Chapter 46: He Doesn't Love Her
The old man often said that when people can be together, they all pay attention to fate, and she and Fu Hansheng are probably two people who are born without fate.
She loved him desperately and loved what he loved.
He loves to learn, he is easy to learn, he doesn't know that he doesn't love learning so much, but he loves him more, so he seems to love learning very much.
He loves Coke, he loves Sprite, but every time he says he wants Coke, he doesn't know what I like to drink.
He doesn't like girls to be too noisy, he likes to be quiet, he tries not to be so manly, shows his girlish side, and learns to be coquettish in front of him.
In fact, when he was in his third year of junior high school, there were always a lot of love letters in the drawer, and he would always quietly ask his friends to help deal with them, so he did a lot of errands for the boy, and he didn't know it.
When he took the exam that year, when he came to send the exam, he asked her if she had someone she liked, and he swore that he didn't, and he lied to him.
He believed it and told herself to study hard, and she breathed a sigh of relief and passed it perfunctorily.
Later, she would always come home during the holidays and always treat him to the so-called hometown specialties he liked.
In fact, the things he likes are very difficult to buy, and he dragged his father for a long time before he brought them to her on a business trip, and he didn't know.
Every time I was out of school after self-study, someone picked up other students, but he didn't, she always waited for him at the gate of his school, pretending to meet him and go home with him.
He never told her that his parents were divorced, but she happened to hear a conversation with a neighbor near his house.
She was sad for a long time, and the boy didn't have a complete home.
She pretended not to know in front of him, because she didn't want him to be sad, it didn't matter, she loved him.
When she was preparing to skip a grade, she often fought at night, and her classmates took a nap during the day, she didn't dare to waste time.
She knew that she didn't have his talent, and when she was frustrated and wanted to break down and cry countless times, she wiped away her tears and forced herself to study, asked him to check her homework, and even offered him to tutor herself.
He held a parent-teacher conference in his sophomore year of high school, and she had to accompany him, and his father hadn't been home for a long time.
He didn't have any family in attendance, and he pretended to be his sister, and that was the only time he wanted to be his sister.
But if someone asked her privately if she was his sister, she wouldn't admit it.
Since then, almost everyone at Qingcheng High School has speculated that she likes him, and some of them are humble and don't need anything in return.
He was the one she had been desperately chasing throughout her youth, from elementary school to high school.
On the night he finished his college entrance examination, he asked her to come to a small alley, which was the last time he saw each other.
He frowned, his face was not very good-looking, and said in a deep voice, "I'm going abroad." ”
She squinted, thinking that he was joking, his family was not good, how could he go abroad, he would definitely not.
Li Min was a little uneasy, pressed his shoulder, his throat moved slightly, his eyes began to heat up, his eyes looked at his face inch by inch, carefully observing every subtle expression on his face, she couldn't find the kind of expression she wanted to see after all.
"I ...... I want to say to you alone, happy graduation. ”
He was silent and didn't say anything, waited for a while, and saw that she hadn't spoken, "Thank you, I'm leaving." ”
"Wait a minute. She immediately stretched out her hand and blocked his way, a little angry, "You are here to say goodbye today, you have nothing else to say to me?" Can you tell me if you have ...... Do you have...... Have you loved me?"
His tone was smiling, but it made people shudder, "You may have thought too much, but I never ...... Loved. ”
"Yes, but I love you so much, I love you so much that I have no ego but you. She struggled to restrain her emotions and suppressed her voice.
Fu Hansheng's eyes did not fluctuate in the slightest, and even his expression did not change.
"We've always been just friends. ”
"Who the lacks friends, I just want you to love me and want you, do you understand?" Li Min was a little incoherent, and he lost his former calmness.
"I ...... No...... Yes...... Love...... You. Fu Hansheng snorted lightly, spoke slowly, and raised the butcher's knife as if Ling Chi was bloodless.
"No, no, no, we have been in a relationship for so many years, how can you not feel it at all?" took his hand without giving up, pursed his lips, and the corners of his lips trembled slightly.
Fu Hansheng approached her slowly, stood up straight, stretched out his hand to put her against the wall behind him, and the whole person slowly approached, like a cello, with a thick and plump tone, full of magnetism, but the words that could be said made her heart completely cold.
"It's always been your one-man show, how reluctant and narcissistic you are, how much you feel like I love you. Of course, if you want to come to your door for free, I won't refuse, even though I'm not interested in your face. ”
His tone made Li Min feel very uncomfortable, feeling like a joke, the heroine in the joke, self-conscious, funny.
Maybe she has always been greedy, knowing that the two of them are no longer possible, but she still wants to get it, even if it is for a day.
She smiled at him and reached out to touch his handsome silhouette, full of reluctance.
Looking up at him, Hao said without hesitation, "Okay, where are we going later?"
He laughed lowly, Li Min still looked at him with a serious face, and said, "Either love me or I die." ”
His laughter didn't stop, he kept that tone all the time, laughing neither high nor low.
He laughed and said, "I'm not kidding you, don't think I can't do it." ”
She sneered and said, "Then do you dare to do it?"
He raised his eyes, took a deep look at her, reached out and pinched her chin, and whispered, slightly sarcastically, "It's really cheap...... It's an appetite. ”
The two came to a hotel, and the proprietress saw that it was two students, and couldn't help reminding: "Girls go out, love themselves, don't be deceived by some rhetoric." ”
The two opened a single room, Fu Hansheng took the key from the proprietress hand, there was no trace of warmth in his eyes, and walked away with the girl in his arms.
Li Min turned around and smiled at the proprietress, her eyes full of sadness and determination.
The proprietress muttered, "Today's children are too young."
When they entered the room, the two kissed each other with some urgency.
She looked into his eyes quietly, without saying a word, at this moment there were thousands of emotions intertwined in her heart, and his calm and self-contained face was reflected in the black pupils.
She closed her eyes in pain, inhaled secretly, swallowed the bitterness of her heart, and let out a chuckle.
The girl in the room laughed a lot, and gradually she didn't laugh anymore, and her eyes were wet.
He looked at the girl with deep eyes, there was no wave in his eyes, those eyes were once full of stars, but now they were full of tears.
She looked into the boy's eyes, her voice was choppy, and she smiled and said, "I...... I...... Love you. ”
The boy didn't care about her reaction, and smiled weirdly.
For a long, long time, everything was calm.
The room was dimly lit, with only a few downlights on, and it was silent.
Li Min squinted at him, his whole body was in pain and weakness, the corners of his mouth hooked, and said, "You should stay now." ”
He got out of bed and got dressed, walked slowly to the window, looked at her condescendingly, and said nothing.
lit a cigarette and smoked it, silently watching her frown and chuckling.
Li Min didn't speak again, her hand holding the quilt tightened, and she looked at the boy who was walking towards her step by step.
He lifted the quilt very rudely, and said calmly, "Do it again." ”
Li Min pursed his lips, his face was red and white for a while, he didn't love her, and he didn't care about her feelings at all.
She didn't resist, and everything fell into place.
Fu Hansheng may have enjoyed himself this time, and his tone was a little softer: "I said I couldn't give you anything, if you don't want to, get out." ”
The boy's thick eyebrows, deep eyes, and unchanging face blurted out the words of desperation, without a trace of hesitation, and the two became extremely strange overnight.