Chapter 334: Lost
Ji Ran's previous song was finally completed, but Ji Ran's voice had no way to reproduce the ethereal and deep artistic conception, Ji Ran looked at the music score in his hand, and his face inexplicably showed a bit of melancholy, originally she had a singing voice that everyone envied, and she was originally ......
The cruelest word in the world is probably the original, right? Ji Ran raised her hand and touched her throat, she enjoyed the feeling of singing quietly, enjoying that the whole world was quiet and listening to her singing in a low voice, but at this time, Ji Ran had no way to do it, and even the unreleased album was cut in half.
"Ji Ran ......"
Bai Ling walked into Ji Ran's recording studio and saw Ji Ran staring at the score in his hand in a daze, how sad Ji Ran was probably only known to Ji Ran himself.
Bai Ling stepped forward and hugged Ji Ran in his arms, the generous and warm embrace was the only remaining oasis that Bai Ling could give Ji Ran in the isolated island, Bai Ling gently patted Ji Ran's back, "Have you not thought of what to do?"
Ji Ran shook her head, she had thought about who she was going to sing this song to from the moment she started, at this time she was just a little melancholy, and the person who sang it in the end was not herself, "I've already thought about it, but I'm a little reluctant, I'm ...... Reluctant. ”
"Even those unfinished singles, this time they will all be given to Dai Fina," although Ji Ran's voice is normal and normal, it can't be as brilliant as it was at its peak, and even she has no way to connect the words into a song, and her hoarse and unpleasant voice can't control the ethereal elf-like song at all, "It's a complete break with the past, I don't want to do this anymore......"
From the moment her voice was completely destroyed, Ji Ran knew that no matter whether she wanted to or not, she had no way to stand on the stage, stand in the spotlight, hold the microphone tightly and sing to her heart's content.
"Yes...... You're still reluctant. ”
Bai Ling stated this fact, Ji Ran was reluctant to stand on the stage and shine, at first those fans liked Ji Ran just because Ji Ran was shocked by his performance in "I Hear Your Voice", but at this time, Ji Ran had no way to return to the top......
Instead of clinging to the past honor and refusing to let go, it is better to completely cut off everything and completely cut off the connection, Ji Ran is always forcing himself to be stronger and more independent...... Therefore, they will be forced to collapse by pressure.
"Yes," Ji Ran took off her disguise, in front of Bai Ling, she never seemed to have to disguise her true emotions, never had to pretend how strong she was, originally Ji Ran was just a weak and helpless girl, "I can't help it." ”
No one can give up everything that belongs to them in the blink of an eye, and Ji Ran has no way to do it, the heart she hides in her chest beats violently, as if she wants to tell the man in front of her how reluctant she is to live in the past......
"It's just, what can I do if I'm reluctant? My voice can't come back after all," Ji Ran hugged Bai Ling tightly, her words were so free and easy, but Ji Ran was not as free and easy as she showed, and her hand tightly holding Bai Ling's sleeve proved Ji Ran's reluctance in her heart, "...... Bai Ling, I can't sing anymore......"
As a person who once stood at the top, it is a particularly cruel thing to be forced to strip from the field she likes and is good at, Ji Ran is stripping music from her life at this time, and no matter how much she wants to stand on the stage, she has no way to do it.
And this is the eternal pain that Linxian brought her.
Ji Ran's voice was a little crying, her emotions were easy to collapse in this matter, the continuous rain made Ji Ran unable to concentrate at all, she felt that her spirit was a little bad, and it seemed that she had returned to the time when she had just graduated from college and betrayed her relatives.
Ji Ran covered her face, she didn't want Bai Ling to see her embarrassed appearance, the girl was still a little shy in front of her sweetheart, even if they had already been honest with each other, but Ji Ran still couldn't show her ugly and incompetent self in front of Bai Ling after all.
Bai Ling reached out and took away Ji Ran's hand covering his face, lowered his head and kissed away the tears on Ji Ran's cheeks, "Never feel ugly in front of me, Ji Ran, I love you, not only love you with a bright smile, but also love you with tears streaming down your face, no matter what kind of you are, I like ......"
Ji Ran's tears were still as bitter as ever, at least Bai Ling tasted the taste that had never changed from beginning to end, Bai Ling knocked on Ji Ran's head, "Have you forgotten what I did last time?"
The sudden questioning made Ji Ran a little baffled, Ji Ran looked up, "What?"
With a little grievance and crying, as if he had been bullied severely, this pitiful appearance Bai Ling couldn't hold it at all, Bai Ling bit Ji Ran's bright red lips that were as delicate as cherries, and then said, "...... I've been with you for a long time, your tears are bitter, I don't like it. ”
"I'm sorry," Ji Ran apologized subconsciously, she didn't seem to hear Bai Ling around her clearly, so she hurriedly apologized, "...... Sorry ......"
"Ji Ran," Bai Ling couldn't help frowning when he saw Ji Ran like this, "You seem to be a little different......
As a person who has been with him for a long time, Bai Ling naturally noticed that something was wrong with Ji Ran at the first time, Bai Ling looked at Ji Ran's face, "Did you remember something bad?"
Bai Ling knew early on that what Ji Ran had experienced that he had never experienced, and he had never even seen the darkness that Ji Ran was in, but Bai Ling knew that in that darkness, there must be no light and hope, if it wasn't for the darkness, Ji Ran would not be so desperate that he wanted to commit suicide with sleeping pills.
"Hmm. Ji Ran replied in a low voice, her voice could not hide her loss, "...... A long time ago, I always made Ji Mei angry, and every time I got angry, she would always ask me a habitual question, asking me if I knew what was wrong with me......"
"Your sentence is somewhat similar to Ji Mei's words, and I unconsciously remembered Ji Mei......"
Ji Ran concealed some parts, leaving only the synopsis of the story, single mothers and daughters are not always happy to get along, and Ji Mei also has times when she can't stand it.
“…… It's all over," Bai Ling realized that he was the most stupid at this time, and he couldn't think of any comforting words in the face of Ji Ran's sadness, he could only stubbornly repeat this sentence, Bai Ling was by Ji Ran's side, and he didn't do anything more, just told her with practical actions that he would always be by her side, "Ji Ran, you have me now." ”
So, Ji Ran, you are no longer alone, don't you just show the eyes of bystanders, I love you Ji Ran.
Bai Ling looked at Ji Ran, his lips moved, and he finally swallowed this sentence, and it was good to know everything.