She stumbled to the cemetery that day, hiding her mother, and at this time she couldn't bear to mention the pain in her heart.

The sun was harsh, and the thin light hit her. She lowered her head, covered her face with her hands, and shivered slightly, she didn't dare to go, and she didn't deserve to go.

She wanted to go back to the orphanage where her mother used to go and see if the children there missed their mother as much as she did.

But he gave up, and the orphanage later declined, and many of the children were scattered, without a trace of the old ones.

Since marrying Ling Yize, she has not had time to see her mother. I didn't come until today, and I felt more guilt in my heart.

In fact, too many times, she feels that she is hypocritical. Saying sorry on the lips, deceiving himself and trying to make up for the sins he has committed with a sense of guilt, being selfish and hurting the person who loves him the most.

Sometimes she often blames herself for her mother's death, if once she hadn't gone abroad for a damn curiosity. If she wasn't by her side when she needed her the most, maybe her mother wouldn't have died.

She stood in front of the tomb stunned, as if she had been electrocuted, his face turned white inch by inch, and his lips trembled. Step by step, she walked into the tombstone and approached her mother's death. When he was two steps away from the tombstone, he was hit hard by something heavy,

"Bang" She knelt on the cold and hard concrete floor, and suddenly kowtowed. "Mom, you can't wait, I'm finally coming to see you", her trembling voice leaked out of her sockets, mixed with blood bitten from the corners of her lips.

"Mom, I was wrong, can you forgive me?" Every tear she shed was like dripping blood, and the guilt in it could not be suppressed or released.

The grass next to the tombstone had been hoeed clean, and the picture of her mother on the grave was still so young and beautiful, smiling so happily, she followed the picture and twitched the corners of her mouth slightly. Mom's tombstone is surrounded by jasmine flowers, her favorite flower in front of her.

When she was a child, she still remembers her mother's favorite place to put a pot of jasmine in front of the window. The closest place to the sun is said to be a place where you can touch hope.

Fresh air can be breathed close to hope, so she can always smell the scent of flowers.

Gradually, the fragrance of flowers accompanied her into her dreams and became her dependence.

But now, even though I still put a pot of jasmine in front of the window and always remember to water it, the fragrance of the flowers never fell asleep again, and then the pot of jasmine died unexpectedly.

Awakened in countless nights, unable to see her fingers, biting the back of her hand and looking desperately into the darkness, all the condemnation from her conscience silently telling her that there was no second person by her side.

She resents herself, every time she is wronged and painful, there is no second person who will hold a hot egg to reduce the swelling on her face, no second person will care why she always hurts herself, and there will be no one waiting for her to go back to her home in the future.

"Mom, I'm sorry, I'm always ...... It's to keep you disappointed...... You must be wondering why the little ones who used to rely on you so much, who followed behind you, forgot to return home after they grew wings, how could they ...... How to leave you aside,...... Ignore it?",

She said silently into the darkness, "Mom, I still want to eat a celery-filled dumpling you wrapped for me, this time I will change you to eat the filling, I will eat the skin, okay, Mom, I won't rob you again, will you come back......",

When she woke up, she realized that it was a dream. She looked at the black and white photo in front of her and said like a wild boy, "Mom, if you're angry...... Just hit me, I'm sure I won't fight back......," she smiled bitterly.

That's right, her mother is the gentlest mother in the world, how could she ever move a finger, even speaking softly, like a gentle drizzle in the south, it seems that she said a nonsense.

The woman in the photo, with delicate eyebrows and eyes, a gentle temperament, and a flower-like age, is lying in the photo frame. brought all the good luck to his daughter, so he became a lonely ghost.

Therefore, most people cherish what they abandoned in the past, but how can people go back to the past?

"Is it Nan Sheng?" someone asked tentatively as someone tapped her on the shoulder. She turned to look at him, who crouched down with a bouquet of jasmine and placed it in front of her mother's tombstone.

"Uncle Wang, I'm not mistaken", she remembered him, her mother's best friend and mother's lawyer. I haven't seen him for so long, he seems to be much older,

There are a few more gray hairs in her hair, how can she be so old at the same age as her father, she stared at him for a long time, he smiled and said, "Nansheng, let's sit down, I have something to give you",

She and Uncle Wang went to a nearby coffee shop, a quiet corner by the window. Uncle Wang took out a yellow, somewhat old envelope and handed it to her, it was something about her mother. She glanced at him, and with some caution held the letter in her arms,

Uncle Wang picked up the coffee and took a sip, looked out the window, and said, "If your mother asked me to tell you before she died, she begged you to live, do everything you can to live well, and live happily in her place." Although your mother is weak in front of her, she has the strength in her bones.

She wants you to learn to be as tolerant and forgiving as possible, and if you can't, she also wants you not to become a bad person who is in the same boat. She doesn't want her daughter to be someone who hurts others,

In the end, her only regret was that she couldn't see her in her wedding dress and put her hand in her beloved's hand, which was something she couldn't accept.

But she wants you to live a simple and happy life...... this is what her mother taught her how to be a good person.

She looked at Uncle Wang, pulled out a smile, and said, "Uncle Wang, thank you, I will, I'm glad that you are by your mother's side as a friend, unlike me who only blindly breaks her heart......" She subconsciously pinched her fingers.

Uncle Wang looked at the letter in her hand and said, "There is a bank card in the letter, and the password is your birthday." The people who have not found you all know that they will only hand it over to you today,......"

He paused, his gaze a little deep, and continued, "Also, promise Uncle one thing, whatever you see in the documents, don't go after it, and that's the end of it." I'm sure that's what your mom wants, she wants to give you a quiet life,"

After saying what he had to say, Uncle Wang looked at her and sighed heavily, and patted her shoulder gently, "Okay, don't send it anymore, uncle is gone, take care of yourself in the future......"

I opened the envelope in my hand, which contained a photo of my mother, as well as a photo of my mother when she died. When she held the photo, her hands kept shaking, didn't her mother love to laugh the most?

Why was her eyes open when she died? Even with a hint of resentment, she took the picture and took it in front of her eyes, and saw it more realistically.

A thought flashed in my heart, could my mother die of ...... This terrible thought flooded her mind. Lingering, she carefully tucked the photo back into the envelope.

Hold the card tightly in your hand and place it on your chest. He pounded his chest desperately, and his heart ached vigorously.

People are like this, they never know how to cherish beautiful things, and they waste love everywhere that they think they don't lose. But when I really lose it, I know that good things always come and go quickly.

She went to the bank and went to the cash, keeping some of it for herself. She rented a house in a hotel and donated most of the rest anonymously to an orphanage, perhaps the homeless children needed the money more than her.

Moreover, she hopes to exchange this money for the happiness of her mother's next life, saying that everything in the world has a reincarnation, and she secretly swears in her heart that she only hopes for the next reincarnation. You can go to the mountains and wilderness that really don't belong to this world as my mother thought before she died,

Perhaps an angel like my mother who has been left behind in the world is not destined to look up to heaven here...... ，

Thinking like this, I looked at the starry sky outside the window in a daze, there will be stars hanging in the sky today, and the sky seems to be more than just the vast moonlight.

People should always have to hope that they will come tomorrow......

On the same night, some people have fallen asleep, and some people have another sleepless night, and the days that go by like this night after night are too difficult, and they can't deceive their mouths and hearts. He still misses that person, three years have passed in the blink of an eye, and he still can't forget it.

I haven't been in his dream for a long time, and I'm damn asleep again. Because of those pitiful eyes, I saw that the pitiful eyes were very similar to her three years ago, just one glance, and they would fall, and as soon as they closed their eyes, they were those eyes, lingering in his mind.

He couldn't forget it again, and in order to fall asleep quickly, he drank sleeping pills as before, and barely fell asleep......

The world in the dream was dark, and her mother finally came into her dream, and she ran all the way after her mother's back. kept panting all the way, but she couldn't catch up with her mother's back, she quickened her pace,

Finally, she was just one step away from grabbing her mother's hand, but her mother fell right in front of her!

It sank deeper and deeper until it disappeared into the endless. The images floating in my mind are all the pictures, the eyes that are staring at the boss.

She was awakened by such a terrible dream, and rubbed her aching head, she didn't know why she suddenly dreamed such a dream. Perhaps thinking about it day and dreaming at night, she wiped her face with a towel to recover from the shock.

Opening the window and looking at the sunlight shining in front of the window, it was a new day and a new hope, she should find a job and live well.