"An An, it's not me talking about you, you look at your interview script, it's messy and I don't know what to do!" Linda slammed the pen on the table.

The originally noisy interview department fell silent in an instant.

Watching his colleagues find excuses to walk out of the door one after another, Guo Anan's long-suppressed anger finally erupted.

"Mr. Lin, if you are still worried about what happened last time, you can tell me directly, let's talk openly and do these small actions behind your back. Guo An'an's voice trembled with anger, but he still tried to keep his voice calm.

"Guo An'an, I'm talking about the problem of your manuscript now! Please don't use the topic to play!"

Lin Da vigorously put a big cross on the title of the manuscript submitted for review and threw it to Guo Anan, "This manuscript is not suitable for the layout, you take it back and find a new topic to report." ”

Guo Anan took the paper manuscript and flipped through a few pages, and a few large sections circled by a red pen looked like a knife into her chest.

Since Guo Anan joined Lu Daily, her interview scripts have been known for her sophisticated writing and accurate angles, and she has been rated as an outstanding employee and business backbone for many years. Even the teachers who took her rarely criticized her manuscripts.

Looking at the content of Linda's annotation carefully, Guo Anan is even more angry, "lack of logic", "unclear explanation of the incident", "unobjective description...... This sentence undoubtedly calls into question Guo An'an's professionalism as a senior journalist.

"Mr. Lin, you say I'm not objective? I think there are other people who aren't objective!" Guo Anan sneered and tore the paper manuscript into pieces, threw it into the trash can, and walked away.

Since two months ago, Guo Anan secretly visited the clues of the Bilin Group's project under construction, and after Lin Da found a reason to get stuck in the manuscript, Guo Anan became an angry little daughter-in-law in Lubao.

Later, Guo Anan learned that Bilin Group was a big customer that Linda had negotiated with, and the annual advertising expenses alone were worth Guo Anan's salary for working overtime for several years. In order to retain this big customer, Lin Da gave Bilin Group a smile, and also gave Guo Anan small shoes to wear.

However, Guo Anan's interview script must be reviewed by Lin Da himself before it can be published to the public, and Guo An'an, who was originally approved once, also reworked and supplemented the interview again and again under Lin Da's "meticulous" review.

At first, Guo Anan thought that Linda was serious and responsible, and he was full of joy and thanked Linda for giving him room for progress. But gradually, the quality of Guo An'an's manuscripts declined, his ability to deal with things was poor, and his business collapsed when talking about customers...... These have become recognized secrets in the office, and Guo An'an, who rarely tastes failure, also began to doubt her own ability, and she sometimes even began to wonder if she was a journalist? Even if Guo Anan later realized that Linda was deliberately targeting herself, she had lost the confidence she had at the beginning.

After this incident, the interview department set up a rule that the topic must be reported every morning, lest the reporter collide with the "family" without the knowledge of the leader. Guo An'an's original mouth was also transferred to others little by little under Linda's operation, and in order to complete the daily interview task, Guo An'an had to think bald just to choose the topic.

Guo Anan rushed out of the office, she was afraid that if she stayed for another second, she would pick up the chair next to her and smash it at Linda, she had the urge to destroy this office, but the remaining reason told her not to become a shrew. She felt like her chest was going to explode, and every breath was heartbreaking.

She wanted to complain to Ren Xudong, but she didn't get through after a few phone calls, and she suddenly remembered that they had broken up for a week. And my good friend He Xiaogang jumped to a Fortune 500 company, and this time is estimated to be too busy to touch the ground.

Guo Anan put away his mobile phone and sat on the stairs with his arms crossed. The voice-activated lights had long since been extinguished, and the entire hallway was pitch black, blocking all talk out of the fire door.

"What's the point of living like this?"

The misanthropy that was once the most shameless by Guo Anan came out again.

In the past 31 years, Guo An'an looked down on those cowards who committed suicide the most, and she always felt that since those people were not even afraid of death, what was there to be afraid of in life! But now she is about to become such a person.

In her bag, she also contained the diagnosis she had received from the counseling room two days earlier, moderate depression.

Since a month ago, Guo Anan began to lose hair and insomnia, and even in her dreams, Linda was criticizing her interview script, every time she fell asleep was a challenge, she had a headache when she couldn't sleep, and she was in pain after falling asleep.

Her mental state is not as good as day by day, but Ren Xudong, who has been in love for seven years, seems to have seen nothing, except for swiping his mobile phone in front of the computer, the two of them are more like friends who share a house.

Until a week ago, Ren Xudong cooked a table of good dishes and waited for Guo Anan to go home. After eating, Ren Xudong looked at Guo Anan with pity, and he said, "An'an, I got an offer from Mi Guo." ”

Guo Anan was a little confused, she knew that Ren Xudong was practicing English hard every day, which she forced him to do, before she always hoped that her other half would be better and better, but now he was going to work abroad, so good that he didn't give her a little buffer.

"When did you apply?, so what should I do?" Guo Anan blurted out.

"An An, let's separate. ”

In a word, to put it mildly, Guo An'an's heart turned upside down.

"No!" Guo Anan stared at Ren Xudong, she once thought that even if they separated, she should have brought it up first, but she loved Ren Xudong so much, how could she mention breaking up.

"An An, I may not come back if I go to the United States, it is good for you and me that we are separated. ”

"No, you can't. Don't leave me, I can go to the United States with you, I don't want the work here, I can accompany you, why should we be separated!" Guo Anan kept with a crying voice.

She used to be so proud, outstanding, talented, and her boyfriend who was one in a million also loved her like a treasure in the palm of her hand, Guo Anan before the age of 30 was like a radiant little sun.

But after his 31st birthday, everything changed.

"Guo An'an, don't you always say that I'm dirty and think I'm stupid? Okay, now that I'm going to the United States, you can finally afford me? Don't cry and pretend to be pitiful, I've had enough of you! Why should I take you with me, you will always be so self-righteous and want to control other people's lives, please put away your self-righteous and clever style. Ren Xudong stood up and looked at Guo An'an condescendingly.

Guo Anan looked at him in disbelief, those hearts that had broken for him turned out to be self-righteous manipulation in the end?

"The house is left to you, and I have already paid the rent three months in advance. Don't worry, I will pay you for the loss of youth and hit your ICBC card. Ren Xudong no longer paid attention to Guo Anan, picked up the luggage he had packed a long time ago and went out.

Guo Anan found out that Ren Xudong had already moved his things away little by little, and Guo Anan was so worried about his work that he didn't find out.

Falling on the bed, Guo Anan hated the feeling of being alive for the first time. She thought, if she died like this, would Ren Xudong be sad?

Over the next few days, the thought recurred. There was also hair loss everywhere on the floor and pillow towels at home. Guo Anan knew that something was wrong, but she began to lose control of her emotions more and more, which made her even more desperate.

After taking the prescription drugs prescribed by the doctor, Guo Anan always felt groggy and seemed to have a dark cloud in her mind, but at least she would not think of retaliating against Ren Xudong in an extreme way.

Guo Anan suppressed herself and buried her head between her legs, she wanted to cry, but she couldn't cry, her heart was numb, but her brain was churning, it was a fire that wanted to destroy everything, making her want to destroy Linda, destroy the office that stained her, destroy the people who abandoned her, and destroy herself!

"It's so tired, it's really tiring to be alive. Guo An'an's clenched fists trembled slightly, she is a decent person, even if she leaves, she must leave proudly and beautifully.

For a moment, Guo Anan thought of many ways to free himself from here, and then denied them one by one.

I don't know how long he sat there, Guo Anan's legs were numb to the point of being unconscious. Suddenly, the fire-door upstairs slammed open and slammed shut.

"Mr. Wang, I know how precious this opportunity to sign up is, and I also know that you are considering recommending me because of your importance, and I am very grateful to you. But you also know that my child is only nine months old, and the child's grandmother is not in good health, so I really can't do without it!"

"Liu Fang, we only have this one quota for the medical expedition this time, and I finally applied to Mr. Huang to give the quota to our video group, you must cherish it!"

The two muttered upstairs, but they didn't find Guo Anan sitting downstairs.

"Going on the expedition with the doctor?" Guo An'an's ears sounded like a thunderclap. The outbreak of the new coronavirus epidemic has long been overwhelmed by news reports, and the situation in Huhan City can be said to be very bad, and many medical workers have not even been spared.

It's a dangerous mission, and no one can guarantee that you won't be infected, and the worst outcome is probably to die in the line of duty.

But for Guo An'an, temporarily leaving the newspaper office, escaping from Linda, and escaping from the small home that still has Ren Xudong's breath can be regarded as a short-term relief.

Liu Fang and Mr. Wang parted unhappily. After the door closes, the voice-activated lights come on again.

Guo Anan stood against the wall for a while before he regained consciousness on both legs. Two days ago, a psychiatrist advised her to travel to clear her mind and release the anxiety and stress caused by work and relationships.

Guo Anan also felt that if he continued like this, he was afraid that sooner or later he would completely collapse. After taking this opportunity to fulfill her dream of becoming a war correspondent, she plans to submit her resignation letter when she returns, become a freelance writer, and never look at Linda's face again.

She limped upstairs, anyway, this was probably the last time she went in and out of the newspaper building, so she simply crossed Linda directly and applied to Mr. Huang to go on the expedition, at least there would be no more stumbling blocks in the middle.

Huang Qingquan is the chairman of Lu Bao Newspaper Group, since the newspaper from the business to the state-owned enterprises, he has led the transformation and upgrading of the group, expand the influence of Lu Bao, to now the group's business, especially the media, has basically achieved full coverage of the province's counties. Such a bold person, who usually gets along with employees, but has never slapped the table and blushed, is a boss with employees in his eyes.

Mr. Huang's office is on the 17th floor of the newspaper, and Guo Anan is ready to come here for the last time, so there is no psychological burden to knock on the door of Mr. Huang's office.

Mr. Huang has long heard of Guo An'an's name, and he admires this talented little girl very much, and this time he saw her take the initiative to invite Ying to the battlefield, and he had a little more respect in addition to appreciation.

"An'an, you also know the situation in Huhan City now, after the past, the conditions will be very difficult and dangerous, have you really thought about it?" Mr. Huang took the data he had at hand to Guo An'an, and the confirmed and new numbers on it were shocking.

Guo Anan smiled slightly, she pays attention to these digital changes every day, and is very clear about the current situation of the epidemic.

"I've thought about it, Mr. Huang, I'm going. First, I joined the newspaper after graduating from university, and I have been a senior reporter among young reporters for 7 years, and my business knowledge is strong enough. Second, I am a party member, and now that the country needs me, I will rush to the front. Third, I am a journalist, and my career dream is to let more people see the truth. So, I hope you can give me this chance. ”

Guo Anan tapped the death number on the data, she thought, the worst and worst result of this trip is to make herself a number, but if she can come back safely, it will be a new self......

But when she walked out of Mr. Huang's office, a sense of loss shrouded Guo An'an's head again - if she really left, would anyone feel sorry for her? Will anyone still think about her?