How did you code words lately?

This year's situation is special, we have two families, one can't leave, one can't come, so for more than half a month, it has been me and Teacher Yuwen with the baby. (This also indirectly proves that the ID of 'Teacher Yuwen' is indeed not my trumpet, and he himself resolutely does not allow me to use his account and does not allow me to manipulate his thoughts, so he is all looking at his own comments ==)

So, he often holds the baby in online classes, with nearly 20 people's graduation projects, and there are children's crying sounds when recording the screen; I hold the baby in one hand, read the literature with the other, and sometimes can use one hand to code words on the mobile phone.

That's it, and the goal now is to be able to eat normally.

It seems that it is a miserable sale to say this, but it is indeed not a miserable sale, and it does not feel miserable at all. As a parent, you should take care of your children, and as an adult, you should work, both of which should be happy. And it's a memorable time that deserves to be remembered.

Looking back on the last two years of updates, the time was fast, and I was very slow. I am really very touched by the book friends who always interrupt and ask for leave for various reasons, and I always feel that I have no face to face you.

In addition, I moved five times during the update, and I'm about to move again, so maybe wandering is my life ==

When "Hua Nian" was conceived, I had just resigned from a seemingly good unit, covered with scars, and wanted to be healed by words; It is a great blessing in life to be able to return to school, and at the end of "Hua Nian", a new life is ushered in, which should be the best gift.

In a word, in fact, a lot of things happened in the middle, I experienced joy and pain, but many of them are the author's private affairs and should not be mixed in the writing. Now that I've finished writing, there are some things I want to share with you.

The first thing happened in the classroom. My coursework is very intense, and I am a cross-major, so I will work harder than other students. The knowledge I learned involved a lot of content in the ideological field, so what pained me the most was not the difficulty of the course, but the arrogance and superiority that some professors and classmates exuded from their bones.

Taking HK as an example, everyone knows that from last year to now, a small group of people have been making trouble, and some forces are also very rampant overseas. At my school, there were very upset remarks that made us very unhappy. They messed around overseas, and that was their freedom, but I never expected that I would be attacked by professors and classmates in class.

In a creative class, one person submits a creative work each week, which is collectively commented on by the professor and other students. Most of the stories I create are family-oriented, without any other overtones, but I don't know how to touch on their pain points to make all kinds of accusations against me in the last class.

The professor looked arrogant and asked, "Why do you only write about family, and why do Chinese writers love to write family stories?" Is it because you don't have freedom of speech, so you're restricted?

I was deeply puzzled and asked, "How many Chinese writers have you read?" How much do you know about modern and contemporary Chinese literature? Why do you come to such a conclusion just by reading my works?

He ignored my question and continued to shake his head: Why are your best-selling books still the Big Four to this day?

Me: Classics are classics, but we also have other bestsellers......

He interrupted me, laughed and told the other students: Chinese don't read much except their own books.

Me: ......??? I only know that there are many scholars in China who study English and American literature and Japanese literature. (This is indeed a fact)

He asked "Yes" without being salty, and then talked to the other students about China's various things, namely Hong Kong, Tibet, Xinjiang, and the Bay...... Wait a minute. He spoke of the so-called United Nations record, taking the opportunity to attack human rights in our country and insinuating that we are not free.

Wait a minute.

The more he talked, the more excited he became, and some classmates echoed him. When he calmed down a bit, I asked, "Why do you think the UN record is credible and the Chinese record is not?"

He laughed dryly, and said to his classmates that maybe China's next target is us.

？？？

Now it was my turn to laugh angrily, and I said: It's ours, we have to keep it, if it's not ours, we won't even think about it.

I've been a student and a teacher for so many years, and if I were asked one of my most memorable lessons, I would definitely choose that one.

During that time, there was a lot of news on the Internet about Chinese students being attacked. You shouldn't have thought that Sydney, who writes quietly, is also the one who was attacked, right?

My previous work was somewhat similar to Liang Zheng's. In 2016-2017, at the most tense moment of relations between the two countries, I rushed to the forefront. I thought that after going through the toughest working environment, I would be at peace in the future, but I was still naïve.

I didn't turn my face in class, but after class, I was shaking with anger in the car and crying for a long time. Because of his emotions and his pregnancy, he was still pregnant with a baby, so he didn't dare to drive.

Over the years I have been abroad, I have experienced this kind of pride and prejudice more than once, and I have even been provoked by some people on sensitive issues in China just after entering school. But that was the only time that made me want to quit school.

I don't understand why they have so much malice, why I just wrote a family story and attacked me? Why didn't I evaluate the work itself? I just wanted to study quietly and get my degree early, what did I do wrong?

Oh, by the way, that semester, I was the only Chinese in our department. So, I was even more isolated.

That incident hit me very hard, and although there were my best friends in that country, and the noble people in my life, and the people I admired very much, it was full of prejudices and I couldn't change it by trying hard. This caused me to feel so depressed that I even thought about dropping out. But then I thought about it, the more this is the case, the better I have to do it, and I can't just be defeated like this!

At the end of the semester, the professor gave me an A. But I didn't feel comforted, I just felt that it was supposed to be this way.

Now that I'm writing this, I'm in a calm mood. I'm not trying to incite anything, and it's not appropriate to talk about too many sensitive topics here. I just want to tell you, especially the student party, that the world is still turbulent, and our generation should be self-reliant!

The second thing I want to say is even heavier. Last winter, a brother who was close to him died suddenly in a car accident. I was still abroad at the time, and my family hid it from me, but I still saw it.

Unacceptable, unbelievable. Even now, it is still very heart-wrenching. The blow was so great that it took a few days to break the shift. The older you get, the more accidents you experience. Life is strong and fragile, I hope everyone can be safe and cherish every moment.

babbled about a lot of private matters that had nothing to do with "Hua Nian", as if they were all making excuses for breaking the change, but in fact, it wasn't, anyway, I was writing slowly. Sometimes after writing, I feel bad again, which will also cause interruptions.

As I said at the beginning, basically every character in "Hua Nian" has a prototype, and I tried to draw materials from the people around me and did a lot of interviews with them. Even so, there are still stiff details, but if you can polish them carefully, you should be able to achieve better results!

At the military parade on November last year, some readers asked, is Qiao Nan in the scientific research team of the college? Haha, don't get too deep into the play, he shouldn't be there.

Some people may also wonder how much of the autobiography of "Hua Nian" has? In fact, don't think too much. Moreover, I have already written the ending of everyone very ideally, and the reality should not be so perfect.

I could also write about it – someone who injured his eye, got a disability rating, left his favorite place with hatred, and returned to his hometown to start a small tech company with his college major. A few years later, his career was successful and his family was happy. It's just that when I see those photos in camouflage uniforms, I still feel that life is full of regrets.

I could also write about it – someone who has waited a long time and still hasn't been able to get a transplant. He has excellent grades, is a humble person, and has a solid family, and he is 100% committed to him. But he is still battling the disease, helplessly waiting for the countdown to life.

I can also write like this - someone's family owes tens of millions and sells several houses. She had to take a break from her studies to help with her family's business. After a few years, the situation at home has improved, but she has been cancelled from school and has to give up her studies, although she was a very good all-A student before.

......

Wait a minute.

The above is just my thoughts, and it has nothing to do with reality.

I just want to say that in the author's pen, everyone's life can have different versions, but the angle of choice is different. And I chose an idealized life, which retained the hope of each character for life to the greatest extent. (Actually, I don't know if it's good or not)

Now that all the things that have nothing to do with the work or related to the work have been said, it's time for the regular thank-you session. My editor, the amiable Uncle Beard, is always at the top of the thank you list, in a word, really great editor!

The first reader to write a long review for me! I kept that comment at the top! He was supposed to be a college student, and he always felt like the same age as the students I had taught before. There is also a Niu Hetang who writes a long comment, thank you very much!Confucianism, Dragon Pixiu, 40064900, and the low-key and gorgeous that has come out recently, often leave messages to discuss, and read it very seriously;54399023,57297722 (Anyway, you can't make a name ==), aaagggeee, Li Shizhen's skin, these people often vote for monthly tickets...... There may be some missing, and there are also those who look at and abandon the book halfway, no matter what, I am grateful for the little support!

In addition, there are a few people who have contacted me privately because of the copyright of "Hua Nian", especially Ms. Chen and Mr. Wang, I don't know if you can still see it. For an author who is not well-known, your favor is a great encouragement. I am very touched by the communication you have communicated with me again and again. Although we were unable to cooperate, this emotion endures.

Of course, I have to thank Mr. Yuwen and thank me cub. Needless to say, you are all the best gifts.

At this point, I can draw an end, and I feel like I have lost love. The next work has not yet been decided.,If nothing else, it should still stay in the vertical and horizontal.。 I'm thinking about building a WeChat group, and the little cuties who have been supporting me on the genuine version can add me~ If you want to find me, just send me a private message on Weibo, my Weibo is kissing _ Sydney. Recently, I just applied for a WeChat public platform, "Rabbit Ears Story Meeting", I want to be a real story platform, and also tell me about the things I have experienced, I very much hope that everyone can pay attention to a wave.

After the story is told, may the moving remains, and everyone will not forget me! I will be back as soon as possible!!

Love you guys!!