Chapter 0823 - Lost!
General White's Mansion.
"Father, I'm going to retreat and prepare to break through to the Venerable!" Bai Qi's face was full of solemnity, this time he was only allowed to succeed and not to fail, if he didn't break through the Venerable again, he really couldn't mix in the Tianwu World.
You can casually meet a world of Yazun and Venerable, and he has no advantage in the realm of Yazun now, so this time he must succeed in breaking through, and he must not fail.
Bai Moxuan's injuries gradually improved, and his face was as usual.
"This is a good thing, if you can break through the Venerable, the matter of seizing the throne will be more secure. Bai Moxuan was also happy that Bai Qi was able to break through the retreat, Bai Qi's Yazun realm was really unstable.
"Father, don't you still want to tell you the secret of why your realm is not rising?" Bai Qi looked at Bai Moxuan with a melancholy look on his face.
Bai Moxuan's smile quickly froze, and when he looked at Bai Qi's concerned look, his face was a little dignified.
"Do you really want to know?" Bai Moxuan sighed, and smiled bitterly as if he was laughing at himself.
"My son can read minds, but I really don't want to use mind reading to spy on my father's mind, which is unfilial, so I hope my father can confess. Bai Qi hesitated again and again, but still did not use mind reading to spy on his father's thoughts.
When Bai Moxuan heard this, he was also shocked into a cold sweat, fortunately his son did not spy on his thoughts, otherwise the situation would have become even worse.
"Hey, I don't know how to say this, but when your retreat is successful, my father will tell you. "Bai Moxuan was not ready, after all, this secret has been hidden for more than ten years, and there is really no way to tell anyone.
It would be humiliating to say it, and it would also make Bai Qi angry because of this, and he might do irrational things, which he couldn't afford.
"Father can't lie to me, right? Don't you want to trick me!" Bai Qi wasn't sure if this was Bai Moxuan's excuse, so he didn't dare to believe it all.
"Don't worry, I'll tell you when you're in retreat. Bai Moxuan glared at Bai Qi, did he not let Bai Qi believe his words so much? This stinky boy is really excessive.
Bai Qi smiled, knowing that his father was displeased, so he didn't say much.
"Loyal servant, take the young master to the secret room!" Bai Moxuan looked at the loyal servant and commanded, and then turned to leave.
"Young master, come with me. The loyal servant looked at Bai Qi and felt that Bai Qi's words just now were a bit serious, and it would make the master lose face.
Bai Qi followed behind the loyal servant and came to the secret room of General Bai's mansion, after the loyal servant opened the secret room, Bai Qi didn't say a word, and walked straight into the secret room.
"Young master, the switch of the secret room is just under the vase inside. The loyal servant shouted loudly towards the secret room, not forgetting to remind Bai Qi.
Bai Qi glanced at the vase next to the corridor inside the secret room, and at the bottom was a switch that controlled the door of the secret room.
"Got it. Bai Qi answered, then walked inside, and finally sat down on the stone bed.
The stone bed is not an ordinary material, but a stone bed made of Xuanling stone, which has the effect of living and panning aura, and it is also helpful for breakthroughs, but it is not of much help, and it still depends on your own comprehension to break through.
The reason why Bai Qi wanted to break through the Venerable this time was because he had figured out the next law of the Dharma Body, that is, what the three masters had said before, no fear, no appearance, no delusion, and no heaven.
These four levels represent different degrees of law, and Bai Qi is currently staying at the level of non-appearance, and the mystery of non-delusion, Bai Qi has also touched in the past few days.
If you don't come to Baiguo, I'm afraid it will be difficult to comprehend the meaning of innocence, and I don't even know how long it will take to comprehend success.
But after coming to Bai Guo and experiencing the pleasure of power, Bai Qi suddenly felt that what he had held on to before suddenly became worthless.
The so-called faith, the so-called heart, in the face of these high-ranking officials, these aristocratic positions, and these powerful positions, are brittle and unbearable.
Desire does destroy people, but as human beings, what is there that is without desires?
The so-called desirelessness is nothing more than the pursuit of a higher desire, they crave fame, so they create their so-called desireless state, so that people worship themselves, so as to reach the point of success.
The meaning of the meaning of vain is that there is no empty desire, and a flesh-and-blood person can only gradually become stronger and more ruthless when he achieves his desire.
In the past few days, the Zhenguo Gong has been in front of him, seeing all the faces above the court, laughing and scolding, and arguing constantly, but he does not dare to have the slightest malice towards himself, the Zhenguo Gong, they are not afraid of themselves, but afraid of the meaning of the three words of the Zhenguo Gong.
Yes, I may have understood, but do I really want to do it?
"Human progress begins with desire, the greater the desire, the greater the hope, and at the same time the greater the responsibility. ”
"In order to break through Venerable, do I really have to give up my heart?" Bai Qi exhaled deeply, feeling a little lonely in his heart, and asked himself.
The original heart that he once adhered to has become the biggest obstacle for himself to break through the Venerable, and now he has to break his original heart himself in order to forge ahead, how ridiculous is this?
When I grew up, I gradually lived like I hated when I was a child, this sentence really suits everyone, when people grow up, is it really difficult to keep their hearts?
Am I the same for nothing? I have to give up my heart and be a person I hate?
But now it's just abandoning one's heart and waiting for the last level of lawlessness, what will happen to it? Bai Qi suddenly became afraid.
If innocence is the abandonment of one's own mind, then isn't lawlessness the complete annihilation of one's own mind?
If a man has a heart, how can he be lawless?
"Could it be... Do you have to do this to become a strong man?" Bai Qi thought of this, and the truth that he had understood was suddenly confused again.
Desire, heart, and the strong, what is the connection between these three?
Give up your heart, chase your desires, and become a strong man?
Abandon your heart, chase your desires, and fall to death?
One thought of life, one thought of death, what the hell should I do? Can anyone tell me?
Bai Qi sat cross-legged on the stone bed, but his eyes were hollow, and his face was full of astonishment.
At this moment, no one could answer him, only himself, only endless loneliness and emptiness.
Bai Qi pondered motionlessly, he wanted to find an answer, maybe only by finding this answer, he could break through to become a Venerable, or maybe after knowing the answer, he would abandon this answer in order to become a Venerable.
With the two paths in front of him, how should Bai Qi choose?
Time passed little by little, and Bai Qi's heart gradually understood that he was confused again.
He was a little anxious, if he couldn't break through to the Venerable this time, he was afraid that he wouldn't know how long it would take to break through.
But the situation waits for no one, he wants to seize the throne, he wants to destroy the Shura clan, he wants to take revenge on the Cosmic God Organization, these three mountains can't let him stay here for too long.
"Who can tell me, who can tell me?" Bai Qi clenched his fists and pounded on the stone bed, cold sweat gradually broke out all over his body, and his head seemed to be about to explode, which made him feel painful.
In my heart, should I obey it?
Desire, do I want it or not?
Can anyone tell me?
"Uhh!!h
After hearing this voice, Bai Moxuan hurriedly ran to the secret room, came to the front of the secret room, and felt the chaotic energy aura inside, as if there was a danger of explosion at any time.
"This kid, is it possible that he has gone mad?" Bai Moxuan's face showed a look of panic, and he suddenly became anxious, and shouted desperately into the secret room: "Get up, don't drill the horns, be calm, calm down!"
"Father, tell me, is it really impossible to become a strong person by sticking to your heart?"
Bai Qi's extremely weak and even crying voice came out of the secret room, revealing a sense of loneliness and sadness and despair.
Sticking to his heart for several years, he suddenly had to give up overnight, which made Bai Qi unacceptable.
Bai Moxuan was silent, how could he not understand his son's thoughts? When he broke through to Venerable Back then, he had also been so confused, and in the end he chose to compromise.
"You can't have both fish and bear's paws, so think about it yourself. He sighed, he couldn't help Bai Qi, he couldn't help Bai Qi solve his doubts, he could only let Bai Qi understand by himself.
Bai Qi, who was sitting on the stone bed, listened to his father's helpless words, and smiled self-deprecating again.
"Heart, desire, strong, hahahaha!!"
"Fuck, I don't want it, I don't want it either, I don't want it anymore, I don't want to give up my heart in vain, I lost my heart, then it's not me, it's not me!!"
Bai Qi's eyes were extremely clear at this moment, at this moment he gave up the opportunity to break through, he didn't want to be the person he hated.
People have no heart, like a pawn that sells their souls, tired by the world, tired by life, and tired by the strong.
Looking at those court officials who are sycophants, aren't you tired?
Isn't it tiring to look at people from all walks of life who are trying to make a living?
Aren't you tired of looking at those who stay up late and work overtime to support their families?
are tired, how can there be any quiet years, they are just moving forward with weight.
"I don't want it, if this is the only way to break through to Venerable, I'd rather not do this!" Bai Qi clenched his fists, completely giving up the last chance to break through.
However, he didn't know what he would lose after giving up, but he knew that what he got was his heart, his faith, and the naivety of the world's mouth.
"Bai Qi, are you sure to give up?"
Suddenly, in the depths of Bai Qi's soul, there was a long-lost voice, which had not appeared for a long time.
But at this moment, appeared.