At this time, it was the middle of February 2013.

The climate still did not show any signs of spring, and the spring flowers that should have been in full bloom were still shaking their thin branches, and its yellow flowers should have been frightened by the still cold north wind, and did not dare to show its pretty face. In previous years, I liked the cherry blossoms, but I didn't see its pink buds. Spring, a beautiful spring, only lingers in people's hearts at the moment, and it has not yet seen its warm smiling face.

On this day, a man of nearly half a hundred years old came to the radiotherapy and chemotherapy center of Binjiang Cancer Hospital, his face was gray, his skin was rough, and he was unkempt. If you pay attention to his eyes, you will find that his eyes are bright, full of rich life experience, emotions and fire, or more like the occasional farmer uncle who comes into the city to sell his produce on the street, full of emotions and full of joy of harvest. At this moment, he actually hummed a song in his nostrils and walked in with square steps.

...... I also happened to look through the photos, and I remembered you at the same table, who married the sentimental you, who read your diary, who tied up your long hair, who made you a wedding dress......

In this cancer hospital full of dead silence, fear, and despair, even the patient's family is worried, who can still sing?

Only him, a man from Shenzhen named Qin Shi who lives in a single room. He was the only terminally ill male patient on the entire floor who was as happy as a normal person. There is also a female patient who is as happy as him, Yi Manzhen Yi Xiaoyu who lives in the Department of Integrated Traditional Chinese and Western Medicine in Xitou, although Yi Xiaoyu does not sing, but Yi Xiaoyu, who is over 70 years old, also laughs all day long, as if she just had a cold and can be discharged from the hospital tomorrow. They are a pair of living treasures, guarding the radiotherapy and chemotherapy center on the east side and the integrated Chinese and Western medicine department on the west side, adding some vitality to the entire dead floor, and bringing some vitality to the ward. As a result, the two living treasures often get together, talk about homely things, talk about long and short, and have fun.

On this day, Yi Xiaoyu's ward was admitted to a young posterity who came for a follow-up, nasopharyngeal cancer patient Wen Tao, 25 or 6 years old, with a gloomy expression and a heavy heart, obviously this posterior is still struggling in the shadow of cancer death, and he has not really corrected his mentality, but he is different from others, you see, his respectful and courteous attitude towards people, the filial piety and love in his eyes to the mother who accompanied him, and his habits of life, everywhere show his love and dedication to life.

Looking at the young man who was holding a collection of Pushkin's poems and sitting alone on the hospital bed and quietly flipping through it, Qin Shi, who was chatting with Yi Xiaoyu in the ward, suddenly had a good impression.

Qin Shi gently walked to the young man's side and introduced himself: My name is Qin Shi, and I live in Dongtou Radiotherapy and Chemotherapy Center, what about you?

"My name is Wen Tao"

"Good name. I'll call you Brother Tao from now on, young man." Qin Shi's voice almost made Wen Tao laugh at such a title. In Wen Tao's life dictionary, there has never been a person who is old enough to be his father and brother to call himself Brother Tao.

"Like poetry?"

Wen Tao nodded.

"Okay, rare, I like it too, I just like it," Qin Shi said, and then he gently recited Pushkin's "If Life Deceives You": If life deceives you, don't be sad, don't be anxious, you need to be calm in the days of melancholy: believe it, happy days will come! Everything is fleeting, everything will pass, and what has passed will become a kind nostalgia.

That's how Wen Tao met Qin Shi.

"No matter who you meet, it is the person who should appear in your life, it is no accident", and the appearance of a person is likely to change your life inadvertently.

For Wen Tao, the appearance of Qin Shi is like this. Just a one-sided relationship, Qin Shi stuck to Wen Tao like a demon.

Perhaps, Qin Shida liked Wen Tao, a quiet boy, from the first sight, so he deliberately wanted to talk to Wen Tao more, just like his father and brother, eager to pass on his knowledge about cancer to him.

After getting along with each other for a few days, Qin Shi and Wen Tao became a pair of old friends, and they chatted very energetically.

On this day, the two chatted together again, which was the topic that Wen Tao first mentioned, Wen Tao said: Brother Qin, you see that this tabloid says that people with cancer will not die as long as they are not afraid of death, is it true?

Qin Shi hesitated for a moment before he began to say slowly: These tabloids and propaganda materials are all deceptive. But I do personally think that a good attitude has a promoting effect on the treatment effect, as some people say that the state of mind determines the effect, of course, it is not so magical, but no matter how good the state of mind is, it will only have an effect without departing from the correct treatment. Based on my personal research experience, many people who get cancer do not die from tumors, but from ignorance and fear of tumors. One-third of the disease is frightened to death, one-third is cured, and only one-third is actually dyed of the disease. Of course, this statement is exaggerated, but it at least tells us how important emotional and psychological factors are in the treatment process.

Wen Tao asked again: Is it important to treat our disease or to nourish it?

This made Qin Shi laugh, he said, Wen Tao, I am not an expert, but I don't think it is important to say who is important to treat and raise separately, different stages, different patients, treatment and maintenance have different meanings. During the treatment period, of course, treatment is the main thing, and nourishment is supplemented, and only by removing the lesion first can the recuperation be effective; However, it should not be overly medical. Our greatest misfortune is that we are surrounded by Chinese ideas and at the same time have to receive Chinese treatment, and 80% of cancer patients in our country are overtreated. Therefore, we must control our own destiny and save our lives with our brains, not our wallets, and we must entrust our lives to ourselves and find a path of recovery that suits us. As patients, we don't know how to heal, but we should understand people.

Listening to Qin Shi's words, Wen Tao also talked from the bottom of his heart about how he was afraid of death and had nightmares all night long.

Today he finally saw the inner world of Wen Tao, who opened his heart, Qin Shi's heart also had a little excitement, and he had already realized at this time that the young man in front of him was already beginning to walk towards the shadow of death.

So he spoke triumphantly about how he had overcome the fear of death. "Mindset is not innate," he shook his head and denied: no. When I was diagnosed with cancer, I almost broke down, I locked myself in my room for a whole week, I was more scared than anyone else, I was more desperate than anyone else, I even resisted the care of others. I'm locking myself up, I'm licking my wounds. A week later, I came out on my own, because I had overcome the fear of death in this week. Why? Because I spent a week learning about what cancer is, what types of cancer are, how to treat cancer, how to survive cancer, and so on. Knowledge is power. With the knowledge of cancer, I was confident in the treatment. Cancer is not as scary as people think, and it is possible to survive with tumors. Especially if you have nasopharyngeal cancer, the chance of survival is very high, and you don't need to be so sad. When you are fearless in the face of death, you will not be as sad, fragile and sensitive as you are today, and you will have more hope that you will come out of despair. If you can't get out by yourself, can your relatives come out? If the whole family is like this, how can you expect to be cured? You are too young, and it is indeed not so easy to come out of despair, but I believe in you, only in time, you will come out, and you will be a young man full of sunshine.

This is the first time Wen Tao has heard others talk about a different view of cancer, although it is not Daigo, but it seems to see a glimmer of light from the darkness. I can't hear more comforting words like "You'll be fine, it's okay, rest assured" than those duplicitous "You'll be fine, it's okay, rest assured".

That night, he thought about it for a long time, and then fell asleep. It was the first night he had slept before midnight since he was admitted to the hospital, and he didn't have any more nightmares.