Jiang Rou followed Ren Jing back to the countryside for the New Year, she didn't enjoy life in the countryside so much, she had to cook by herself, and the toilet was also very dirty, Jiang Rou didn't dare to take a closer look, the house was gloomy, damp and cold, the furniture didn't know how many teenagers had been used, the dining table was black, and she always felt very dirty.

What made her most devastating was that when she went to bed at night, the mattress under the bed was not cotton wool or anything like that, but straw, and the cotton wool in the quilt didn't know how long it had been used, and it was dusty in some places.

She really couldn't stay for a minute or a second, but others were used to it, Jiang Rou thought to herself, Ren Jing here grew up in such an environment.

Her former mother, Ren Jing, has a well-off family, grew up in the city since she was a child, and her family is spoiled. And Ren Jing here has lived in such a cold house since she was a child, cutting pigweed, cooking on the fire, and she hasn't read much, Jiang Rou here is also a bad girl with a crane tail, and her father Jiang Qiuyang also died early.

Jiang Rou thought to herself, is this the fate of impermanence? The same people grow up in different environments, and the ending will be very different.

If it was Jiang Rou in the previous life, when she met a woman like Ren Jing now, she would definitely not look at them squarely, they were rude, chirped when eating, and spitting, not to mention their temperament.

If it was her in the previous life, she would look down on their living environment, indecent behavior, and sneer in her heart, rural people just don't pay attention to it.

But now Jiang Rou, she and her mother Ren Jing are such village girls in the eyes of others.

"It's ironic" "I used to be too arrogant. Or that kind of arrogance that you don't realize."

"It's such a tough start and there's really no way around it. ”

Jiang Rou thought as she lay on the straw bed.

She felt itchy all over her body, and Ren Jing next to her pinched her

"What's the wind leaking in?"

"Mom, have you ever fantasized that you are a young lady from a rich family"

Ren Jing's face darkened when she heard this, "You look down on my mother now, right?"

"Heck, I'm just assuming. And I'm asking you, you,"

Ren Jing ignored her and turned her head

Jiang Rou hugged her, "Oh, you just talk about it."

"How can you have time to think about what you don't have, it's not easy to eat a full meal" Ren Jing suddenly turned her head and looked at Jiang Rou seriously

"Don't think about it every day, don't think about it if you don't have that life, the shortcut is not so easy to take. The Fang Fang at the head of our village, who went out to work in the early years, was dazzled by the fascination, and now ......"

"Oh, where did you think of it" Jiang Rou interrupted Ren Jing, "I want to study hard in college"

......

This time I went back to the village to really realize the sentence in "The Great Gatsby", "Whenever you want to criticize others, you have to remember that not all people in this world have those superior conditions that you have"

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The time of the year flies.

In the previous few times, Jiang Rou achieved a good ranking in the unified diagnostic examination of Chujiang City, and ranked fifth in the city. Jiang Rou has a clearer understanding of her current level.

After the college entrance examination, the high school entrance examination also came as scheduled.

Ren Jing waited anxiously at the door of Qiaozhu Middle School, she was holding a bottle of jasmine tea drink in her hand, asking for 6 yuan, which she prepared for Jiang Rou, and she brought a large cup of water filled with boiled water.

Under the scorching sun, Ren Jing hid in the shade of a tree, surrounded by parents like her, some of whom were holding a bouquet of flowers. The weather in mid-to-late June was hot enough, and at three or four o'clock in the afternoon, it was the most unbearable time of the day, when the road was scorched and hot, and when you stepped on it, a string of white smoke was taken one step at a time, and the air was hot and stuffy, as if you could light a match

After a few hours, I heard a bell ringing, and parents rushed to the school gate, ready to welcome their children.

Ren Jing also squeezed forward and grabbed a front position, and after a while, the candidates handed in their papers one after another and walked out of the classroom and flocked to the school gate.

Jiang Rou was dragged out by the crowd, and some of the candidates' faces were happy, some were annoyed, some were frustrated, and some were expressionless.

It's been a year since she came here, and Jiang Rou has a stronger sense of substitution for her life now, she also has a mother here, a friend, and the hope of starting over.

Ren Jing saw Jiang Rou at a glance in the crowd, and her bloated and flexible body squeezed towards Jiang Rou.

Ren Jing handed Jiang Rou jasmine tea, now is also the time when it is hot, Ren Jing is sweating profusely, her black clothes are wet with sweat and sticking to her back, "Girl, hurry up and drink water." ”

Jiang Rou took the water and drank several sips, Qiaozhu Middle School did not have air conditioning, the examination room was very stuffy, and she was very thirsty. Taking the water bottle that Jiang Rou had drunk, Ren Jing asked, "How was the test?", there was not much difference in difficulty between this exam and the previous diagnostic exam, Jiang Rou felt that the performance was normal, "It's almost the same as before, don't worry."

Ren Jing was full of smiles, and walked over to hug Jiang Rou, "Let's go, go home, mom will make you something to eat." It's really hard work. ”

That night, the dinner table was full of Ren Jing again, although there were only mother and daughter, but Ren Jing made a big table of meals.

Bright red chili flakes, pickled vegetables cut into gum-like shapes, fish broth made with ginger, dried bamboo shoots, green onions, and garlic, and juicy yellow croaker.

Zongzi is wrapped with pure white glutinous rice and red dates with green reed leaves, after cooking, peel off the reed leaves, only to see a few dark red and oily braised pork embedded in the rice ball, which is very beautiful, as well as oily boiled pork slices, fried crispy pot potatoes, etc.,

Ren Jing is doing manual work, their meals are generally heavy oil and salt, she knows that Jiang Rou likes sweets, and she also prepared ice wine-stuffed meatballs for her, fresh and sweet green tea cakes. Under the warm yellow light, the two sat facing each other, Ren Jing poured ice wine into Jiang Rou's cup, her eyes were gentle, and Jiang Rou felt very warm.

"Mom, I plan to go to the provincial capital in a few days to take the high school independent admissions exam.

"Didn't you just finish the exam? Why do you have to take the exam again?" Ren Jing felt confused,

"I don't recognize the results of the city's high school entrance examination in the provincial middle school, and I want to go to the provincial city to study in high school, so I need to take the independent entrance exam. ”

Ren Jing didn't quite understand what Jiang Rou meant, but what she could understand was that Jiang Rou wanted to go to the provincial city to study in high school, the provincial city was a distant place for her, she had never been there, even in the city, she had only been there a few times. Ren Jing was silent.

Ren Jing's memories of going to the big city are not so pleasant.

The first time was when Jiang Rou's father fell ill, and the county hospital couldn't treat it, so he was transferred to the city.

Ren Jing still remembers that she took care of Jiang Qiuyang for half a month there, and she will never forget that morning, when she woke up, her husband's pale body was on the hospital bed, and Jiang Qiuyang died silently in the middle of the night.

There was only one woman left in the ward, crying so sadly, crying as if she was about to vomit out her heart.

The second time I went to the city, it was Ren Jing who went to deal with Jiang Qiuyang's funeral.

Ren Jing came out of the funeral home with Jiang Qiuyang's urn in her arms, walking aimlessly in the city, full of high-rise buildings, the reinforced concrete jungle made her breathless, looking at the people in a hurry, the endless stream of vehicles, she felt that everything was so strange and meaningless,

She had the urge to rush into the road, to be hit by a car and get blood all over the ground, to let her blood soak her husband's ashes, to complete the funeral of both of them in this lively place, in front of everyone's gaze.

Ren Jing looked at Jiang Rou, who looked like Jiang Qiuyang, and remembered the crazy feeling back then, her daughter wanted to leave here and go to a city bigger than Chujiang.

Jiang Rou was disturbed by this sudden silence, only to see tears overflowing from Ren Jing's eye sockets, and choked up, "I'll tell you about your father", "He died quietly in the hospital in the middle of the night, I was in bed at the time, and when I looked up the next day, I saw his body." Why did such a small illness die in the end? Why did a pneumonia die?"

Ren Jing couldn't cry, "They all said that I killed him, and I killed him!"

My mother used to give me pipa water for coughing, and I drank it for a few days, so why did Jiang Qiuyang die? Qiuyang, Qiuyang, why did he die!" Speaking of sadness, Ren Jing hid her face and cried, the more she thought about it, the more sad she became, and her tears fell like rain.

"I wanted to go with him, but you were only 1 year old and had just been weaned, so I couldn't rest assured. ”

"I married your father at the age of 18, he was not in good health, we only had you five years later, how could you have thought that he went when you were one year old, if it weren't for you, I really wouldn't be able to live. ”

Ren Jing stared at Jiang Rou with a sad expression, "I've been a widow for 13 years, Rou, it's been 13 years." Are you going to leave me now?"

Jiang Rou didn't expect Ren Jing's emotions to be so excited, after hearing the cause of Jiang Qiuyang's death, Jiang Rou's heart was as uncalm as boiling water, she remembered the majestic father and gentle mother in the previous life, how could they be such an enviable family here?!Dad, dead, dead like this......

Jiang Rou was sad in her heart.

Ren Jing used home remedies to delay Jiang Qiuyang's treatment and lead to his death, how stupid and pitiful! When she heard such a thing on the social news before, Jiang Rou only felt stupid, but now that she is the person in this tragedy, she only feels extremely sad.

Ren Jing's ordeal was enough, and Jiang Rou hesitated in her heart whether to say the rest of the words.

Jiang Rou was uncomfortable, she gently hugged Ren Jing, "Mom, I'm going to study, I won't leave you." Ren Jing choked up and said, "Why don't you read it in the city?" The city is only an hour's drive from the county, while the provincial capital is 5 or 6 hours.

Looking at Ren Jing's sad expression, Jiang Rou also felt a tingling pain in her chest, she knew how difficult it was for Ren Jing to be a widow with a child, and she also felt Ren Jing's dedication to her, but she couldn't give in on this matter

Jiang Rou hardened her heart, "Mom, I'm sorry. I have to go to the provincial city to study, I want to be a scientist, I have to go to the best place to study. Ren Jing had never heard Jiang Rou say anything about being a scientist, scientist, a distant and unfamiliar word! But looking at Jiang Rou's serious face, and thinking of Jiang Rou's diligent study this year, she was so happy that she was admitted to the top few in the city, as a mother, she couldn't say anything to continue to keep.

The life of youth beats on Jiang Rou's body, Ren Jing realizes that Jiang Rou and Jiang Qiuyang are different, her daughter has her blood, full of vitality, although she is delicate but as tenacious and assertive as a grass, she does not need to be carefully cared for by others.

Ren Jing wiped away the tears on her face, and a forced smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, "Mom is joking with you, it's good to go to the provincial city to study, give me face." I don't know how many people will envy me. ”

Ren Jing put vegetables in Jiang Rou's bowl, "Hurry up and eat, the dishes should be cold later"

, Hmmm, Jiang Rou picked up the rice bowl and pulled the rice into her mouth, her eyes were sour, Jiang Rou originally thought it was just a trivial matter, but she didn't expect it to develop like this, she underestimated a mother's reluctance to give up on her child.

After a while, Ren Jing asked, "Rou, how much does it cost to go to high school in a provincial capital? I heard that the prices over there are very high, and the tuition should not be cheap." ”

The best schools in the provincial capital, one is the public No. 9 Middle School, as well as Shuren, Jiahua and other private schools, if you are admitted to a public school, the tuition fee will not be too expensive, but I am afraid that the test will not be good, and I will have to pay tens of thousands of school choice fees.

Jiang Rou revealed this situation to Ren Jing, "Mom, I think I will definitely be able to be admitted to a middle school in the provincial capital, but I am afraid that if I don't do well in the exam, the school will charge a school choice fee." ”

Ren Jing was silent, "How much do you have to pay?"

"I don't know, I heard that the ninth middle school costs 30,000 yuan at most, the second level is only 10,000 yuan, and the first level does not charge school choice fees. Jiang Rou was a little difficult to speak, she was not selfless, she was afraid that she would not be able to pass the first grade, and wanted Ren Jing to give her an insurance.

She knows that Ren Jing's income from selling vegetables and fruits a day is low, and she can sell more than 300 catties when she is good, and only about 100 catties when she is bad, which sounds like a lot, but the gross profit per catty is only a few cents, that is, when the business is best during the Chinese New Year, her vegetable stall only earns more than 100 yuan a day at most.

But she still spoke, Jiang Rou felt very despicable at this moment, and the kind of righteousness that she had a few hours ago was gone.

Jiang Rou knew that it was difficult for her family to afford her to go to the provincial capital to study, because of her selfish desires, she was now persecuting her mother with love. According to her understanding of Ren Jing, she knew that Ren Jing would definitely agree to her, Jiang Rou thought sadly, I am really a bad person.

When Ren Jing heard the number 30,000, her head was ringing. A deposit of 30,000 yuan is a lot of money for her. She hesitated for a while and then made up her mind and said, "Don't worry, Rou, as long as you pass the exam, I will smash the pot and sell iron for you to go to school." Jiang Rou got the answer she wanted, but she didn't have the joy she expected. She knew that Ren Jing would give her money, and she could calculate the result, but she couldn't calculate her feelings, Jiang Rou's eyes were slightly sour, she hugged Ren Jing, and called softly, "Mom."