Three years, three years in prison has almost completely changed me, I am more calm and deeper than I was three years ago, and I am not as impetuous as I was three years ago.

Looking back at my former self now, I feel ridiculous, like a child who hasn't grown up.

I don't know what maturity means to a person, maybe it's not a good thing, because maturity makes us lose our innocence and become more sophisticated.

But, isn't this life?

At the wine table, my dad and I chatted over drinks, and my mom occasionally participated, and the family was very harmonious.

We talked about trivial matters, such as my life in prison, such as their life for the past three years.

I didn't say a word about why they were selling.

My dad asked me, "Now that I'm back, are you going to do anything?"

In fact, before I was released from prison, I thought about my life after I got out countless times, but when I actually came out, I seemed a little dazed.

Because the world now makes me a little trance-like, everything has changed too much, everything has become unfamiliar, and I feel as if I have been abandoned by this world.

After being in a trance for a while, I replied: "I haven't thought about it for the time being, let's talk about it after I get my ID card ready!"

My mother also echoed: "That's it, my son is just coming back, let him slow down!"

As he spoke, he put a piece of braised pork ribs in my bowl: "Son, eat more, this is your favorite, and when you have the conditions, your mother will make it for you herself." ”

"Thank you, Mom!"

My mom smiled at me and said, "By the way, in the three years you have been away, that friend of yours has often come to visit me and your dad, and every time he comes, he brings a lot of things." ”

While eating the pork ribs, I asked, "Which friend, Han Lu or Xiaobei?"

My dad chimed in: "He often comes to his house, but your mother is not talking about them, she is a girl." ”

"Girl?" I was stunned, and the first person I thought of was Jin Yunxin.

"Yes," my mother replied, putting another piece of meat in my bowl and saying, "That girl has a good heart, her name is An An, have you forgotten?"

"An An!?" I exclaimed, and naturally remembered who it was, wasn't it Li An'an.

I don't know why, but I'm a little lost because it's not who I think I am.

But I never expected that Li Anan would really take my words seriously, she came to the prison to see me a few times, and several times I asked her to visit my parents often, and she really did.

To be honest, I was very touched and grateful to her.

Then my dad said, "Now that you're back, you have time to thank them in person." ”

I nodded and replied, "Yes, I will." ”

Then I asked again, "By the way, do you know about Han Lu and Xiaobei's situation?"

My dad answered again: "They are all very good children, Han Lu is now running a company, the scale seems to be quite large, and Xiaobei is also in charge of dozens of large trucks." ”

It seems that they have really succeeded, too, Han Lu himself has good resources, he also has business acumen, and he has money, so he will not lose anything.

But I don't envy, because we are brothers.

But my mother felt that I was unbalanced, and she hurriedly changed the topic and said, "By the way, son, do you remember Aunt Zhang's Xiao Dai?"

I thought for a moment and said, "Dai Miao?"

My mother nodded and replied, "Yes, she is married, she got married last year, and her husband seems to be called by their company." ”

"Oh, that's good. I smiled faintly.

My mother seemed to think that I was unhappy again, and changed the topic and said, "Don't worry, son, you are the best in my heart and your father." ”

I couldn't help but laugh and said, "Mom, don't be like this, I'm really not unbalanced at all, I know exactly where I'm now, and I'm the best." ”

My mom laughed, and then my dad picked up his glass and said, "My son is here, and I have a sip to go home at the end, and it's not too early." ”

My dad and I clinked glasses and drank them all and then I went to check out, but my dad called me back and said he was going to pay the bill.

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I was about to leave after dropping my parents back at the hotel, but my dad asked me where I was going and why I didn't stay with them.

I made an excuse and said that I would go to Han Lu and let them stay in the hotel for the time being, and then move out when I found a house.

My dad didn't ask much and left after dropping them off in the room.

On a late October night, it was quite cold on the streets, and many pedestrians were already dressed in cotton clothes, but I was just a thin jacket.

I wrapped myself up tightly, lit a cigarette and walked down the somewhat cold street, I had no aim, I just wanted to find a cheaper guest house.

After walking several streets, I couldn't find a cheap place to sleep, so I finally decided to stay in an Internet café and spent ten yuan to open an all-nighter.

In those days, Internet access was still quite cheap, unlike today's Internet cafes, which cost four or five yuan an hour, and were divided into competitive areas and ordinary areas.

Although I don't have an ID card, anyone who has been in prison knows that when I am released from prison, the prison police will issue an identity certificate, which is equivalent to a temporary ID card.

But when I got on the machine, the cashier looked at me again and again, in short, he had an inexplicable bad feeling for me, and even when I went to find a location, the network manager followed me.

There were quite a lot of people in the Internet café, so I found a corner spot, and after turning on the computer, I stared at the computer screen in a daze, and I didn't know what to do.

The webmaster was right behind me, as if he was afraid that I would do something bad.

I was actually quite annoyed in my heart, but I couldn't help it, people who have been in prison are just different from others, they just want to be inferior, and this is what my master told me before I was released from prison, telling me not to worry too much, just stick to being myself.

After sitting for about half an hour, I remembered my QQ number and password, and then logged in to QQ.

As soon as I boarded, I received a lot of news, most of which were sent by Li An'an, and half were sent by Jin Yunxin.

I watched the records one by one, but I could only look at the last year, and even the last year there were countless messages from them.

I don't know why they sent me messages, knowing I couldn't see them in prison.

didn't say anything else, Li Anan told me some nonsense, which seemed to be classic quotations copied from the Internet.

Jin Yunxin said something about her recent life, but there were only a few, and she didn't send any news after February this year.

The last message she sent me was this: Lin Dong, are you okay? I seem to have forgotten about you, and I don't know if it's good or bad, I have met new people, and I will soon start a new life, I wish you all the best!