Winters in the countryside are always desolate, with dead grass everywhere in sight.

There are a few pine trees on the hillside, and the pine needles have fallen out, leaving only the jet-black branches.

There is also a buffalo tied to a pine tree, grazing slowly.

There are many families in the village, all of which are covered with small buildings of red bricks and red tiles, hidden among the trees, with only a low roof exposed.

The sky is high and the clouds are wide, but there is also a different scenery.

Zhou Jin walked around, and when he had seen enough, he estimated that the time was almost up, so he turned back again, but he didn't go to the door, but stood by the wall.

He could faintly hear the sound of crying and noise coming from inside the house, and he wanted to come closer and hear what was going on.

But as soon as he approached, he smelled a pungent smell of wine, Zhou Jin frowned, and walked over along the smell of wine.

I saw that at the back of the house, there were many empty wine bottles scattered around, and the smell of wine emanated from here.

Yes, Chen Yang's father was an alcoholic, and this should have been drunk by that man.

Speaking of which, Dongshan's economy is not bad, and there are many red brick houses in the village, and it is really rare to see an adobe house like Chen Yang's family.

Think about it, Chen Yang's mother was abducted, and he had to be watched, and his father was a cripple, and it was difficult to go out to work, so he could only farm at home.

How much money can you make from farming?

Although Zhou Jin does not know much about the countryside, he probably knows that the prices of agricultural products, especially rice and wheat, have basically remained stable and have not risen for many years.

Counting inflation, farming is really just enough to make ends meet.

The crying in the room suddenly became high-pitched, and next time Zhou Jin heard it clearly, it was the old lady crying, "Yang'er, don't go......"

Chen Yang ran out without looking back, running wildly.

Zhou Jin called out, and then followed.

The boy didn't stop, and ran a long way in one go, until he couldn't run anymore, and then he bent over and gasped roughly.

Zhou Jin caught up easily, he was so tired that he looked at his upturned ass and kicked it over.

Chen Yang was defenseless, and immediately fell into the mouth and gnawed on the mud, fell to the ground and was not angry, turned over, and simply lay on the ground, posing in a big character.

His eyes were filled with pleasure and relief.

hesitated and hesitated before deciding, but after making a decision, I never regretted it, but there was an ease of escape.

Zhou Jin nodded secretly, this kid is really a good seedling.

"They took the money?"

"If they do, they won't be able to earn 10,000 yuan a year. ”

"Are you going back to Hengdian?" Zhou Jin reached out to pull him.

Chen Yang was pulled up, he patted the soil on his buttocks, and said, "I still want to go see my mother." ”

"Hmm. ”

So Chen Yang took Zhou Jin to a small road, with fields on both sides, and some vegetables were planted on the narrow ridges, and a little greenery emerged.

"What kind of dish is this?" Zhou Jin asked, he really hadn't seen it.

Chen Yang walked in front, looked down, and said, "It's not a vegetable, it's rape seedlings." ”

"What dish?"

"Rape. ”

"Then how do you say it's not a dish?"

"Uh," Chen Yang was speechless for a while, "Anyway, this thing is not a vegetable, it is used to extract oil." ”

"My family used to plant seeds in the winter, and in the spring, they would be full of rape flowers, golden yellow, and when the flowers fell, they would bear fruit, and the fruits could be pressed for oil. ”

"Do you know," Chen Yang couldn't help but pour out everything as soon as he started to speak, "My family has four acres of land, and my father planted it alone. ”

"When I was a child, my mother would only be at home, my grandmother would cook the meals, and my grandmother would wash the clothes, and my father would work in the fields for a day, and when he came back, he would quarrel with my mother, and then he would start beating, scolding, and smashing things. ”

"Then when I was older, my mother stopped arguing, she liked to sit on the threshold, and sometimes she beat me so hard that I ran into the field and got into the rape field. ”

"My mother couldn't find me, so she sat on the ridge and cried. , I secretly looked at her inside, and she didn't know either. ”

"This is my mother, she said she likes rape flowers the most. Chen Yang pointed to a yellow mound of earth and said.

Zhou Jin nodded, turned around, and walked away a few steps.

The view is very good, and on a half-hillside you can see large fields of fields.

He tried to imagine next spring, where it will be full of golden rape flowers.

Chen Yang knelt down, and Zhou Jin knew that he must have something to say.

The winter wind was relatively strong, whining and blowing, and Chen Yang's faint crying sound came from the wind.

At first, it was more depressing, but gradually it became louder, and finally it became wanton catharsis.

Zhou Jin took a few more steps, trying his best to pretend that he didn't hear.

To comfort a woman may be to open her heart and understand all her suffering.

But if he wants to comfort a man, Zhou Jin thinks the best way is to pretend not to know all his sadness and let him maintain his dignity as much as possible.

After a long time, Chen Yang finally stood up and patted the soil on his body, "Let's go." ”

Zhou Jin put his hands in the pockets of his down jacket, Nunu mouthed, and motioned to the direction of Tian Long.

Chen Yang looked over and saw an old lady, on crutches, still holding something in her arms, hurrying here.

"Yang'er, ah......" The old lady also saw Chen Yang.

Chen Yang didn't go down, he stood in front of his mother's grave and watched the old lady walk up step by step.

"I persuaded your father, boy, it's okay to go out and break in, you can take this on the road to eat. ”

The old lady stuffed him with a bag of things, "This is the hard-boiled eggs at home, I plan to keep them for the New Year, you are away from home, the family can't give you anything, you must not be hungry." ”

Hearing the old lady's words, Chen Yang finally caught the burden.

"This gentleman," the old lady turned to Zhou Jin, and then knelt down with a thud, "My family Yang'er will be entrusted to you." ”

Zhou Jin was startled and hurried to help her, the old lady was old, but her strength was still there, and she was pulled up by Zhou Jin after kowtowing three heads.

"My Yang'er is young and ignorant, you can beat him and scold him, just don't let him freeze and starve......"

The old lady was chattering, Zhou Jin interrupted her and asked Chen Yang: "Are you leaving? It's not good to take a taxi when it's late." ”

Chen Yang nodded.

The old lady didn't stay, and waved her hand again and again, "Let's go, let's go......"

The two walked out along the village path, and the old lady kept standing there, looking at Chen Yang's back.

When he was about to leave the village, Chen Yang couldn't help but turn his head.

Zhou Jin sighed in his heart.

Originally, Chen Yang was determined to cut off his past, like a bird out of a cage.

Now because of this bag of eggs, the birds that fly out easily have ropes tied to their feet.

I have to say that Jiang is still old and spicy, and Chen Yang's father is just an honest man, and he may not have any city government.

And his grandmother seems to be trembling, but when she does things, whether it is giving eggs or kneeling, she is extremely strong.

Country roads are not easy to walk, and some places seem to be flat, but they are muddy when you step on them.

On both sides of the road are dense woods, whining when the wind blows, and occasionally branches fall.

Zhou Jin picked up a pine branch casually and suddenly asked, "Do you hate them?"

Chen Yang was stunned for a moment, but still shook his head, "I don't hate, I really don't hate." ”

After the past few days, Chen Yang has become a lot closer to Zhou Jin, who used to be estimated to be the boss, but now he is really regarded as a big brother.

So Chen Yang didn't shy away from Zhou Jin anymore.

"Then are they good to you?" Zhou Jin asked again.

Chen Yang thought for a moment and said, "I don't hate my grandma, really, not at all, when I'm at home, my grandma washes and cooks for me." ”

"When I was a child, I saw that other children had snacks to eat, but I didn't have them, so my grandmother would give me a dime and say, Yang'er, go out and buy something to eat, and I will take it to the commissary. ”

"What about your father?" Zhou Jin keenly grasped this.

Chen Yang smiled and said, "I don't hate my father anymore, he raised me, although he doesn't talk to me much, but I know it." ”

"When I was in high school in the town, my family was poor, and I only bought meat once every half a month, only bought a little bit, and put it in a big bowl, and my father walked more than ten miles to the school to give it to me, and he was reluctant to eat a little bit himself, and he was willing to go back after watching me finish eating. ”

"What about your mother?"

Chen Yang was silent for a moment, "I don't know. ”

Think about it, or shake your head.

As they walked, they came to a small dirt slope, not steep, but the soil on it was soaked with snow and water, and it was soft to tread.

It's not difficult to climb up, but if you're not careful, you'll get dirty.

Chen Yang used both hands and feet, climbed up first, and then pulled Zhou Jin.

Zhou Jin grabbed Chen Yang with one hand, and leaned on a branch with the other, stepping up one leg first.

"One, two, three......"

The two of them worked hard at the same time, and Zhou Jin also stepped up that leg.

Chen Yang said: "Okay, let's go, we will go to the road ahead." ”

"Hmm. Zhou Jin nodded, and then threw away the branch.

"Tell me about your mother, I remember you said that your mother often beats you, doesn't you?"

Chen Yang nodded hesitantly, "Actually, I know that she is very bitter in her heart, and every time she beats me, she will cry for a long time." ”

"Later, when I grew up, she couldn't beat me anymore, so she stopped beating me, and sat on the threshold, looking at the rape flowers, looking at the leaves, watching the ants, and sitting for a day. ”

"Do you think your father and grandmother treat her very well, but she keeps making trouble. Zhou Jin looked at Chen Yang and asked.

"Your grandmother is so old, she still has to wash clothes and cook, your father is lame, and she has to feed your family of four, how hard it is, but your mother doesn't do anything, and your family is the poorest in the village, so you have to blame her, right?"

Chen Yang was silent, nodding or shaking his head.

"Actually, you know your mother, don't you? Why else would you run out and wear her red rope all the time. ”

"When you earn the first money, you don't do anything, and you even ask me to borrow money, and you have to pay back the 10,000 yuan. ”

Chen Yang touched the red rope on his wrist, didn't speak, and walked with his head down.

"But you don't understand, you don't understand who is right and who is wrong, obviously your father and your grandmother are so good to you, and your mother is so pitiful......"

Zhou Jin's words were like a knife, stuck in Chen Yang's heart, and he found that all his thoughts were seen through.

Chen Yang's throat moved slightly, and he finally raised his head and looked at Zhou Jin, with expectation and hope in his eyes.

So, tell me, who's right and who's wrong?

What is my existence?

What the hell should I do?

But Zhou Jin didn't tell him anything.

"Actually, you already have the answer in mind, don't you?"

"If I don't come along, are you thinking about ending your life after paying off the 10,000 yuan?"

"Even, just drink the half bottle of pesticide left by your mother?"

Zhou Jin's tone became more stern than ever.

It's not that he's ruthless, but this kid is so hateful that he plans to pit him for another amount of money before he dies.

I can't bear it!

"Yes, I'm sorry...... Chen Yang said weakly, "But, I really don't know what to do......"

Zhou Jin sighed, "I don't know." ”

"Huh?" Chen Yang looked at him suspiciously.

After all this talk, I thought you would have a way.

"Did your mother give you back 500 yuan before she died?"

The two were silent for a while, and Zhou Jin suddenly asked.

Chen Yang nodded, "She wanted me to tie the red rope around my wrist, but I refused, so she said to give me five hundred yuan." ”

"As a result, I grabbed the money and ran, and when I came back, she was already dead......," Chen Yang said, and his voice became lower and lower.

"You think you killed her?"

Chen Yang nodded.

Zhou Jin let out a long breath and said leisurely: "Why don't you want to think about it, if it weren't for you, maybe she would have died a long time ago." ”

She may have lived a good life and had her own family and friends, but because of a thousand yuan, she was inexplicably sold to a mountain village. ”

"She's been in pain for so long, if it weren't for you, maybe she wouldn't have made it to eighteen. ”

"Because of you, she lived eighteen more years, living in pain. ”

In this era, being sold to such a remote mountain village has almost no chance of being rescued.

Maybe she had expectations at the beginning, but after being disappointed again and again, it turned into despair.

So I thought it would be over, but at this time, I suddenly found out that I was pregnant.

And so he lived eighteen more years.

If it weren't for Chen Yang, Zhou Jin couldn't think of any possibility of letting this woman survive.

Chen Yang was stunned, is this the case, is it because ...... Me?

He suddenly remembered that when he was a child, his mother chased after him and beat him, so he fled to the rape field, stretched his head, and secretly watched his mother sit on the ground and cry.

At that time, she should have thought about ending all this...... Yes.

But when I saw Chen Yang hiding in the rape field, I still felt reluctant?

That's why I let myself survive again, that's why I can't help crying.

"What should I do?"

Chen Yang's throat moved slightly, and his eyes were a little red.

"Haven't you already made a decision?" Zhou Jin looked at him very seriously, "Your current decision is the most correct." ”

"Really, heh......" Chen Yang chuckled, and tears suddenly flowed.

"Let's go. ”

The two continued onward, through a pine forest, until they finally reached the main road.

The sight was open.

If you don't know the answer, try to find it, and if you can't find it, just follow your heart. ”

"There's just one thing, don't think about dying until you pay me off. ”

"Otherwise, I won't let you go if you die. ”

Zhou Jin threatened viciously.

The two walked farther and farther away, and in the pine forest was a packet of hard-boiled eggs.

Leave it to passers-by.

If it's the New Year's Day, it's a surprise for his mother.