Since he was ordered to go out on Chinese New Year's Eve to help Wuhan, Shen Han came from Xi'an to the "front line" to fight for almost a week. She fights the virus every day, fights with death, is with the sick, and is busy all day long. But Shen Han has developed the habit of keeping a diary for many years, no matter how busy he is, he will always squeeze out time, and in the dead of night, he will record what he saw and heard on the front line of the war against the "epidemic" in the form of a diary, record his thoughts, feelings and mental journey, and named himself "Diary of Aiding Han".

One of the "Diary of Aiding Han".

January 25, 2020 (Lunar New Year's Day) Weather: Light rain

Today is the first day of the Lunar New Year and the beginning of the Lunar New Year. This year's Spring Festival is extraordinary, looking at the daily rising figures, the hearts of the people of the whole country are tightly pinched together, in addition to surprise, panic, is worried and heavy, how can there be a little joy of the New Year in the heart?

I didn't have time to have dinner on Chinese New Year's Eve, so I left home in a hurry at five o'clock in the afternoon, set off from the hospital at half past five, and flew to Wuhan at half past nine. I really never dreamed that this year will be spent on the plane, and the box lunch on the plane will become our "Chinese New Year's Eve dinner".

This year is the first Chinese New Year's Eve that I did not spend with my family. But there are countless angels in white like me, who are on duty and fighting on this Chinese New Year's Eve, and I am just an ordinary member of them.

Because she was in a hurry, her daughter Qiqi was crying a lot at that time, so she didn't have time to say goodbye to her mother, hugged her daughter Qiqi, and hurried to the hospital to assemble and set off on the journey. Seeing Kiki crying heartbreakingly, my heart was also sour, and my tears almost didn't cover it.

When my husband Qi Weimin drove me to the gate of the hospital to assemble, although he was silent along the way, I saw that he secretly shed tears while driving. I know that deep down in his heart he must have turned the river and the sea, although it is difficult to give up and he is full of worries about the danger of the "front line", but he knows that I am a soldier and must take obedience to orders as my duty, and I am a party member, and I must charge forward in times of crisis.

"You can go with confidence, there is me at home!", his words gave me a lot of confidence. However, his father was seriously ill in bed and lying in the hospital and needed to be taken care of, my mother-in-law and my mother were not in good health, and Kiki was young. Although the words were easy, the burden on his shoulders was heavy.

"You have to protect yourself over there, and we will wait for your safe return!", Wei Min told me in the wind and snow as he parted. I know that his wish is good, but going to the front line means that there will be sacrifices, and no one can guarantee whether he will be able to come back by then, and whether he can "return to Zhao" after that time?

Last night, when the plane landed in Wuhan, walked into the airport hall, and took the bus to the hotel, the streets were empty, as if we had entered an empty and "abandoned" "lonely city". This is the city where my uncle and his family live, and it will soon become my frontline "battlefield". This metropolis, which used to be bustling even at night, is extremely quiet at this time, and it also seems to be extremely dead and depressed, which makes people cry in their hearts and have a feeling of wanting to cry.

As a medical worker specializing in infection control, I can finally contribute to the country and society at a critical juncture, and I think this is also the best moment for a young person who has grown up under the care of the national flag to show his self-worth. I don't think it's very noble, but I just think it's good to be a useful person to the country and society, and to feel the meaning of my existence.

This morning, I was woken up at half past six by my own alarm clock. In the cold wind and drizzle, we set off by car and went to the Second Hospital of the Provincial Red Cross Society, 5 kilometers away, to take over part of the area. This is a second-class hospital with relatively backward conditions, and it has become one of the designated hospitals for new coronavirus infection.

The hospital is not good at the diagnosis and treatment of infectious diseases, and in the stage of the development of epidemic technology, the original shortcomings were quickly exposed: the design and process of the intensive care unit did not meet the requirements of infection control, the staff of the intensive care unit was seriously insufficient, and the medical supplies were also very short, and less than 700 employees in the hospital had been fighting for nearly a month. Some have fallen, some have fallen from the virus, some have been exhausted alive, but they are still holding on because there are so many patients with fever who need them. The president received our Shaanxi army team in the hospital auditorium, and the president choked up several times when he spoke, and the arrival of our aid team was undoubtedly a relief to them. With tears in his eyes, he bowed deeply to us twice.

In the face of such medical conditions, such selfless and hard-working "comrades-in-arms", there is no reason why we should not do our best. After a short reception ceremony, everyone was divided into groups. There are 5 people in our infection control team, and we have communicated with the only on-the-job infection control colleague in the hospital. She is responsible for the infection prevention and control work of the whole hospital alone, and the pressure can be imagined. Her eyes moistened as she recounted the situation. I hope that our arrival can really help her and the hospital's infection prevention and control work solve some problems.

After that, we visited various areas of the hospital. Under the thick and tight protective clothing, the glasses are foggy, the underwear is wet, and the hardships of the white-clothed angels on the clinical front line are experienced. In order to save on protective clothing, we do go without drinking water and going to the toilet for a long time. Protective clothing covers the tiredness on our faces, but it can't hide our persistence and persistence.

There are also quite a few patients in the room and outpatient clinic. Most of them lie quietly to receive infusion therapy, and their expressions are either calm or numb. They are innocent and hope that our arrival will bring them hope and change.

In the evening, the rain stopped, but it was still cold and windy, and the air was still damp and bitter. The lights on the street are beautiful, and if it weren't for the epidemic, the night view of this metropolis would be quite good. I had a meeting and wrote about the infection prevention and control measures in the station, and it was late at night. The first day of the battle was busy and fulfilling, and the difficulties of our comrades-in-arms and patients in the epidemic area were a challenge and a motivation for us to do our best. Come on!

"Diary of Aiding Han" No. 2

January 27, 2020 Weather: Cloudy

Today is the third day of the Lunar New Year. One of the biggest pieces of good news is that Premier Li Keqiang came to Wuhan today to guide the epidemic prevention and control work, and on behalf of the CPC Central Committee and the State Council, he expressed his condolences to the medical staff on the front line of epidemic prevention and control. He said to all the medical staff: I hope that you will race against time to treat the patients, go all out to cure the patients, and you must protect yourself, so that you can give confidence to the people of the whole country, and the people of the whole country will thank you! The prime minister's sincere words have indeed given us great warmth and confidence.

However, the danger of the new crown pneumonia still made everyone unexpected, the day before yesterday just came to take over, an old man who breathed oxygen, although breathing a little hard, just entered the intensive care unit and would smile with us, panting and talking to us, yesterday morning's condition deteriorated rapidly, and last night was gone. It was only two days before it disappeared from our eyes forever, leaving us medical staff in the intensive care unit depressed. After all, we all went into battle with fighting spirit and confidence to turn the tide, only to hit our heads against the south wall and feel a little bit broken. The feelings of sadness, anger, helplessness, and frustration almost make people doubt their original intention for choosing this profession.

The frustration of the first confrontation with the new crown virus has inspired our critical team to be more tenacious, and everyone has worked together to show 18 kinds of martial arts and 12 points of tenacity to start a new round of competition.

We work 8 hours at a time, sometimes even more than 10 hours. In order to reduce the consumption of protective clothing, medical staff only have one set of protective clothing per person per day, and if they go to the toilet once, they will discard one set. Therefore, everyone basically doesn't eat or drink halfway, they all wear diapers, and urinate in diapers. The heavy protective clothing not only insulates the virus, but also isolates the outside air, and as time progresses, I will feel a wave of suffocation coming at me. The rising heat formed a white mist in the protective eyes, wetting my eyes, and I felt the beads of sweat rolling behind me, just like wearing underwear in a sauna, sweating all over my body.

Heroes are not innate, it's just some ordinary people sticking to their professional ethics and doing some extraordinary things.

After the handover of work, it is time and effort to take off the protective clothing and start the personal cleaning work. 84Soak glasses, wash your face, clean your ears and nose, rinse your mouth, bathe your mouth, ...... At the end of the process, I took out the thermos cup and drank the whole glass of water in one go, only to feel that the water was sweet.

By the time everyone finished cleaning and walked out of the hospital gate, it was already seven o'clock in the evening. A cold wind hit, although it was cool, but I felt that the air was so fresh, and then I could finally breathe a breath of fresh air, and then I really realized what others said: "I feel that the whole world is mine".

No one on the return bus spoke, and everyone was exhausted.

It was nearly half past seven o'clock when we arrived at the station, and the volunteers were still waiting for us, disinfecting us and bringing us dinner. Because of their careful care, we can still eat a hot meal so late, so that we can feel the warmth of home here.

At eight o'clock in the evening, suddenly, there was a singing sound outside the window. I hurriedly opened the window door, only to see the surrounding high-rise buildings, at this time all the windows were open, and the whole city of Wuhan was singing "My Motherland and Me" in unison, the song was loud, resounding in the night sky, shocking. Everyone shouted in unison, "Come on, Wuhan!" brought tears to my eyes and countless Wuhan people! In this cold winter when the virus was raging, everyone seemed to see the sunshine of spring and feel the warmth of spring.

I hurriedly used my mobile phone to make a video call with my husband and daughter, and shared with them the moving scene of the whole city of Wuhan singing the motherland tonight. My husband asked me about my work today, and my daughter Qiqi asked me if I wanted her, she choked up and said, "Mom, I miss you so much, there is so far from Xi'an to Wuhan!", I couldn't help but burst into tears when I heard this.

Lying in bed, although I was extremely tired, I couldn't sleep at all, and my mood couldn't calm down for a long time. We are all ordinary members with ordinary family stories. Everyone can't help but miss their loved ones in this special environment. But everyone resolutely came against the grain, fighting here without hesitation, and never flinching. Because, only by temporarily putting aside the longing for relatives and putting on a white suit can we bring hope to the painful faces in the ward again.

Health is tied to life. It's a duty, and it's an oath. Not so sublime, but it has the power to make people persevere!