By the time Arin realizes all this, it's too late, and neither the love letters nor the love can be recovered. Ember found her love letter sandwiched in his textbook, and stopped her during self-study the next night: "You're not serious, are you?"

Yarin knows that "not serious" means that he doesn't like it. Ask him why. "You don't need a reason to like it or not to like it," he said. ”

Within a few days he had a new girlfriend. Full of white rich beauty. It is said that it was introduced by a friend. Yarin thought to herself, it turns out that love is also divided into high and low.

Later, he went abroad. I didn't even give her a chance to say goodbye. In that monthly exam, Yarin's chemistry score failed for the first time.

"Hey, she's the same Yarin?"

"I heard that she is the ex-girlfriend of Xiaocao, is it true? ”

"What an ex-girlfriend. It's clearly a junior. My girlfriend said that it was because of her that she was dumped by the school. It's time to be together. I think she herself knows that people don't look down on her, so she simply makes green tea. ”

"I also think so, I heard that Ye Qianmo is also chasing her. ”

"But can the school grass break up with his ex-girlfriend?"

"Who knows. Hey, it's not just that little between men and women. "Pretending to be mysterious, the voice is louder than anyone else.

More and more people are starting to be dissatisfied with Yarin. From discontent to hostility, from the hostility of the experimental class to the hostility of the ordinary class, and finally to sympathy. Compassion, on the other hand, means being isolated.

The pressure on the science class is much higher than that of the liberal arts class, and she is a sunfish in the competition. The rankings began to fall from the first page to the second page of the transcript.

When Yarin came out of the classroom that day, Ye Qianmo was waiting for her outside the door, holding a delicate gift box in her hand.

Holding the strap of her school bag, she looked yielding and asked, "Can you give me a make-up lesson?" My parents said that the make-up fee was too expensive. ”

Even Feifei, whose parents receive a subsistence allowance, attend cram school all year round. Parents spend all their money to rent a house at the school gate to save time for studying.

Originally, she and Feifei were only two years apart. Now there is a difference of fifteen. Ya's father and Ya's mother's education method is to count her unmotivated in front of the TV all day long, and rely on the screen to reflect the sound to achieve preaching.

For the first time, through the "education of the poor", Arin discovers that she is poorer than poor. In another month, there was a twenty-five difference between her and Feifei's monthly exam results.

Ya's father stared at the TV screen, lying on the chaise longue, and said that it would be better to find a college tutor and one-on-one tutoring, which is not as expensive as that.

Yarin also looked at the TV screen, her eyes dimmed with the light of the screen, and said, "Forget it." ”

Ya's father turned his body, still lying on the chaise longue, and read out the holy decree: "If your grades are not good, it would be good to make up for a class? I think that Feifei is just talking nonsense, how can there be that kind of teacher? It's not a cheat of money. It's more important than anything else to work your own. ”

In fact, it is not that they are afraid of being cheated of money and believe that the investment has failed. Yarin clutched the report card in her hand. She didn't believe him, she didn't know, the more students with good grades refused to let up their make-up classes. He was too conservative. He's so convenient. He had too much faith in his daughter.

Yarin doesn't want to make up for classes at night. Ye Qianmo asked her what was wrong. "I found the easiest way to satisfy my parents," says Yarin. ”

She fell to 40 in the monthly exam, and told Ya's father that she had taken the 25th exam. The eyes are as calm as deathly. Ya's father was very angry and felt that she didn't grow, and if she did, she could do better. So I ignored her all summer vacation.

School has started. As always, everyone rushed to grab the report card, and the bottom column of the first report card was 38th.

Yarin always looks for it from the first page, no. Only then did I reluctantly go to the second page, and then simply went straight to the second page. Later, from the top bar of the second page to the end, he will never be able to live forever.

When he regressed to the fiftyth place, Yarin told Ya's father that he had taken the fortyth place. Ya's father ignored her for a whole semester. Yarin thought to herself, in fact, it was right not to make up the class. Dad was so wise, at first he decided that she couldn't get into a book, and then he decided that the investment would fail. Dad is so wise.

In fact, she was much more anxious than her parents, who were concentrating in front of the TV. They are happy even in the deep pool, the same drug, the same drug. Yarin didn't know what was wrong with her, she didn't know why her mind was so green, she didn't understand why the deep pool was growing under her feet. I don't understand why she can't even take a step.

Ya's father was also surprised, "Why is she different from other people's children?" On the one hand, he didn't want her to be ordinary, and on the other hand, he used ordinary eyes to define her, and it was not normal to be extraordinary.

It gradually became clear to Arin that they were just trying to make themselves what they wanted, the shape of a black hole that they wanted but didn't know they knew - maybe a TV, a stack of bills, maybe plasticine, a lump of plasticine that could be made out of all shapes at any time.

If it's just a matter of ignoring it, Yarin can accept it. But when it came to the criticism time for lunch, Ya's father was never absent. His preaching was so justified that she couldn't even remember the results that Yarin had lied about, and she hadn't found out once as a parent.

At that family dinner, Ya's father announced indifferently in front of all his relatives: "Your child is good." My family's will be a waste in the future. ”

It doesn't matter if it's an incompetent person who hides the nobility and dignity of his incompetence. It was as if he could grab the whole sky by straightening up.

When Sarin heard this, he indifferently put pride on his face, and the pride was like a gray-white stone statue that would crumble at any moment. Anyway, no matter how much he brags, most of his life has passed. Anyway, if you don't apologize, that's right. Anyway, parents don't have to judge the grade. Even to deny, even to destroy, to destroy, to not care. That's an achievement, too.

Ya's father felt that there was no one more open-minded than himself. Other people's children are so good, why are they so unlucky. There is no one who can compare to his optimists, and none of them deserve it.

Arin faces the table plate against the backdrop. While moving the chopsticks, I thought, I'm a toilet, and I can stuff anything I don't want in the garbage can.

From I can do anything, to I am nothing. From the time I can be like you, to the fact that my loneliness is simply the loneliness of no one. I've never been so disappointed.

The day of running away from home is the most sparse and usual. At the critique meeting, Arin decides to sting them. Like a child who has been lost several times but has not been found, she is so bored that she has completely lost interest in the game.

She threw out her report card and announced, "It's all fake." I've been lying to you all along. ”

Ya's father's roar and Ya's mother's slap roared out together, like a landslide. They also crumble like a landslide, one side is crumbling and the other is collapsing, we just believe in you too much!

Oh, yes. You believe I'm a piece of shit. Now it's the other way around, and it's not allowed for me to be a piece of waste.

Yarin put on her school bag, took the train to the train station, and never returned. Later, Qin Yan recommended her to participate in the design competition, and she became Yalin.