Bathroom, in front of the mirror.

Some people say that when you look in the mirror after taking a shower, you will feel handsome or beautiful. However, I looked at myself in the mirror and summed it up - when I grew up, I would eventually live like I hated.

Bloated figure, like a big belly that has been pregnant for I don't know how many years. With a dark face, sparse hair, long sideburns, a pair of small eyes that look like they can never wake up, a big nose, and a big mouth, such a patchwork combination is fortunate to be able to marry a wife and give birth to a son.

Yes, this is me, a post-80s me.

Seeing this, many people will say, you are fat and ugly, and you still marry a wife and have children, you must have a mine at home.

I silently pulled out a ticket from the back of my phone case and matched it with the results of tonight's draw. Yes, only one red ball "11". M City Lottery won the first prize of 9.97 million, right in my city, in addition to envy, or deep sigh.

Looking at the text message on the mobile phone, "Mr./Ms. Huang, hello, the current repayment amount of the money you borrowed from XX Finance is 11,000 yuan, and the repayment date is May 18, 2020. Please ensure that the account balance of the withholding amount is sufficient. ”

I had just finished my birthday at my father-in-law's house in the evening, and my wife stayed away from home for the night on Monday and didn't come back until Sunday.

There are no other storylines like that, the foreign family dislikes a son-in-law like me, except for everything before I got married, he still takes good care of me.

I took out a can of beer from the fridge that I bought 5 get 2 free at a convenience store two days ago, lit a cheap cigarette, leaned against the balcony railing, and looked at the lights of other people's houses, my eyes a little moist.

"My money can only be repaid for 2 months, what can I do?" kept asking himself in his heart, questioning himself, how could he live like this.

Short videos and headlines are full of how to make more than 10,000 yuan a month and pay off your debts in a few months, I am really excited to watch it, and it is not excluded that there are really such capable people who can seize the opportunity and opportunity to make a wave of quick money. I don't want to pay off the debt of 150,000 in 2 months, but I don't know how to do it. Until one day, I saw a novel website, and a fan rewarded a certain writer with a million dollars, and I saw hope and longed for myself to have such a day.

It's really difficult to write a novel, you have to conceive a good plot, what are the "golden three chapters", how to lay the groundwork to write a cool article, how to ambush your feet, after some understanding, I also submitted it on a novel website, but I really couldn't write a good idea, so I could only write six chapters of hasty endings. Seeing the rankings on the list, I admire those great gods, tirelessly coding words, and persevering in updating.

I admit that the one I want to write can be a hit, make money in 2 months to pay off the debt, assuming that there are 5,000 fans who tip 30 yuan, and 50,000 fans who tip 3 yuan, I should be able to get through it. Actually, I don't know how much money I can get after tipping.

Of course, I'm just a novice online writer, and it's really difficult for people to earn food with the post-90s online literature gods when they reach middle age. Some people also say that most people who write online novels can only maintain food and clothing, and if they want to make a hit and make money, they can only rely on good code words to operate and accumulate fans.

People must have dreams, otherwise what is the difference between them and a salted fish. I want to be a salted fish that can turn over, I think I wrote this real experience of myself, a real experience of the post-80s, and I didn't have a strong and proud life like other popular urban articles. After all, people must return to reality and live their lives well through the experiences of others.

It's not so much a novel I'm writing now, it's more like a biography of me, a biography of the post-80s. Someone will scold your mother again, you are not a celebrity, a business leader, or write a personal biography.

I also want to write a novel that conforms to the mainstream of the current online literature, and it is hot and popular, but I can't write it, I can only write stories that I am familiar with, and only my own stories will be handy. Determined that I had a goal, I had to persevere, for the sake of my family and family, I wanted to live, although there were many dark sides in my life experience, and I also atone for the past sins, but I believe that I will get better and better. Bear the debt, stay up with anxiety, in addition to working during the day, calm down and write well, cheer yourself up, middle-aged man.

Writing this, I think I will quietly give myself a 3 yuan red envelope after the book is in the warehouse, telling myself that there are still 2 months left, and I will work hard.