And I think that there is only one reason not to be with someone: not to love or not to love enough.

He doesn't love me, he doesn't have anything, I don't get angry or resentful, it's not his fault. Everyone has their own choice, and it was good that he chose to study abroad at the beginning, and it is good that he has chosen to return to China for development. Anyway, it has nothing to do with me. We are already irrelevant people.

I've liked someone, tried, tried, and finally found that I couldn't. So that's it.

Sure enough, as he said, less than half a month after I returned to China, he also returned.

His team is quite good at marketing, and when he returned to China, he released a photo of him walking the catwalk at Fashion Week and a photo of him at the airport when he returned home, with the caption "Asian male model amazes the world." ”

Fashion Week is an international event, many well-known artists at home and abroad will participate, a large number of news and photos are released, he is a star whose popularity was limited and has been silent for five years will naturally be buried in it, so his team waited until the heat passed before releasing him alone.

These photos also include a photo of me with him. But this group photo did not attract any unnecessary attention, there are so many artists who took photos at Fashion Week, and as partners who have worked together on two dramas, it is normal for us to take a photo together.

After returning to China, I never saw Lu Chenyu again, and when I heard his name again, it was from Sister Ai's mouth.

Sister Ai came to me angrily, took the photo from her mobile phone and handed it to me, and asked, "What's going on!"

I had just finished putting on my makeup, and I was reading the script in the dressing room alone, and I looked down at the photo, on which were a man and a woman, the man was Lu Chenyu, and the woman was wearing a mask and hat, so I couldn't see it clearly. The two walked side by side on the streets of a foreign country.

"How do I know that the woman is not me. If you're curious, ask Lu Chenyu. I replied nonchalantly.

Sister Ai was even more angry, and her voice raised a few more tones, saying: "Of course it's not you! It's the road away! Aren't you going to the fashion week with Lu Chenyu! He doesn't go shopping with you to the road away? Fortunately, this photo was taken by our people, so I suppressed the news, otherwise I don't know what kind of joke I was going to make!"

"Oh. I shrugged my shoulders and didn't have much to say.

"What kind of attitude do you have? You are married to Lu Chenyu, aren't you ashamed to make this kind of news again? Sheng Qing, can you take some responsibility for your behavior!"

"Tsk......" I put down the script impatiently, turned to face Sister Ai, and said, "It's not a shame to be ashamed, it's not bad this time, Sister Ai, can I control Lu Chenyu? If you are dissatisfied with his behavior, you can talk to him and his agent." Wasn't it your arrangement for me to marry him? You're the one responsible, right?"

Sister Ai was so stunned by me that she had nothing to say.

After she left, I picked up the script and continued to read, but I couldn't concentrate.

After hesitating, I still put down the script, picked up my mobile phone and dialed Lu Chenyu's number.

The phone was connected, and he asked directly, "What's the matter?" ”

There was no greeting and the tone was not very friendly.

So I also asked straight to the point: "What did you do with Lu Zhiyao?"

"What?" he didn't seem to understand.

I explained: "It was when you were in Milan that you were with Lu Zhiyao and were photographed by the paparazzi on our company's side, and the news has been suppressed. I just wanted to ask you what you did with her. ”

". Lu Chenyu didn't think about it, and replied decisively.

This answer is really unexpected, but it is also expected. It is not surprising that Lu Chenyu would sleep with someone else, but this is the first time he has admitted it himself. Saying it so bluntly, I didn't know how to continue for a while.

"Oh, I see. I replied dryly.

"Got what?" he asked suddenly.

I can't say for a while. It's just that after he left the hotel after he had a fight with him that day, I really thought I was making him unhappy. Actually, I didn't think I had done anything wrong, but afterwards I couldn't help but think that if my actions really made him so unpleasant, maybe I was still wrong.

I even thought that maybe he would ...... me Feelings arise......

This is also normal. When actors are filming, sometimes they will inevitably get too deep into the scene. It's like a love scene, if you want to act really, you have to be emotional, and only if you let yourself believe that you love that person first, the audience will believe it. You love that character with all your heart, and the actor of that character is standing in front of you alive, how can you guarantee that this affection will not spread to that actor? You look at each other, you go to skin to skin, you tell countless hearts, at that moment, you love that person.

Therefore, it is inevitable that the actors will fall in love with each other because of the play.

But when the play is over, you should know that you love that character, and the actor himself is not the same as this character at all, and the love should come to an abrupt end. When filming, it is emotional, it is dedicated, and after filming, it can quickly withdraw from feelings, which is professional and basic professional ethics.

And this marriage drama between me and Lu Chenyu has been acting for more than three years. We have been a husband and wife for so long, and we have played so many rival scenes, so that everyone can believe that we are truly in love. And we didn't play any role, we all played in our true colors. It's not surprising to be emotionally involved in this process.

So when he kissed me uncontrollably and argued with me again, I began to wonder if he was also in love because of the play.

And what about me? What kind of attitude do I have towards him because of the drama? Do I have feelings for him?

These are all questions I need to think through. But I think things are very slow, especially when it comes to relationships, after all, I am inexperienced and need to think slowly by myself. But before I could figure it out, I realized that I was simply overly careful. If Sister Ai hadn't shown me a photo of him and Lu Zhiyao, I wouldn't have known that he was going to see his little lover, and he really left in a bad mood.

But there are so many complicated things that can't be explained clearly to Lu Chenyu. I replied briefly, "I see, it's okay to sleep with other people while we're married." ”

It was quiet on the other side of the phone, and Lu Chenyu didn't say anything.

"Well, it's okay, bye-bye. I hung up.

To be honest, it's a bit heart-wrenching.

But it's nothing, it'll be fine in a few days, especially with an increasingly busy schedule.

But life has hit me hard......

Sister Sun suddenly came to me and told me that she was going to take half a month's leave, and her son came back to get married.

Sister Sun is the nanny I hired and has been taking care of me for six or seven years. I have lived with my mother since I was a child, my mother's ten fingers do not touch the spring water, I was almost brought up by the nanny, and later went to the Pei family, the Pei family's servants are more complete, so I have no ability to take care of myself.

Before marrying Lu Chenyu, I also used the money I earned to buy a small apartment, and after changing three or four nannies back and forth, I finally met Sister Sun who satisfied me everywhere.

Sister Sun's husband died early, and her son was still studying in other places at that time, and the whole family relied on her to support herself, which was also very bitter. But she is the only one in the family, which is convenient for the work of a nanny and can live in the employer's house. She is quiet and quiet, very good at looking at her eyes, never disturbing me, and almost unaware of this person's presence except for keeping my home and life in order.

So when I moved to Lu Chenyu's house later, I also brought Sister Sun over. The house is so big, and there are two people to take care of, I originally wanted to invite another aunt to change shifts, but Sister Sun humbly told me that she can do these jobs alone, when I used to take care of me, I was often not at home, she worked very leisurely, and felt ashamed, sorry for the salary.

So I didn't hire anyone again, but gave Sister Sun an additional salary, she was grateful to me, and she was more serious in her work, and she never slackened.

In the past, even if there was something, she would only take a day off for three or two days at most. This half a month is like my life! But I can't interfere in such a major event as the marriage of my son, so I can only compromise and say: "Sister Sun, why don't you come every two or three days to help me clean up, I will really die at home without you." ”

Sister Sun looked embarrassed, "But my home is too far away from you." Even if it is a taxi, it takes more than two hours to go back and forth. ”

"What should I do?" I cried out in grief, "then I'll have to go out and stay in a hotel......!" Is your house close to my old house?"

I suddenly had a flash of inspiration and remembered that before I moved, Sister Sun's house seemed to be quite close to me. I didn't sell that house, I handed it over to the house trustee to clean and maintain it regularly, and I could also move back to live for a few days, so that my sister could come over and help me with housework.

Sister Sun also said that this is a good idea, her house is more than ten or twenty minutes away from me by bicycle, and she can come and go often.

Although I only lived for half a month, I still had to bring a lot of things with me, and I needed two suitcases for clothes and skin care products. I called in the laborer to help me tidy up, and I moved four suitcases.

I haven't come back to live for a long time, and I'm really a little unaccustomed to it for a while. Although it is not as spacious and rich as Lu Chenyu's house, it is also simple and comfortable, which is very suitable for living alone.

At work, I was perfunctory with Sister Ai while discussing the signing of the new company with Zhuo Zhinan. She has already helped me make an appointment with Qin Yu, the boss of their company, to meet and talk in detail.

I was asleep at night, my phone rang, and I opened my eyes dimly to see the screen, it was Lu Chenyu calling.

What do you do by calling without sleeping in the middle of the night?

I sat up, cleared myself, and cleared my throat again, not wanting to speak to him in a sleepy, languid voice.