In the afternoon, I took my mother's cooking, ready to go to the hospital to see the old man, and by the way, I paid a little hospitalization fee in advance.

At the same time, I also learned from my parents that the old man didn't know that Mo Zhenzhen and I had broken up, which made me feel a lot more relieved.

After going to the hospital and chatting with the old man, I went to the payment office of the hospital to prepare to pay the fee, but the nurse there told me that someone had already deposited 100,000 yuan here.

Then I called my dad: "Dad, have you already paid the fee?"

"No, if I do, will I still give you money to pay? What's wrong?"

I felt a little wrong: "It's okay, you can get busy first." ”

"Okay, don't forget tomorrow's appointment. ”

"Got it. Won't forget. ”

I asked the nurse at the counter, "Do you remember who paid Zhai Weiguo?"

The nurse shook her head at me.

The only person who can make me think of paying the fee is Mo Zhenzhen, and I don't think anyone else will do it except her. Because of my rejection of her, I immediately dialed her mobile phone.

The phone rang for a long time, but it was connected: "Hey, is there something wrong?"

"The old man's expenses in the hospital are not pre-deposited by you. ”。

Seeing that she didn't respond, I said again: "I don't think anyone will do this except you, you wait, I'll transfer the money back to you now." ”

"Arwen. "This is the first time she has called Arwen after breaking up with me for so many days, and this is a familiar and unfamiliar word, which makes me feel in a trance.

She choked up and said to me, "This is the only thing I can do for my grandfather now, I can't be his granddaughter-in-law, and I'm also sad, so you let me do what I can for him, okay?" Mo Zhenzhen's voice was very soft and gentle.

"No, you know, stop talking nonsense, I'll go to the bank and transfer money to you right now. ”

"Awen, I'm willing, can you just let me do something for my grandfather? Mo Zhenzhen said in a pleading tone.

I yelled at her loudly, "I'm reluctant, if you really want peace of mind, I'm sorry, I can't satisfy you." I don't want to talk nonsense with you now, hang up. ”

The moment I hung up, I could feel the woman on the other end of the line sobbing softly.

When I think about it, I feel ridiculous, peace of mind, what is peace of mind. If all the things in the world can be solved with money, then the so-called family, love, and friendship are all jokes.

I don't want to delay for a second now, I just want to return the money to Mo Zhenzhen as soon as possible. Come cleanly, go clean, and no one owes anyone.

If I ever wanted to tell who was indebted to the other, it would be this: I didn't get her to live our fantasy life (as opposed to material things) in time for us to be together, and she didn't become my wife.

In a sense, we really owe no one anything. So I can't let this 100,000 yuan become a thread that can never be broken between us, I have to pay her back, now, immediately, immediately.

When I transferred 100,000 yuan to her account, I thought I would breathe a sigh of relief, but what followed was a greater depression in my heart.

Is this the end of our relationship? Is the decade of love gone? Is the ideal that we once shared disappearing like this? I don't know, I really don't know. It was she who broke up, and it was she who wanted to leave. I've tried, I've kept it, I've let go of my self-esteem and begged her.

But that day she walked so resolutely, so firmly. Firm enough to leave me with nothing, she took everything with her that day. Take away the furniture and electrical appliances we have used together, take away the ten years of youth we have walked together, and leave only an empty rental house and memories.

I remember the last six months in Shenzhen, where I spent every day with cigarettes and alcohol, and when I was drunk, I would find a random place to lie down, and when I woke up the next day, I didn't know where I was.

I admit that I have been decadent for the past six months, a veritable coward, a waste. Ten years of feelings, just go, say don't want it. I couldn't bear it, and I couldn't believe she was gone.

Every time I thought it was a dream, she didn't leave. But when I woke up, she was gone, away from the trajectory of my life.

I don't have the power to think about it anymore, and I don't want to think about it anymore.

In the evening, I walked to a convenience store, bought a few cans of centennial mush, and sat down at the place where we used to learn to date in high school. Only baijiu can make me completely empty at this time, and say goodbye to those things about her completely.

West Lake, once a small park, has been converted into a clean government square and an underground shopping mall. I found a big rock and leaned my back against it. I removed the cap and drank the liquor from my hand, a spicy taste wading through my mouth and throat.

Watching the lights flickering in the Integrity Square, the couples held their little hands and whispered. I removed another bottle of 100-year-old mussy, 53% of the alcohol reverberating in the veins of my brain, and my heart was beating faster and faster.

When I tried to open a bottle of liquor again, my head was already aching. I drank the bottle of liquor again, and at this time I felt a huge pain in my throat, and the violent cough attracted the strange eyes of many pedestrians on the road.

Carried away by alcohol, I casually pointed at some people and scolded: "Look at your sister, look at Lao Tzu gouging out your eyes." ”

Some people who didn't want to cause trouble quietly walked away under my scolding, and some people tried to come over and beat me, but they were stopped by a friend wearing glasses.

Then he pointed at me fiercely and scolded, "Neurotic." Don't let me see you in Yangjiang. ”

"You grandson, don't you want to fight, what are you coercing. I spat at the man and yelled.

The friend who stopped him said to him, "This is a psychopath, don't bother with him." As he spoke, he dragged the agitated man back.

"Who are you talking about insane? Believe it or not, Lao Tzu punched your glasses. I slammed the bottle on the ground and pointed my finger at him.

The man didn't stop him anymore, and the two of them walked towards me menacingly.

That night, these two men and I were in the square of the incorruptible government, and when we heard the siren, we had already fled. Although I was carried away by alcohol, I didn't want to stay at the police station, and I ran out with my legs on my legs in an instant when I was sober.

On the way home, although I was beaten and my nose and eyes were swollen, those two people were not bad, and the injuries were no less severe than mine. They were also beaten by me and bled from the nose and mouth, and they fled.

The feeling of pain and the influence of alcohol made me feel a sense of relief. I groped my way in the dark, as if I had come to a familiar place, where there was a bench, and there I lay down and fell asleep.