Finally there's a separate chapter to write about my best and most special friend.

In the summer of 2016, Xu Na quit her job and decided to study in Europe. She said that after so many years of living in a regular manner, she finally had to taste the taste of homelessness. The first stop she chose was Heidelberg, where I had been. Her letter of recommendation was written with the help of my aunt.

If you describe it simply, Xu Na can probably be summed up in three words - talented, skilled, and affectionate, but she is a good friend of mine, we grew up together, and it would be too sloppy to describe her in just three words. So, as she was leaving, I decided to reintroduce her.

Xu Na was leaving, and the most anxious person should be Wei Chenglin, who asked pitifully, "Sister Xu Na, can you continue to write words for me?"

"Of course, communication is so convenient now, you don't have to stay with you to write lyrics for you!

Yes, I gave all kinds of hints before - "Yizhichun" is a person Wei Chenglin has known for a long time, proficient in literary and artistic theory, and it is impossible to guess whether it is a man or a woman. Despite these clues, no one may have guessed that the "Yizhichun" who wrote the lyrics for Wei Chenglin was my good friend Xu Na.

The year I graduated from university, I went to Jiangnan with Xu Na for a graduation trip. I bought a canvas bag for her in a store, and she immediately folded a willow leaf for me and said to me, "Jiangnan has nothing, let's talk about giving a spring." ”

It was very literary and artistic, but also very natural, without any sense of artificiality, and I was immediately stunned - I was so ordinary, but how could I have such an elegant friend? I have been with her for so many years, and I have not become elegant, and she has not disliked me, I am really touched to think about it.

It seems that in her sophomore year, Xu Na published her first poetry collection. In addition to writing poems, she is also an Internet singer who sings folk songs with a guitar, and is quite popular in a small area. For Xu Na's composition level, Wei Chenglin still appreciates it. It's an amateur, but it's not jerky. If she is studying composition for a few years, I am afraid that she will have to compete with Wei Chenglin for a job.

Xu Na is very low-key, in addition to her own personality, she is more worried about hurting the people around her. Because in addition to the ones written above, she is still very special. And her "special" is not understood by the public, and will even be ridiculed. In view of the inconveniences here, I decided to keep it simple.

Probably when we were in high school, that is, when we first fell in love, we were in full swing discussing class grass, school grass or something, and when we were crazy about handsome male stars, Xu Na was always uninterested. Zhao Linlin said very dejectedly: "How can you be completely immune to handsome guy......s?

Xu Na did not defend herself, but responded with silence.

Zhao Linlin was taken aback: "Really?!Don't scare us!"

Xu Na still didn't speak, but she raised her head and smiled coolly.

But Zhao Linlin and I were really frightened, and hugged each other tightly, like two little white rabbits who met the big bad wolf.

It was only then that Xu Na said, "Don't worry, I'm not interested in you two at all." ”

In that small town with conservative folk customs, Xu Na's special is destined not to be accepted, so her friends are careful to protect her secrets and prevent her from being hurt. But Xu Na's kind of trait still attracted a lot of rumors for her.

But Xu Na didn't care at all, she said that if those words were said behind her back, then she couldn't hear them, and if they were said in front of her, she could kick him over. Who's afraid of whom?

Xu Na has no interest in me and Zhao Linlin, probably because we are always full of vitality and not weak enough! The classmate who defected to her before was also a poor person who had a heart attack and was abandoned by his family. The person she likes should also be the kind of person I feel sorry for and can arouse a desire to protect!

I don't know much about anything else, but there was a time ago that I remember. During my brother's hospitalization in Beijing, my sister took care of him most of the time. Taking care of a behemoth who can't take care of himself in life, needless to say, is hard. But even though she was tired, as soon as she had time, my sister would go to the bubble tea shop to help.

We were completely kept in the dark, and we thought that my sister had really gone to her classmates to do experiments. Later, I learned that my sister did not graduate successfully and had a conflict with her boss. With her critically ill brother on one side and unpredictable studies on the other, she suffers every day. If she was bored in the hospital all day, she would be exposed sooner or later, so she chose to go to the bubble tea shop to help out, and give herself a little time to relax, at least, to cry on the flyover.

Before confessing to her family, my sister thought she had done it seamlessly. But on a spring day when the weather was warmer, she stayed on the overpass for a long time, and was just about to go back to the hospital, when a voice suddenly came from behind her: "Sister Qiao Lu, if it's too hard, you can vent it, it's too sad to hold it in your heart." ”

When my sister looked back, she saw Xu Na. She was not as chic as she used to be, standing behind my sister, not like her, and there was a hint of trepidation in her eyes.

My sister hurriedly wiped away her tears and asked, "Why are you here?

Xu Na didn't dare to speak.

"You're stalking me?"

Xu Na didn't dare to speak anymore, but nodded timidly.

"Why are you following me?"

Xu Na grabbed her clothes crampedly, looking around uneasily, my sister didn't know what was wrong with her, just getting closer, Xu Na suddenly burst into tears and slapped herself hard: "Sister Qiao Lu, I should die, I should die, I shouldn't be like this, I committed a capital crime......"

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When something like this happens, my sister is stupid. No matter how she thought about it, she thought it was incredible. It was the first time I heard such a "cry", and it was the first time I saw Xu Na crying like a child.

It probably took a long time for them to compose themselves that day. Xu Na kept her head down, counting her own wrongs, she said: "I'm a freak, I don't want to turn others into freaks, but I still made mistakes...... Sister Qiao Lu, don't pay attention to me in the future, I will disappear quietly. ”

"You're not a freak, who says you're a freak? You're just special. My sister controlled the panic in her heart and said as gently as she could: "But I'm just an ordinary person, and I can't be as brave as you...... I'm so sorry, I can only choose an ordinary life. ”

It wasn't until many years later, when my sister was about to get married, that I learned about this past from Xu Na. Before that, my sister hadn't said a word to me, and I didn't even notice it.

Xu Na said that she was very grateful to my sister, because my sister took care of her emotions in such a panicked situation, saying that she was very brave. Xu Na also watched silently from a distance, and it was not until my sister lived a happy and stable life that she decided to study abroad.

When my sister got married, I discussed Xu Na with her, but no one should have paid attention == The most commendable thing is that Xu Na's parents also take care of her. Some people don't think it's a big deal, so they have to say something unpleasant. Although Xu Na's parents are divorced, they are surprisingly consistent in the face of this problem: "There is nothing wrong with her, she is just a maverick." ”

Xu Na was also very distressed, she often said: "If my parents don't understand me, or sarcastically mock me, then I will have a reason to leave home completely, but what is the matter? I hate their divorce, and I appreciate their tolerance of me, so I love and hate them, it's too torturous!"

Having said that, Xu Na still considers herself lucky. Okay, that's all for this little episode, I hope the good girls are happy.

In addition to these, Xu Na's favorite identity is still the pioneer poet "Yizhichun". The extracurricular books she read when she graduated from elementary school were about the same as the ones she read when I graduated from college. She likes to chat with people who read books, but she prefers like-minded friends. Wei Chenglin is a person who doesn't read, and often reads white characters, Xu Na is so angry that she often says that he ruined the words he wrote, and he still doesn't want to cooperate. However, as soon as she remembered the amount of Wei Chenglin's annual donation, she put up with his "ignorance" and continued to write for him.

She had never taken a graduate course, but she definitely had a wider range of knowledge than the average graduate student. Xu Na was originally unwilling to waste time, but she couldn't get used to him, so she argued with him from modernist theory to postmodernism, from futurism to Dadaism, from Foucault to Heidegger...... The two went back and forth in the comment section of Weibo, which simply staged a scene of debate between thinkers at the beginning of the last century.

Later, when it was dawn, the netizen took the initiative to reveal his identity, he was a Ph.D. student in literature and art at a certain university, and hoped to have a face-to-face communication with Xu Na. Xu Na replied: "I only graduated from the Chinese Department as an undergraduate, so I won't join in the fun, and when I also get a doctorate, let's have a Huashan sword!"

I don't know how that netizen felt when he saw this comment, but I sympathized with him. Doctor, in his own professional field, can only be said to be a graduate of the Chinese department...... If it spreads, that netizen will definitely feel very embarrassed! I thought that Xu Na could have said it more tactfully, but she was not afraid of offending people. Among all the girls I have seen, Xu Na is the most worthy of the words "arrogant and proud".

Xu Na has a solid theoretical knowledge and a good understanding of modern development, but she would rather write songs or musicals than write them. In her words, truly valuable words must be written after experiencing pain. And her life is so smooth that she has lost the opportunity to create. So, she has to step out of her comfort zone and experience more of life before she thinks about writing.

In this regard, I expressed my expectations without hesitation, and Xu Na said modestly: "Jolene, if you write, I will also look forward to it, when you were in high school, weren't you ready to move?"

"I, I really ...... to show off my pen and ink in front of a literati like you."

"Don't think like that, you're not very old, but you've been through a lot, and it should be fun to write about it. Xu Na smiled and said, "If you really want to write, don't forget to write me in...... It doesn't take a lot of ink to write about a very special friend, right?