Chapter 181: Hurting Each Other
Tang Tian only felt that her whole world had become so cold, so cold that Tang Tian didn't want to stay for a moment, if she stayed, she felt that she would be frozen by such cold.
There was a faint smile on the corner of her lips, she turned around with a wry smile, and at that moment of turning, the light smile on the corner of Tang Tian's lips secretly became a mark on her lips that refused to retreat.
Winters in this city are always cold, the kind of clammy cold, bitterly cold. There are yellow leaves scattered in the air with the wind, and then they are rolled up and then ruthlessly thrown to the ground, scattered into pieces.
There was a damp and cold smell in the air, and there were a few plates of daffodils in the ward, and the large ones were very pleasant. That faint sweetness, with a moist and delicate smell. The inside of the room is as warm as spring, always slightly warmer than outside, as if spring has not left.
This kind of warmth is lonely and cold, which makes people a little reluctant to leave and reluctant to go far.
Zhuang Muxuan stepped forward and stretched out his hand to take Tang Tian, his dark eyes were clear, "Tiantian, listen to me, listen to my explanation, okay?"
Tang Tian raised her face and looked at him, tears fell one by one, her eyes were as bright as the stars that night, she murmured, "Mu Xuan, you tell me that you are not with Meihui, you say." You and Meihui have nothing to do with it, you are innocent between you, you tell me!"
Zhuang Muxuan couldn't say a word, the corners of his lips were slightly sunken, and his expression was depressed and silent. He closed his eyes in agony, and a tear slipped down the corner of his eye.
Tang Tian looked at him, as depressed as yellow leaves in the autumn wind, the corners of her lips pursed a light smile, such pain, she asked him, "Is it from beginning to end, you have never loved me at all? I am just a shadow in your heart, a substitute? You never cared about me, you gave me a rainy night, a wedding rainy night, such a memory is enough for me to recall for a lifetime." ”
Tang Tian said, his body kept retreating, word by word, tears on his face. She secretly said to herself in her heart, Tang Tian, this is the last time, the last time to cry for him.
Zhuang Muxuan looked at Tang Tian, she was crying sadly at this time, like a flower that had been knocked down by the rain, lowering her thin and weak stems and leaves. The afternoon sun fell on Tang Tian's body, and she did not feel a trace of warmth, but a little more coldness.
Zhuang Muxuan was stunned for a moment, he looked at her, his lily-like face was haggard like a fallen leaf at this time, and there was a trace of happiness and sadness in his sparkling eyes.
His eyes were full of pain, he seemed to freeze at this moment, he said, "Yes, I have never loved you, you are just a substitute, you are from beginning to end, I slept with Meihui, and because she is like her, I don't have half a love for you." Now, you're satisfied, that's the answer you want me to give you. ”
Tang Tian cried and laughed, laughed and cried, she looked at him, nodded, and said, "Okay, very good, this is my most satisfactory answer." After she finished speaking, she turned away without looking back. Two people who obviously love each other want to hurt each other like this.
Zhuang Muxuan looked at Tang Tian's back blankly, and at this time, he realized that a person's back would be so sad, does every back have a story and a kind of farewell.
He came to his senses, and a thought came to his mind, that if she left him, she would be happy, and she would be happy.
This matter, even if he has a hundred mouths on his body, he can't tell the difference. All he can do now is find the truth. Waiting for the day when he finds the truth, if she is still waiting for him, he will give her happiness even if he devotes his life to her.
Zhuang Muxuan is like this, at such a time, his choice is always to evade and retreat, waiting. He always thinks, but others don't think he thinks.
Tang Tian walked out of the hospital building, and the cold wind poured directly into her clothes, she only felt that it was cold to the bone, the kind of cold that invaded the bone marrow.
She rubbed her aching forehead with her hand, and looked up at it, and the sky was blue, as if it were a fine glass brittle, transparent and clear, like a huge mirror. There was just a flock of pigeons flying by, and there was the sound of low wings circling.
Tang Tian's heart suddenly fell silent at this moment. If you have loved, you have loved. It was time for her to let go, she thought.
Tang Tian's world has entered winter since then.
The streets are filled with night, and the lights are bright, making people desperate.
A love ended like this, on the second day of Tang Tian's wedding.
The dark night sky, with large winter gray clouds, high floors towering, lights and neon gently blended together, the city in the night is like a submerged ocean, there is no crowd and no life.
Tang Tian put his face on the glass window of the bus, which was driving along the road, not knowing where to go. It's a journey with no end in sight.
She got off the bus at the terminal and sat in a coffee shop around the corner, with soft music playing in the coffee shop, which happened to be Eason Chan's.
I came to your city,
Walk the way you came to be,
Imagine the days without me,
How lonely you are.
Take the picture you and give,
The familiar street,
It's just that there's no picture of you,
We won't be able to go back to that day.
You don't show up out of nowhere,
In the corner coffee shop,
I will look back with a smile on my face,
Sit and chat with you,
I want to see you so much,
Look at how you've changed recently,
No longer to talk about the past, just greetings,
Persuade you to say a word, just say a word,
Long time no see.
The music was soft, with a touch of sadness flowing in the coffee house, like a piece of silk, wrapping around Tang Tian's sad heart. Listening to it, Tang Tian burst into tears again, when people are in a bad mood, they can't listen to this kind of sad song.
It was cold, and all the tiny frost in the glass windows was scattered. Tang Tian asked for a cup of coffee, sat on the high chair at the window, and silently looked at the cold wind whistling outside the window.
Tang Tian was wearing a black coat and corduroy black pants. Her hair was scattered a little messily around her cheeks, and a faint scent of lilies emanated from the ends of her hair. She looked at the glass window, and she could see the light in her eyes, which were no longer clear and bright, but had an extra layer of coldness, like a dark ocean, and the waves were turbulent.
She thought she should forget something on this cold night and never remember again. However, it is easy to say, but how easy is it to really erase a memory? Man is a strange creature, and the more things he should not remember, the more he lingers in the depths of his memory.