten violently, and honestly stood in the corner of the wall and didn't dare to cry, and her father Lao Wang lowered his head and didn't say a word.

I was furious and wanted to call the police and take the children away. But in the end, it didn't happen.

When Wang heard me call the police, he dialed 110 on his mobile phone, and the two children immediately cried, crying and shouting hard to prevent the police from arresting their father, and I had no choice but to take them out of Wang's room.

Do you want to take them away from this father who is too violent?

If I had the ability to take them with me while earning money, I wouldn't have left them to Lao Wang.

In order to earn more money to support them and myself, I have no second choice but my current job.

I am a scrubber, a bath worker in a women's bath, and I am well paid but work very long hours. On duty, it is 7 in the morning and 12 in the evening, and on the second day of duty, it is 10 in the morning and 10 in the evening, and it is usually 8 in the morning and 10 in the evening.

There was no one to help me take them, and I couldn't take them in order to keep doing this job and earn more money.

So, I could only swallow my anger and cry.

That night, I still couldn't endure it, and I could only endure it. All I can tell the kids is, grow up quickly, just grow up.

That night, I stayed in the children's room and barely slept through the night.

In this world, there are no obedient children who are 100% obedient to the wishes of adults.

Every child will have a time when he is willful and disobedient, and we will not be parents at all, our own personality is not perfect, and being parents is simply a crime.

I often feel that it is really unfortunate to have children like us.

I felt guilty when I saw them sleeping. I don't regret giving birth to them, I'm just guilty that I can't give them happiness.

This man doesn't love me, and I don't love him. He and I both grew up in incomplete families, and our personalities and temperaments were not sound. came together by accident and gave birth to two little angels.

Since that night, I have become more aware of my responsibilities, and my marriage to Lao Wang has completely ended, but it does not mean that I can escape my responsibilities as a mother.

Therefore, I cooperated with Lao Wang's working hours, went to send the children to school every morning, and spent money on the children without any care, and took the initiative to come over to spend the Spring Festival together.

I may not be a good woman, but I'm trying to be a good mother.