Before the car drove into the entrance of the Yuebanwan Hotel, I already saw Yao Shan standing at the gate waiting for me.

Today, she also replaced her high-heeled shoes with high-top Converse canvas shoes, a pair of tight black denim high-waisted pants, a white sweater and a coffee-colored jacket, and a pair of long legs exposed in the air.

The wind seemed to be a little strong today, and Yao Shan's nose was also slightly red. Once I had parked the little sheep, I walked over to her with her car keys.

"Teacher Yao, have you been waiting for a long time?"

"I didn't have to wait long. Yao Shan took the car keys I handed her.

"Are you in such a hurry to go back, why don't you stay here for one more night, the food festival is not over yet." ”

"I'd like to stay one more night, but classes are coming up tomorrow and I have to get back as soon as possible. Yao Shan made a helpless expression to me.

"Okay, then you drive slowly when you go back. I helped Yao Shan open the car door.

"By the way, Zhai Xiuwen, where has Chen Zixia been these days, I've been here for two days, and I haven't seen his figure. Yao Shan sat in the car, raised her head and said to me.

"He's been out of town lately. It's weird that you can see him. ”

"I don't know if it's a real business trip or a fake business trip. Yao Shan put her hand on the steering wheel, her face full of displeasure.

"People don't care about their wives, you take care of it first. Let's go back. With that, I prepared to close Yao Shan's car door.

"Just try to cover him. Yao Shan gave me a blank look, and then grabbed ahead of me and slammed the car door shut.

The moment the car door closed, I saw a picture of a man holding her hanging in Yao Shan's car, and they were smiling happily.

Until Yao Shan's car drove out of the Yuebanwan Hotel, I was still standing in place in a daze...

Who the hell was the man who was holding her? Could it be her boyfriend? Definitely not her brother or brother anyway.

I don't know when the photo hanging from Yao Shan's car has been in my mind, and I always subconsciously tell myself not to think about it, but the more this happens, the clearer the picture of the photo becomes.

I wanted to send a message to ask Yao Shan what was going on, but that's none of my business, why should I care so much about this photo?

It wasn't until late at night that after I finished washing, lying on the bed in the old house, that the photo of Yao Shan's car still appeared in my mind...

Lying on the bed, I kept my head on my head, one hand holding a lit cigarette, looking up at the ceiling. The photo of Yao Shan in the car, especially their smiles, seemed to be fixed in my heart.

I took out my phone and fiddled back and forth in Yao Shan's WeChat chat box again and again, but I didn't know what to send her. After hesitating for a long time, I decided that it was better not to ask anything.

In the end, I clicked into the social software that Zhang Xiaoting introduced to me before. After entering this software, I was surprised that the netizen called 'I don't care' was also online.

This time, the distance shown to him is within 50km, but at least it is the same city, so I guess the most likely place for him to be right now is the city, otherwise it is in Maoming next door.

I jokingly sent him a message: "Dude, long time no see. ”

After waiting for a long time, he simply replied to me with an "um".

His performance immediately made me cry and laugh, how disgusted this guy is with me chatting with him.

Seeing that he didn't want to pay attention to people, I simply didn't bother to bird him.

The moment I turned off the screen, my phone rang again, I took it out and looked at it, it was 'I don't care' and it was sent to me.

"What would you do if your parents forced you to marry someone you didn't love. ”

This time, this person's reply was very direct, not like the previous appearance of ignoring people.

However, it can also be seen from the message she replied to me that this is a woman, not what I guessed before. If she hadn't replied to me like this, I'd probably think of her as a man for the rest of my life.

"My parents wouldn't do that, and I'm not a woman. "I didn't think about it and sent it to her.

But her reply really made me vomit a mouthful of blood, just a simple "oh", and then there was no follow-up.

But since it's a lesbian, and she doesn't sleep in the middle of the night, there will definitely be some stories. And she told me before that she likes someone for ten years, and I'd love what her relationship with that person is.

I thought about it for a moment, and then I replied to her, "It's what you think, not what I'm going to do." ”

"I was good friends with that guy, and I had always treated him like a brother, but I didn't want to marry him. ”

"What about the person you like, didn't you say before that you liked that person for ten years?"

"I don't know what he thinks, I don't know what to do, I'm so annoyed, I'm so messy. ”

I read slowly the message the girl sent me, she must be helpless at this moment. From her words, I felt a trace of sympathy for her, but I didn't know how to comfort her.

Sometimes that's how it is, life is full of helplessness and helplessness. Although it is said that fate is in their own hands, how many people can really control their own destiny?

No matter how different you are, you don't end up being assimilated by this survival of the fittest.

In the end, all your so-called personal freedom, ideals and beliefs will be destroyed by this thing called life. People, only when there is no concern and no shackles can we truly control our own destiny and have those so-called freedom and ideals and beliefs in life.

But how can a living person be carefree and unfettered?

"Maybe sometimes accepting it is not necessarily a bad choice. But the most important thing is your own ideas and practices, and giving your family a little more honesty and patience is also a kind of responsibility for yourself. "I thought about it for a long time, and I could only come up with this sentence, because I really couldn't think of any good advice.

After staring at the screen for a long time, the avatar of 'I don't care' also dimmed, presumably she already had her own ideas at this time, or maybe she didn't have her own thoughts at all, and just chose to escape.

But no matter what, if she can't marry the person she likes in this life, it may just be a pity for her.

As for the person she had had a crush on for ten years, if she had told that person, perhaps the answer would have been a full stop, and it would not have been a good thing for her?

But none of this has anything to do with me, and I don't think this will happen to me. Someone like me would never have a crush on someone for a whole decade, and no one would have a crush on me for a decade.

After turning off my phone, I went downstairs to the convenience store and bought a few cans of liquor with a higher degree and returned to my room to drink it. It seems that I don't fall asleep so easily this night, so I can only pin my hopes on these few cans of liquor.

Hopefully it will get me drunk and get me to sleep as soon as possible.