In the late autumn of Yangjiang, you can never feel a trace of coldness, and only at six or seven o'clock in the morning or late at night can you slightly feel that the high-pressure cold wind from Siberia is hitting the south.

This is the third time I have returned to Yangjiang from Shenzhen this year, and after more than five hours of long-distance buses, it was already more than 8 o'clock in the evening when I returned to Yangjiang.

I shivered unconsciously as I walked out of the station and a cold wind swept over me, then I took out a thin shirt from my suitcase and put it on, then took a cigarette out of my pocket and lit it.

Under the background of the night and the street lights, I dragged my suitcase out of the station, and after extinguishing my cigarette, I got into a taxi and went to Yangxi XX Hospital.

In the back seat of the taxi, I looked through the window at the bus station that was moving away from me.

I suddenly remembered that in the four years of college and work, every time I came back here, I would feel very relieved, and all the worries and depressions would disappear the moment the car entered the station.

The car drove slowly on Renmin Avenue, and after about ten minutes, the car drove into Yangxi XX Hospital.

After getting out of the car, I stood in front of the hospital and unconsciously lit another cigarette. I took a heavy breath and spit it out softly, the smoke forming a beautiful arc in the faint light of the night.

I walked into the hospital with a heavy heart, and with each step, my inner depression increased and my breathing became rapid.

When I walked to the hospital room, I put down my luggage and gently pushed the door open, and I saw a middle-aged man standing there tidying up the clutter on the table.

And there was a thin old man lying on the hospital bed, and at this time he was breathing evenly, and he should be asleep.

I gently patted the middle-aged man from behind and whispered, "Dad." ”

My dad looked at me and nodded, then pointed out the door and motioned for me to go outside and talk.

We walked to the smoking area of the hospital and lit cigarettes again.

My dad is a very rational man in character, good-tempered and patient, and my mom are two people with completely opposite personalities. So every time I talk to him, I feel very relaxed.

"What is the situation now, old man. ”

"Stomach cancer is advanced, the doctor said, there are still three months left at most. ”

My dad sighed after saying these words, took another puff of cigarette, and his eyes couldn't help but turn red.

The evening breeze swept across his face, his face was much haggard, and the gray hair on his head also increased a layer.

In fact, when I was in Shenzhen, my dad told me on the phone, and when I heard the news, my mind was dizzy for a while.

After calming down, I immediately quit my job there and hurried home.

But seeing my father and old man like this, I couldn't help but tremble slightly in my heart.

......

"You go back and rest tonight, I'll stay and take care of the old man. I asked, looking away from him.

"You went to work for a day today, and you took a half-day bus ride, go home and have a good night's rest. Come back tomorrow to see grandpa. ”

After a while, my dad's cigarette was up to the butt, and I had less than half of it.

"I'm young, it's fine. "I flicked the cigarette ash.

"Listen to me, go home and get a good night's rest. ”

His tone could not be refused, and as far as I knew about him over the years, no one could change what he was going to decide.

But I did get tired, so I said yes. After a brief chat, we returned to the ward, and the old man had already woken up.

Seeing me walk into the ward, he smiled at me with difficulty: "Xiuwen, you're back." ”

The old man of 1.80 meters lost weight to less than 100 pounds, and looking at his haggard face and thin body, my eyes moistened unconsciously.

I approached him, half-crouched down, and he held my hand tightly: "Big man, what are you crying about." ”

"Didn't cry. I wiped my tears.

He smiled at me, and then I smiled at him like a child.

"Did you bring Zhenzhen back this time? ”

Mo Zhenzhen is my girlfriend who I have broken up for half a year, and she is also an alumnus of my high school and college.

And my family also likes this girl named Mo Zhenzhen very much.

But in the ten years we've been together, she has never taken me to her home or seen her family. But I know more or less about the situation at home.

The old patriarchal mentality of her parents made her live a life that was never what she wanted.

But the old man treated her like his own granddaughter, and she would often run to my house.

At that time, I almost assumed that she would be my future wife, and of course, maybe she would have thought that way then.

But who would have thought that half a year ago, without warning, she would resolutely break up with me.

On the day of the breakup, she didn't leave anything behind, only an empty rental house for me, and she took away all the electrical appliances in the house.

What puzzled me even more was that she didn't even give me a reason to break up, and I still don't understand that she would leave so decisively at that time.

I've been wondering what I didn't do well to get her to leave me with nothing.

But she didn't say anything, just simply broke up and left my world in a hurry.

In the days after she left, I was not in the mood to go to work and was not motivated to do anything.

I got myself drunk every day, and when I returned to the rented room, I looked at her pictures and laughed so much that I cried.

To this day, she is still a lingering pain in my heart, a ten-year relationship, how can I forget it.

But what can I do if she's leaving?

I've tried many ways to keep her, but to no avail.

Sometimes I wonder what the hell I'm doing in her heart.

.......

At this moment, I felt a faint pain in my heart, and I couldn't bear to affect the old man's emotions because of my breakup with Mo Zhenzhen.

I frowned and said to the old man, "She is quite busy with work, so she didn't come back with me today." ”

"But grandpa really wants to see her now, can you let her take a leave to come back to see grandpa, by the way, explain something, and you are not too young, it's time to think about getting married, but you can't keep hanging other girls. ”

"She can't leave her job there, and she's on a business trip to Shanghai now?"

"If you want to be troublesome, let me call you. My father, who had been silent behind me, spoke.

I looked back at him, then at the old man, and simply let go of my body and begged her: "Don't bother you, I'll call her later." ”

"I'm sure she'll come back, okay?" the old man shook my hand a little harder, and looked at me pitifully.

"Okay, will be back for sure. ”

After chatting with the old man for a few words, and after my dad gave me some words, I asked the old man to have a good rest, and patted my dad on the chest and made a package ticket to let Mo Zhenzhen come back in the next two days.

When I walked out of the hospital, my heart was uneasy.

I don't know how to tell Mo Zhenzhen about this. I don't know if she'll ever come back to see the old man who had been worrying about her.

I don't know how long I've been wandering the streets since I got out of the hospital, but I don't want to go home yet.

Until I saw a group of middle school students talking and laughing out of the school gate. I realized that before I knew it, I had already walked to the school where I was in high school.

Looking at them, I couldn't help but think of myself at that time, and sighed that time flies so fast.

I haven't had time to eat anything since I returned to Yangjiang from Shenzhen, so I found a late-night snack restaurant next to the school and sat down.

After ordering a few local snacks in Yangjiang, I stared blankly at Mo Zhenzhen's WeChat with my mobile phone, not knowing how to start for a while.

After hesitating for a long time, she finally mustered up the courage to post a line on her WeChat: "Is it convenient to answer the phone now?"

I put down my phone and waited for a long time to see her message me back, until all the snacks I ordered were on and I didn't hear my phone ring.

I didn't care about that much, so I devoured it.

Halfway through eating, the breathing light on my phone turned on, I looked at my phone, and I was sure that it was a message sent to me by Mo Zhenzhen, and there was no text in the message, only a simple question mark.

Seeing her attitude, I dialed her directly.

After two rings, she answered the phone and asked me coldly, "Zhai Xiuwen, are you still finished?"

"I have something very important to tell you. "I don't care about her indifference.

All my thoughts are on the old man now, and I really don't care what she thinks of me.

There was silence on the other end of the line for a while.

I wiped away my uneasiness, lowered my head and choked up, and said, "The old man is sick, with advanced stomach cancer, and there is not much time left, he said that he wants to see you." ”

............

Seeing that there was still no response, I raised my head and whispered, "Are you listening?"

"I'm sorry, I'm busy. "It was a small voice, but I could hear it very clearly

"What do you mean by that. ”

"It's not interesting, we've broken up, and your family's affairs have nothing to do with me. ”

When I heard her speak to me in such a tone, I felt a burst of anger in my heart, and I got up from my seat and shouted:

"Mo Zhenzhen, is it necessary for you to be so ruthless? ask yourself, when you were with me, how did the old man treat you. Do you have a little conscience? ”

Most of the people who ate supper at this shop were middle school students, and as soon as I finished speaking, these people looked at me with frightened eyes.

I didn't care about their gaze, and just as I was about to continue my anger, my phone "beeped" and the other end hung up on my phone.

After the phone was hung up, I froze in place, with mixed feelings. He sat down in a chair and looked up at the ceiling.

I didn't have the desire to eat anymore, so I pulled up the suitcase next to me, walked to the front desk, paid and went outside.