Mo Zhenzhen's arrival stopped me, she looked at me and smiled a little jerky: "I'll just walk around, I didn't expect to come to you." ”

"Oh, since you're here, come in and sit down. I snapped the keychain back into my belt.

"Uh-huh. Mo Zhenzhen sat on the sofa, and I sat down opposite her.

After sitting down, she looked at me from time to time, and I looked at her from time to time, so she didn't say anything, which inevitably made the atmosphere a little awkward.

After a long time, she smiled and said, "Look at your position just now, you want to go out." ”

"yes, I want to go out for lunch. ”

"It's the Chinese New Year, how can there be any restaurants open! It's only in the evening that some supper shops will open. ”

"That's right. I nodded, and remembered that Xinxin bought a few buckets of instant noodles and put them at the service desk a few days ago, and I don't know if she finished eating.

I stood up with me, walked to the service desk and rummaged through, sure enough, there were still a few buckets of instant noodles there, I looked at Mo Zhenzhen: "There are instant noodles here, do you want to eat some." ”

"Okay. ”

"Then I'll go boil the water first. ”

... ...

Almost a quarter of an hour later, I served two buckets of hot instant noodles, and I handed one of them to Mo Zhenzhen, who pursed her lips and said, "Thank you." ”

To be honest, it feels good to eat instant noodles every once in a while, but I think we are a little cold at the moment, and we are eating instant noodles here for the New Year, and this instant noodles are still fasting, there is no taste of meat at all, not even a ham sausage......

Mo Zhenzhen was eating instant noodles quietly, and suddenly she looked up and said, "I didn't expect you to be the same as before, always working so hard, and you won't go home for the New Year." ”

In fact, Mo Zhenzhen didn't know my hardships, I should have had a good rest at home today, but after making trouble with Su Yi like this, I was forced to go back to Moon Bay. In this way, I can not only escape my mother's questioning, but also avoid thinking of Su Yi and touching the scene again.

"You still say that I, aren't you the same? It's not good to stay at home during the Chinese New Year, what are you going to do here!"

Mo Zhenzhen put down the fork and noodles, and replied bitterly after half a sound: "I think it's very good here, quiet and comfortable, when you are bored, you can go to see the sea, blow the sea breeze, and listen to the sound of the waves... And most importantly, there are no of them here. ”

I don't understand why Mo Zhenzhen has such feelings, and I don't know who they are referring to, I just know that I really want to go home, to have a meal with the old man and chat with him, but I am like this with Su Yi now, it is better to stay in Moon Bay first...

Although I really wanted to know who they were in Mo Zhenzhen's mouth, I still didn't ask after all, after all, her affairs have nothing to do with me, even if I care about her, what kind of mentality and relationship should I care about her.

As an ex-boyfriend? It's funny, isn't it, or is it just a normal friend? But can we still be friends again? Since we separated, it's hard for us to be friends again.

As the saying goes, the deeper you love, the deeper you hate, after all, I loved her deeply at the beginning, there is no doubt about this.

I didn't want to think about it anymore, so I picked up the bucket and ate all the noodles in one go...... Because I was in such a hurry to eat, when I put down the instant noodle bucket, I unconsciously had a long diaphragm.

Mo Zhenzhen put down the bucket noodles, covered her mouth and snickered: "Why do you eat so fast, and no one robs you." ”

I habitually lit a cigarette: "If the instant noodles are too soft, it will affect the taste, I just want to eat the best instant noodles." ”

I always like to shamelessly quibble for myself, after all, this is also a joy in my life, without this fun, then life is meaningless.

"You still haven't changed at all, you always like to make excuses for yourself, but what you say seems to make sense. ”

"I haven't ......changed," I whispered, stretching the word, and said unintentionally, "I really haven't changed, but some people have changed, become unrecognizable... Oh, and I don't mean looks. ”

Although I said it unintentionally, Mo Zhenzhen's expression became complicated, and her eyes were a little red and said: "Yes, I have changed, and I hate myself the way I am now." ”

After Mo Zhenzhen finished speaking, I regretted it a little, in fact, I didn't mean her, I just meant people in this society in general, but this change is not all derogatory, but also has a positive meaning.

"I'm not talking about you, don't get me wrong. ”

Mo Zhenzhen smiled bitterly: "Whether you say me or not, I have indeed changed... It's me who broke our promise and didn't cherish our hard-won feelings, it's all my ......"

"Okay!" I interrupted Mo Zhenzhen: "These things have long passed in my heart, you don't need to mention it anymore, there is no one right or wrong between us, and no one is sorry for anyone." If you want to blame it, blame it for being full of interests and material life. ”

"But if it weren't for me, you wouldn't have given up your job in Shenzhen...... At that time, with your qualifications and abilities, if nothing else, you should have been promoted to project manager this year, but because of me, you gave up everything there...... I hate myself so much. Mo Zhenzhen was already sobbing unconsciously.

Looking at her in front of me, I felt a lot of emotion in my heart. Yes, she was right, if I hadn't resigned at the beginning, the position of project manager would have been a sure thing.

But I am mainly responsible for all this, and I am unwilling to fight for it myself, and I am unwilling to face this desolate city again. As long as I am there for a day, I can clearly see my lonely shadow, the wounded appearance.

But for me today, those are just the scars of the past, although they are still deeply burned in my heart, but they have long become a cloud of the past, and I don't want to think about them, let alone be mentioned again......

I rekindled a cigarette and took a heavy puff: "Zhenzhen, those things have long passed, why should you blame yourself again...... I admit that you hated you for leaving for no reason. I've been sad for a long time, and I've been depressed for a long time, I can't pay attention to my work, and my life is boring...... But I'm fine now, and I hope you can get along and stop blaming yourself for what happened before, okay?"

Mo Zhenzhen looked at me with tears on her face, but she couldn't cry, in fact, I didn't feel good when I saw her so sad, after all, we had been together for ten years, and there were many things that could not be completely broken without saying goodbye......

But now I can't wipe her tears anymore, because time has passed, and we are no longer anyone's who's or no one's own.

I only hope that after today, she can live her own life, and I will live my own life well. We can only bless each other, but we can't bother each other.

This should be the most decent way to do it after a breakup.