As human beings, there are always things to worry about, as sons of men, husbands, fathers, we play various roles, we live not so freely, we are afraid of this and that, because of the lack of that salary, endure humiliation and burden, and keep our voices low, these are some, and there is no shame, because people have weaknesses.

Weakness is therefore a vulnerable place that needs special protection, and this special gives others a message that they will know that it is your weakness. In society, you have to guard against it, but there are always times when you can't prevent it, one is that it is easy for others to hurt you when they see it clearly, and the other is that your weakness itself will easily hurt yourself.

Simple, a child from a peasant family, it was easy to endure hunger, poverty, the temptation of money, social rumors, and went to college, but these were not enough, at least not enough in front of his parents, just because he failed to be admitted to a very famous university, in his backward village, what can be known by others are well-known famous universities in China, he is very helpless, he has worked hard, and he has fantasized about it, but when he woke up from his dream, he ushered in tears, crying, became the only thing he could do, he was not sorry for anyone, he was very wronged.

This is not the first time he has shed tears, since he was a child, his parents have high expectations, he studied hard, he has always been the pride of his parents in their village, the results of the high school entrance examination came out, his picture was posted in the most conspicuous place, to urge the young children, he became a part of the best high school in the city. But his eyes gradually began to blur, and he was so short-sighted that he had to wear glasses, which was a lot of money, and he was ashamed, but what made him sad was the "accusation" from his father, saying that the accusation would be too serious, but his father complained that he had broken his eyes, and he listened, and he was angry and didn't eat dinner, and secretly sobbed silently in the room alone.

He was sorry that he had broken his eyes, but he had to study, and the rural environment couldn't help but make him study harder, and he didn't want to have his eyes broken, and he didn't want to wear even a fig leaf when he grew up in the wild, so how could he like the metal-framed glasses. However, the terrible thing is that in high school, in a strange environment, there are no parents, no brothers and sisters, no neighbors, some strange classmates, strange teachers, and unfamiliar dormitories. But you always have to learn, and I can't forget this, and I can't count how many tears I shed in three years of high school. The first time was on August 15, shortly after the start of the first year of high school, in order to save money and time to go home, I was alone in the dormitory, studying in the classroom during the day, and looking at the moon alone at night, shedding lines of tears.

Later, he got used to it, but he encountered problems in life, no one was close to him, and he didn't want to be too close to others, he may have psychological problems, the head teacher found him, and every time the tears flowed, the young female teacher who had just served as the head teacher was at a loss. After all, these have had an impact on his studies, he is changing, but no one has given him courage, his mother is still in his hometown, no one.

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After a mock exam in the third year of high school, he hadn't been home for two or three months, sitting at home eating the food cooked by his mother, there were only two people at the dinner table, and they were talking about studying, he couldn't help crying, and his tears were mixed with steamed buns and swallowed. His mother was dumbfounded, as if for the first time she knew that her son would cry, how much glory he had brought to his family, and forgot to say anything to comfort her for a while, and when she reacted, his tears had been collected. Mother's words of relief seemed a little thin, the successive mock exams were not very good, his mood was extremely bad, almost collapsed, and who could pull him back, only himself.

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Going to bed at one o'clock every night, getting up at five o'clock in the morning, and resting for an hour at noon, he persevered for a month, lost a lot of weight, and talked less, but he didn't have the same table, and the teacher didn't pay much attention to him. The next mock exam is approaching, he works harder, when the scores come out, he successfully squeezed into the top ten in the class, at the same time he is also sick, the old disease relapses, he has an uncomfortable throat, these days get up early and go to bed early, highly concentrated, at the moment when he sees the results, it seems that a moment of excitement has opened the gap, people are more haggard, but the study has not fallen a little.

Steadily ranked in the top ten in the class, the teacher gradually paid attention to him, he had a little self-confidence, adjusted his mentality, but time waits for no one, the college entrance examination is not so far away, but close at hand. The college entrance examination smashed him to the ground again, only 30 points higher than a line, there are no good schools in their province, and the scores of schools in other provinces are not enough, so he reluctantly chose a school that he doesn't know, he has never been exposed to the Internet, and he only took computer classes in high school, and he still remembers the first time he took computer classes, and he couldn't even turn on the computer, which made him very ashamed. There is no Internet, his family lives in the countryside, and his knowledge is naturally not long (zhang), all he has is a school application guide.

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Hearing the voice of the college entrance examination scorer on the phone, he had no courage to cry, hiding in the house alone, thinking about how to explain, recently the family has been crazy and waiting for his good news, his heart was wrinkled, he couldn't breathe, he tried to stand up straight, and his eyes were dry and couldn't squeeze out a tear. The next thing to face is the disappointment of his family, he is very afraid, he is afraid to see their expressions and the tone of their words, he doesn't want to, he works hard. His father, who was working in other places, called, he reported his results, silent, still silent, and he didn't listen to what he said.

He wanted to make money, he wanted to study psychology, he also realized that he had a psychological problem, he wanted to study medicine, if not, he would go to a normal school to become a teacher in the future, he also wanted to be an accountant, but in the end he didn't succeed, he went to a university that he had never heard of, a major that he had never heard of.

After thinking about jumping off a building countless times to show his parents, he realizes that something is wrong with him, he doesn't have that strong heart, he is fragile and he needs to change. He is no longer disturbed by the accident world, only works hard to learn psychological knowledge, improve psychological quality, and ability to resist pressure, after all, he has become some psychologically rich people, no matter how big the wind and waves are, he can get by, what are you afraid of, he is not afraid of death, he falls from a tall building, he is shattered, he is unrecognizable, are you not afraid, are you afraid of that little difficulty?

But he is becoming more and more rebellious, no longer a little lamb in front of his parents, he has grown horns, and the horns are very itchy, and he wants something to grind, this horn must be that the depression in his heart is really unbearable, jumping out of the body, a little sharp, talking back to his father, and his mother Cold War, he is becoming more and more unfilial, but he spends their money, which makes him very helpless.

Every time under his father's words, he has a sense of oppression, his mother's comfort can no longer solve those contradictions, his father's words can make him angry, but he is usually not like this, he doesn't care in school, he should study and study, he should eat, his dormitory classmates occupy the magpie's nest, put things in his seat, use his things indiscriminately, watch movies without headphones, litter, spit, game keyboard crackling, he doesn't care at all, he feels that self-cultivation is already very good, but his father's words forced him to reveal his true form, completely, and completely failed。

Later, he finally figured it out, and it turned out that his parents were his weakness.