The demon in my heart exploded, it destroyed me in my dreams, and made me know what a cruel, crazy, cowardly person I am.

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I had a nonsensical dream, it was the demon who took the opportunity to mess with me in my dream, lured me to fall secretly, and pushed me to the edge of madness step by step, and before I lost my mind, I tore myself apart with my own hands.

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In the dream, I am a company employee, the position is neither high nor low, my subordinates are in charge of some people, but also by many people, working alone, in that strange city, 9 to 5, living in the eyes of others I am a gentle, honest, humble, friendly person.

I rarely lose my temper, I am always kind to my subordinates, and I don't have any special flattery to my boss, and I do my job honestly and steadfastly.

In order to be able to be further promoted, I was ready to take an advanced certificate in a related major, and I also specially applied for a study guidance class, which cost me nearly half a month's salary, just a few classes, not to mention how beneficial it is, at least there is no harm.

After preparing for a long time, I finally arrived on the day of the exam, and went to the examination room with confidence.

The examination room was placed in a university, and I have always been conservative, so I went to see the examination room in advance, just in case, but the university in the city had its headquarters and another campus, so I confused the campus and entered the wrong examination room.

There was still half an hour left before the test, and it took about 20 minutes from the main campus to another campus, and I was busy taking a taxi to go there, urging the driver to take a shortcut all the way, so that I could add money.

Naturally, I arrived at another campus in fifteen minutes, but the huge campus, how to find the examination room is also troublesome, stop a classmate, open his mouth to ask for directions, the classmate pointed to the east and west, I have always had a bad sense of direction, and I can't recognize the southeast and northwest in an unfamiliar place.

I was embarrassed to let my classmates lead me there, and I went around and said some of the way that my classmates pointed out, I came to a teaching building, and found a classmate who asked if this was the teaching building for the exam, but I found that it was wrong again, and I looked at the time, there were about five minutes left.

This time, I asked the way and took out the admission ticket to show the classmate clearly, carrying the briefcase, and ran over in small steps.

Five minutes is quite long but also quite short, and when I found the teaching building and anxiously arrived at the examination room, it had already been two minutes since the exam.

Frustrated, carrying my bag and pinching the admission ticket, I got into the car back, this time I didn't have to rush at all, but I didn't look at the scenery along the way at all, and I was depressed, this time it was a waste of work.

Sitting alone in front of the computer at night, dealing with the rest of the work, in fact, it's a weekend, and there's no need to do this, but thinking that more effort will have results, and being idle is idle anyway.

But the more I did it, the more upset I became, I was worried about the things of the day, I had been preparing for so long, I had spent money, time, and energy, but there was no result. Blame who, blame myself for not seeing clearly in advance, blame the classmate who showed me the way for not pointing the way, blame the examiner for not being approachable, blame this for that, and the mood is extremely bad.

If it weren't for the classmate pointing the wrong way, I could have caught up with the exam, just two minutes away, I know I shouldn't blame him, but the demon in my heart defeated himself at this time and pushed this grievance to others, and that classmate became the object of my venting, yes, everything is to blame on him, if it wasn't for him, I could have been admitted, and I could have gotten the certificate smoothly, and I could have been promoted to department manager.

I also have to blame the examiner for being too cold-blooded, if his son or relatives came to take the exam, he would definitely let them in a minute or two, but he obstructed me in every way, weren't the teachers magnanimous in college, when did it get to such a point.

There is an impulse, a desire to destroy, and I dare not do anything like killing people and setting fires, but it is okay to scold a few swear words with ancestors, and if there is no legal constraint, it is not too much to beat or abuse.

The demon led me step by step, persuading me to let go of the rules and precepts in my heart, let go of my guard against it, and let it possess itself, to own this world, and to destroy, only destruction can be obtained.