Wei Chenglin quickly became popular in No. 2 Middle School, and before he even thought of the right way to deal with it, the school arranged a bunch of performance tasks for him, and the little girls who wrote notes to him sprung up like mushrooms after a rain.

In the face of sudden fame and fortune, Wei Chenglin rarely kept calm. He often stared at his hands, and knew very well how many pounds and taels he had. For him, there is no problem in coping with school-level performances, but with his current level, he simply can't compete with the professionals.

Privately, he would also look for videos of contemporary pianists, and while watching them, he thought that he should have been one of them. And now he can only look at the screen, envying the stage full of flowers and applause.

His friends all advised him, Cheng Lin, to start playing the piano again! Take the road of art students! Although he still has some doubts about the piano, he has not considered taking this path, and he even mustered up the courage to go to a music teacher to consult about art students.

After being a bad student for too long, he was used to having low self-esteem, for fear that the teacher would laugh at him, and he had no confidence to ask. However, he was warmly received by the music teacher and showed great appreciation for his musical talent. But when it came time to learn about his grades in his culture class, the music teacher was very difficult.

"You...... If you start practicing piano again now and practice hard for two years, you can choose any domestic art college, but your cultural class grades are ...... It's just too bad. Piano and cultural classes require a lot of time, how do you balance it? Perhaps the most optimistic outcome is to go to a local normal school and learn music education or something. ”

The teacher's words were very pertinent, but Wei Chenglin was obviously not satisfied with such a way out. He walked out of the office, still habitually with his hands in his pockets, squinting at the spring sun.

The teacher also told him just now that she has a classmate who works in a record company, and if Wei Chenglin wants to be an artist, she can recommend it.

The surprise was yes, but Wei Chenglin did not give an answer on the spot. He thought of Jolene and her experience of being favored by S-M's domestic agent. But Qiao Lin didn't go to be a trainee, because she had a dream of winning the championship, she didn't want to leave regrets, and wanted to be more confident in art.

Wei Chenglin was bathed in the sunshine and wanted to clarify his thoughts. In this alley, in this family home, there was a math bully. The Qiao family, which is closest to his home, has no hesitation in devoting themselves to the field of their dreams; Sun Ruiyang gave up the opportunity to be sent to study infectious diseases......

In this materialistic society, they are also powerful scholars, who can obviously choose more popular majors and embark on a brilliant life, but none of them do so. Without exception, they chose "ideal", a word that we often mention, but often scoffed at. But these brothers and sisters are so firm and follow their heart's wishes.

What about me? Wei Chenglin asked himself over and over again -- what is my ideal?

The piano has been abandoned for too long, and the dream of being a performer has been shattered; he has not achieved satisfactory results in going to university; he has not had too outstanding skills other than the piano to become an artist; he has not had too outstanding specialties other than the piano; he has become a professional e-sports player? Alas, come on! In the distant year of 2007, e-sports players were basically equated with "not doing their jobs".

Wei Chenglin's mother is still in a hurry, so busy that she can't even eat. One day at noon, Wei Chenglin rarely went back to his store to eat, and his mother was interrupted three times by a guest during a meal. Looking at his busy mother, Wei Chenglin felt very uncomfortable: "Mom, do you think I'm useless?"

Zhao Yanfen's eyes widened: "Who said that?

Wei Chenglin pulled the rice: "No." On this street, I seem to be the worst. Compared with Brother Qiao Nan and Brother Ruiyang, I don't understand anything, I can't do anything, I feel very ...... It's boring!"

Zhao Yanfen immediately interrupted her son: "You have taken some detours compared to other children, but who said you can't do it? No matter what others think, but in the eyes of my mother, nothing is more precious than you, and you are better than anyone else! Don't look down on yourself because you don't study well." ”

In Wei Chenglin's eyes, her mother is a very cheesy woman, and it is rare for her to be so emotional. Wei Chenglin pulled the rice hard and did not refute his mother's words. Although he didn't know what he was going to do in the future, he decided to live his life seriously. As long as you get serious, you may be able to see the direction clearly.

Different from Wei Chenglin's hesitation, after domineering the S School visiting group, Sun Ruiyang strode forward towards his ideal. With less than two months to go before the college entrance examination, he is confident enough to be admitted to the school of his dreams.

One night in mid-April, when he came out to the toilet at 12 o'clock at night, he saw his mother flipping through a very old photo album, as if she was secretly wiping her tears. Seeing him coming, Chen Yun hurriedly closed the album and asked him if he wanted something to eat. Sun Ruiyang said so-so that he didn't want to eat anything, but he saw exactly that his mother had hidden something.

So, after his mother fell asleep, he crept back to the living room and pulled out the old photo album. There are many albums of the Sun family, and this one is basically a photo of his parents when they were young, and most of the people in it Sun Ruiyang don't know, so he is not interested in looking at it. This was the first time he took the initiative to open this photo album, and as he flipped through it, he found something wrong.

A boxy piece of paper was inserted in the middle of the photo, and Sun Ruiyang took it out and found that it turned out to be a B-ultrasound list from the mid-eighties. There were a bunch of words written on it, and Sun Ruiyang was dizzy and could only see two words clearly - stillbirth.

Sun Ruiyang's heart was pinched, and he confirmed the time, which was May 1, 1985. It's mid-April, and there's not a few days left until May 1st. Could it be that this is the child that his parents once lost? When his "death day" came, his mother remembered him again?

He vaguely heard the adults say that his parents had a child before, who should have been about the same age as Brother Qiao Nan, but his mother had an unexpected miscarriage, and the child did not come to the world. In this way, this is much more serious than a miscarriage, a few days before birth, the child was stillborn, right?

Adults can always tell these heart-wrenching past events in an understatement tone, and Sun Ruiyang is a boy, so he won't take these things to heart at all. Parents must be very sad to lose their first child, right? But he never thought that after more than 20 years, his mother would still be in pain and couldn't sleep all night.

Sun Ruiyang put the B-ultrasound sheet back up, put the album back in the living room, and fell asleep under the covers. The things he saw just now didn't stir up too many ripples in his heart, and he soon fell asleep.

In a daze, he was shaken awake, and it turned out to be his father standing by his bedside.

"I'm going to Shanghai with your mother, and I'm going to leave soon. ”

Sun Ruiyang came out of the quilt with a bird's nest on his head, yawned and asked, "What happened?"

"Your grandfather has passed away. ”

"Ah?!" Sun Ruiyang woke up all of a sudden, and remembered: "Yes, I still have a grandfather!

"No, I don't. Even if he goes, he doesn't necessarily know you. ”

"......" Sun Ruiyang didn't know how to take it, but Dad was right. Mom has long been disconnected from the family, and it is said that grandpa and uncle have not forgiven their mother, so they should not know about the existence of him and the baby, right?

Thinking of this, Sun Ruiyang grabbed the bird's nest on his head and said, "Then you both go to Shanghai, what should I do with the baby?"

Professor Sun handed over five large bills with an expressionless face: "Living expenses." You can fend for yourself, but you have to take care of the baby. ”

"......" Sun Ruiyang's communication with his father has always been simple and direct, he took his father's money and nodded so-so.

"Don't go to self-study this morning, your mother has already communicated with Teacher Li. When your baby wakes up, you send her to school and then go to the second middle school. ”

"Okay, I got it. After Sun Ruiyang finished speaking, he vaguely heard his mother's sobbing. He walked to his parents' bedroom, and sure enough, he saw his mother crying while packing her luggage.

"Mom......" Sun Ruiyang shouted carefully, he was most afraid that his mother would cry.

"Oh, I'm fine. I have explained to Teacher Li, and she will come to take care of you in the next few days. Don't worry about me, don't delay your studies, it's almost time to take the college entrance examination, don't be distracted. Chen Yun's eyes were red from crying, but she still arranged the big and small things properly.

Sun Ruiyang was a little incomprehensible: "Grandpa is so ruthless to you, he didn't care about your life or death, you still have to go back to his funeral?"

"Your uncle called me, and he contacted me for the first time in so many years. He said, your grandfather has come to an end in his life, what knot in his heart can't be untied? Those grievances and grievances should be put aside. Chen Yun is a native of Shanghai, and she is more accustomed to using "grandfather" than "grandfather". She said slowly: "I am also at fault, and I shouldn't be so willful." At the end of the day, there is no one with them. ”

Sun Ruiyang hugged his mother and whispered a few words of comfort, and Professor Sun silently packed his luggage. Sun Ruiyang suddenly thought that his parents had eloped to Hong Kong City, and when he returned to Shanghai this time, his uncles wouldn't beat his father, right?

So, he said worriedly: "Dad, why don't I accompany you to Shanghai! ”

Professor Sun sneered, dismissing to make any reply.

Sun Ruiyang shut up stupidly, and after sending his parents out of the house, he tiptoed to his sister's room. The baby slept on all fours, with his little nose shrugged and made an even breathing sound, completely unaware of what was going on outside.

Sun Ruiyang covered his sister with a quilt and looked at this little guy with pity. Although sometimes he thinks she is noisy and annoying, it cannot be denied that he does like her very much.

Sun Ruiyang lay down beside his sister, and suddenly remembered the stillborn brother and the grandfather who had just died. After losing so many people, my mother must be very bitter in her heart, right? He looked at the baby attentively and said in a low voice, "It's okay, Mom still has us." ”