Chapter 44: Why Give Up?

R8 was driving on the road, and many cars were slowly overtaken by them, and Zhuge Dali looked at these cars that were left behind.

"Did you hear me?

"Well, when I heard that this is your love, I'll go down without anyone else worrying about it. He nodded vigorously.

"What about the previous ones?"

"I also heard it, it was Yifei who asked you to accompany me, but you didn't want to come by yourself. ”

"It's also normal, you don't know that I'm going to do research, it must be Yifei who said it, and why would you specifically ask her what I'm doing, how can you take the initiative to come to accompany me, and you don't like me. Zhuge Dali said very seriously, as if she had given up something, Liu Jing looked at her expression, not knowing if she was holding on or really thinking so.

"Do you think I don't like you?" Liu Jing was a little surprised.

"Yes, how can you like me, I don't have anything to attract you, I'm really high-IQ. ”

Zhuge said with a smile, and his eyes were covered with another layer of mist.

"I've always liked you, I've been reading your books since I was a child, sometimes laughing, sometimes crying, and even playing games developed by you all night, and looking for your videos and materials, just like a girl chasing stars, but fortunately not chasing stars, because you are a writer. Zhuge vigorously continued, as if she wanted to make a summary of her seven days.

"I liked you from the first time I saw you, I wanted to work hard to become independent and rational, so that I would become what you want, you want a rational and independent Arlo, you want to be affectionate and single-minded, but I can't do it. ”

"It's not normal, you said that no one is perfect, and I'm not perfect, so super vigorously behaves like a little girl in front of you, maybe I don't like you The only thing I can't do. ”

"So no, I have to give up, because you don't like little girls, I know, because my brain will reduce the secretion of the ephinate bark substance because you say you didn't want it yourself, and my blood pressure and heart rate will change badly, but I can't help it, I can't control my brain, so I'll be sad, but the absolutely rational and independent person you want won't be sad. ”

"When did I want an absolutely rational girlfriend..."Liu Jing said silently.

Zhuge glanced at Liu Jing vigorously.

"Oh, it doesn't matter, I've given up, I've been at war with heaven and man, you know?"

"Huh?" Liu Jing replied softly.

"It's my reason, my reason will tell me, 'Give up, Great, he's so perfect, it's horribly perfect, you can't hold him, he doesn't belong to your current rank.

"It said to me, 'You have to find a guy of a similar rank, so that you don't get addicted to feelings, so that you can protect yourself well, and you will never get hurt like your mother.'" ’”

"You know my parents are separated, right?" asked Zhuge vigorously, as she said these words as she seemed to be in no mood and relaxed.

"Well, I know. ”

"When I used to be sad, I would hide alone, sometimes in the closet, and then my grandparents would come and coax me, and they would know where I was, and then they would leave, and my grandma would tell my dad that I would do this, and then my dad would come and coax me. ”

"Later, when I was 10 years old, my father left, and he told my mother about it, but by that time I had grown up, I was already sensible, and I didn't want to be sad anymore, so my mother just knew and didn't coax me. ”

"That's when I first read your book, the blasphemous first one, and then when I was sad, I sat in the bay window and read. ”

"You see, I'll be easily overdone in front of you, because I'm not ready, and the thought of you by my side makes me feel like a little child who loves to behave. ”

"I feel sad at the thought that I might have messed up this research, and as a result, you are still coaxing me, and the more you coax me, the more sad I become. ”

"I'm 19 years old now, Mr. Liu Jing, you've been in my life for almost ten years, but I've only been in your life for seven days. ”

"The girls around you are very good, Chen Nuo, Huang Yao, the prototype of Aluo, Sister Chen Nuo, like a satellite, looks around you all the time, the things and people around you, she seems to know everything, and most importantly, you also have a high tolerance for her, just like Iron Man and Little Pepper without love. And Sister Huang Yao stood in front of me, I didn't know the bottom of my heart, because she was your first love, and you have so many stories. ”

"You're too difficult, it's like the Lord of the Rings. ”

"It's not fair, so I'm going to throw in the towel. ”

Zhuge wiped his eyes vigorously and said with a smile.

"I thought I wouldn't cry. ”

She turned her head to the outside and wiped her tears with her hands, but as if this thing couldn't be wiped dry, she wiped more and more.

The vigorous appearance was printed upside down on the car window, and Liu Jing looked at her quietly.

The car stopped, this is a suburb, next to the endless green plain, Liu Jing parked on the side of the road.

The sun was suddenly blocked by a few clouds, and the whole sky was overcast.

Zhuge Dali was still wiping her tears, and she didn't know why she was crying, like a little girl.

I was angry before, too, because I was sad at the thought of it was over.

I can't cry, he doesn't like little girls, so I can't be like a little girl.

But it's so short, it's only been seven days, it's only a little time, is it really over?

I tried really hard to make myself look like a girl, really, I really tried hard.

But it's really hard, so I'm going to give up, Mr. Liu Jing.

Dali suddenly began to recall, like a replay of death at the end of an event, or a wonderful moment.

She remembered that she was in the elevator with Liu Jing, she blocked him, and remembered the hot breath from the back of her neck.

She remembered that Liu Jing put a coat on her, took out fever medicine from her pocket, and said to her, "Look, isn't it here." ”

She remembered every chat with Liu Jing, every second back, and the apprehension and entanglement that belonged to the novice.

She remembered that when she was preparing for the process at the mid-year meeting, Liu Jing was walking on the red carpet, and she secretly looked at him, as if her heart had flown away.

She remembered the first call with Liu Jing, she wanted to go to the happy appearance of the WeChat account, she remembered that she was lying on the table, looking at the stars outside the window, thinking about him.

She remembered the first time she met Liu Jing.

The world was darkened, and he was the only light for her.

She still remembers that at that time, her heart was like a 12-cylinder engine running at high speed, pumping hot and fresh blood to all parts of her body, and her head was like the computing center of Tianhe-1, calculating the distance between her and Liu Jing.