A few hours later, Yiguo and I had already driven from the Humen Bridge into Shenzhen......

When I returned to the city again, my heart was already tumbling. Those past times, the scenes of the past slowly reappeared in my mind......

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From the moment the car pulled into the city, I had tears in my eyes. In order not to let the country find out that I was wrong, I covered my face with my coat and pretended to be asleep......

I've lived in the city for almost seven years, when I stepped into the city from a young high school student... At that time, I was also full of enthusiasm, full of hopes and ideals, and wanted to create a new world of my own in this city.

Like some of the young people here who are full of hope for tomorrow, I used to go back and forth here every day, squeezing the subway and waiting for the bus. At that time, no matter how late I worked overtime, how tired I was from work, or how long it took to go back and forth, I didn't think there was anything.

I felt that it was worth all this, and I never complained about how short life was and how cruel the reality was, just because there was a girl by my side at that time who I was willing to give my life for her, and her name was Mo Zhenzhen.

But life is not always as I wish, and about nine months ago, the woman who had said that she would stay with me for the rest of her life had already left my world completely...... It was at that moment that my ideals and beliefs, the small world I held up here, also collapsed with her departure.

After I left here, I told myself several times to forget about her, about everything that happened to her in this city and with her. I thought I could forget, but when I stepped into the city again, the feeling of loss and sadness came to my heart unconsciously.

I don't know when the car has stopped, Yiguo shook me who pretended to be asleep: "Xiuwen, don't sleep." ”

I subconsciously reached out and touched the coat covering my face, but I don't know when the black coat was already wet with my tears.

I didn't dare to take my coat off my face, so I simply replied, "Hmm." ”

"I still have some problems, so I'll leave the car to you, anyway, you're familiar with this area. Let's go shopping by yourself first, I'll contact you in the evening, you must be there then, there must be a good thing. ”

"Yes. ”

After Yiguo finished speaking, he didn't care about me, opened the car door, and left in a hurry.

I don't know how long it took, but anyway, I felt that a country should be far away at this time, so I dared to take off the coat covering my face...

Sitting back in the driver's seat, the familiar scene of the city once again made me fall into deep thought, and I vigorously wiped the little tears that remained on my face, and scolded myself for not being competitive enough.

I drove the i8 left to me by Jiang Yiguo and drove aimlessly on the streets and alleys of Shenzhen. Today's weather seems to set me in a good mood, and after a while, dark clouds have covered the sky, and there is a light rain in the sky. This also makes this year's winter a little colder.

I drove a country's i8 to a lottery shop that I used to come to at that time, and I would come here every day to buy a lottery ticket, always feeling that I would win the jackpot one day, but the reality was that I only did a good thing every time.

I parked my car outside the doorway, put on my coat and walked into the lottery shop. The shop has been open here for three or four years, but very few people come here to buy lottery tickets.

I raised my voice and shouted at the boss of the lottery shop: "Boss, give me a lottery ticket, the kind that can be a general." ”

The boss squinted at me, then looked at the parked i8 outside, and said to me with a shocked face: "Xiao Zhai, have you made a fortune recently?"

I waved my hand: "What's the matter, it's still a poor ghost." ”

The boss said to me in disbelief: "Don't make fun of me, now you are all driving a BMW." No wonder I haven't seen you visit my shop for more than a month. ”

Actually, I didn't want to explain to my boss that the car wasn't mine, not because I was greedy for vanity and loved face. On the contrary, I think that the more I explain, the more I can show that I am pretending.

"Boss, didn't I come to patronize you now? Quick, bring me a lottery ticket that can win the jackpot." ”

"Well. Hold on. "The boss smiled at me.

After getting my ticket, I found a seat and sat down. I took out my phone, lit a cigarette, and sat quietly waiting for the lottery to draw.

In all kinds of boredom, I clicked on the dating software that Zhang Xiaoting introduced to me that day. The netizen named "I don't care" updated his personality signature: "I have a crush on someone for ten years, I'm so tired, but I don't want to give up." ”

Although the "I don't care" is not online right now, I am still interested in his signature. Crush on someone for ten years, how much courage and perseverance it takes, think about this guy is really strong enough.

Although I don't know if this person is male or female, I subconsciously think of him as a man, otherwise I wouldn't call him "buddy".

I jokingly sent him a message: "Where is there no grass at the end of the world, if you want to open it, look at it." ”

Although this netizen's display is now online, I haven't seen him reply to me for a long time, even if he doesn't reply to me, I don't think it's anything, it's just a whim, I want to tease him.

I slowly put down my phone, my eyes staring at the lottery numbers on the big screen of the lottery for a moment, and it was clear that I didn't win the jackpot this time, not even a small prize of two dollars.

And the purpose of my trip is not just to win the jackpot, but to be able to pass the time. It's just a matter of coming back here and feeling the life I lived before, as for whether I won the lottery or not, that's not what I thought about it.

After throwing away the ticket, I sat down at the front desk and chatted with the owner of the lottery shop. And I stayed in the lottery shop for about half a day, and it wasn't until late afternoon that I felt like I was leaving.

I stood up and greeted my boss and said, "I'll hit the jackpot next time I come back." ”

The boss reluctantly spat out a suffocating cigarette: "I don't know if you can see this lottery shop next time you come." ”

I looked at the owner of the lottery with a little surprise.

He shook his head at me and smiled bitterly: "You have also seen it, you have been sitting here for most of the day, and you have seen a few people come in." In addition to coming in and borrowing the restroom...... I really can't open anymore, and I'm going to close this store when the lease period expires in a few days. ”

Seeing the helpless look of the boss reminded me of the people who worked hard here. There are simply too many people like lottery shop owners in this city.

At first, these people wanted to be able to find their own ideals and ambitions in this metropolis full of opportunities and opportunities, but the reality allowed them to live a stable life.

In addition to worrying about firewood, rice, oil and salt every day, I also have to face high mortgages and car loans...... For them, this kind of day doesn't know when it will be the end.

After walking out of the lottery shop, the light rain drifting in the sky didn't seem to mean to stop. I spit out a puff of cigarette in a depressed way, Jiang Yiguo said that he had something to contact me in the evening, but now it was six or seven o'clock in the evening, and there was no news of him.