After a whole day of playing, we fell asleep when we got back to the hotel, and I had a dream that night.

A pool with flowers, grass, landscapes, people, moonlit pools, lotus ponds with frogs chirping all night, Luo Luo who admires the moon, and I who watch Luo Luo nymphomaniac.

The holidays are over, and we are back to normal life, and maybe, just because it is normal, there must be something abnormal.

When I woke up in the morning, Rollo sat on the edge of the bed with red eyes, I got up, hugged her shoulders and asked, "What's wrong?" she turned her head and glared at me, "Let's break up." I let go of the hand on her shoulder and asked, "What's wrong?" She lowered her head a little lost and said, "What am I in your eyes?" I suddenly came to my senses and sat down next to her: "What's wrong?"

She sneered: "Heh, you just say, what am I in your eyes for so long?" I didn't speak, it's not that I have a weak heart, but I don't know how to explain it, in fact, I don't know, lovers, lovers, couples, partners, but why do I say it?

She stood up and left a hateful sentence: "I'll come back after class today to pack my things, and help me send them back to the dormitory if it's convenient for you." I went to the bedside and took out a cigarette, put it in my mouth and said, "You have to let me die, right?" She turned around, squatted down and cried bitterly: "Why? Why are you all like this!" I lit a cigarette, took a deep breath and asked, "Haven't you been fine all the time, when I wake up, what are you smoking?" To be honest, I was a little angry, I was angry because I was somehow glued to us for 24 hours except for her classes, and my phone was always in her hand, and I didn't know why I woke up like this.

She bit her arm and looked at me hatefully and asked, "Have you forgotten her?" I looked at her with a furrowed brow. Tears blurred her eyes and took her makeup, just like the day I first saw her, I never understood the origin of the word poignant, and now I seem to understand a little.

She whimpered, "Last night...... Last night...... I heard it last night...... I heard you talk in your dreams, and you are in your dreams...... Calling her name. I nodded, "Okay, then I understand." "I wanted to explain, because I understood why, but when the words came to my lips, I felt a sense of powerlessness.

She stood up, raised her head and wiped her tears, sniffed again, and smiled bitterly: "So, you still haven't forgotten her, have you? I've been just her replacement for so long, right? Do you know why I never asked you for anything? because I believe in you, I believe in myself, I think I can change you, but it's still her in your dreams!" she became more and more excited, and at last she showed a side she had never seen before. She shook her head bitterly: "Why, why do you provoke me again, since you can't forget her, then what am I, what do you treat me for! Do you know why I never tell you what happened to me at school, I know that you are carrying something, I don't want to put pressure on you anymore, every time you go to pick me up, do you know what the classmates in the class say about me the next day?" They call me cheap, that I hooked up with someone else's boyfriend and went to hook up with a rich man, how ugly it sounds, how ugly it is, I am also a girl, a flesh-and-blood person, no matter what you do, I try to understand you, because I think you must have your reason for doing this, but I understand you, do you understand me? I'm with you, I'm even a little scared to go to school, but I'm afraid of what you'll see, now it seems that I'm too worried, in fact, you don't care what I do, right, since you're looking for a replacement, you can, look for it, but don't mess with me!" After saying that, she turned and walked towards the door, I wanted to stand up and save her, but just as I was about to stand up, the feeling of powerlessness pressed me to the edge of the bed and sat down.

After a long time, the ashtray was also full, and some cigarette butts also fell on the bedside table, I stood up, a little confused, staggered out of the door, looking at Miss Q's door next door, I wanted to find the landlord, walked to their door, the hanging hand still did not knock down, I turned around and walked to the door of Lin, knocked on his door, he came to open the door for me sleepily, saw that it was me, and asked in surprise: "Why are you so early?" I pushed him away, still in a trance, walked to the couch, sat down, and the landlord also walked over to me and sat down: "What's wrong?" I looked at him and asked in a hoarse voice, "Is there any wine?" He stood up and walked to the kitchen wine cabinet and took out a bottle of wine and two glasses.

We have always been like this, never asking why, this is my tacit understanding with the landlord and Lin. Still in a hoarse voice, I said, "I've broken up with Rollo." He was stunned, and the pouring of the wine stopped for a moment, but soon he came to his senses, poured a full glass of wine, and handed it to me. I took the wine and sat stunned, Lin asked, "Because of what?" I smiled bitterly: "She said, I talked in my dream last night, and I called Xiaoyu's name." Lin was stunned again, and then nodded: "Well, then what?" I looked at him and shook my head, wanting to say something, but I didn't know where to start.

He asked, "What about you, remember?" I shook my head, "Do you remember what you said in your dreams?" He thought for a moment and shook his head. I smiled wryly and took a sip of wine: "I don't remember, but I remember the dream I had last night." He looked at me angrily, I looked at him, and sighed helplessly: "Some time ago, I proposed to marry her, and then we went to Yangshuo, she said that the wedding photos wanted to be taken in the big banyan tree, I refused, because I wanted to be in Iceland, the forest I loved, Iceland was my childhood dream, last time because of Du Kang and Tian Hui's affairs, I only went once, I hope I can leave the most precious moment with the person I love in the place of love." Last night's dream, it was in that forest, the forest that I saw countless times in photos when I was a child, but it was different in the dream, it was a wedding, I was the groom, Luo Luo was the bride, there were many people at the wedding, but I couldn't hear any sound, or maybe I forgot, I also forgot the faces of those people, but I only remember three, one is me, one is Luo Luo, and one is ......" Lin added wine to me and took my words: "It's Xiaoyu." I nodded and took another sip of wine: "The whole dream, I only remember three sentences, one is 'I love you', this is what I said to Rollo in the wedding speech, in fact, I said a lot, but I forgot it, and the other sentence is 'sorry to keep you waiting', which was also said to her in the wedding speech, the last sentence...... It's 'goodbye'. Lin thought for a while: "So, the last sentence was what you said to Xiaoyu, that is, when you said in your dream, you were just telling her that I'm sorry?"

I took a breath: "Maybe, you know me, I don't like to do one thing, although I can now face Xiaoyu very calmly, but I still lack a goodbye with her, a solemn goodbye, I need a key to enter a new life, and for that unfinished goodbye, that is the key." He nodded: "So, you want to be at the wedding?" I shook my head: "No, in fact, she doesn't matter at all, it's just that I'm nostalgic, some stubborn, some stubborn, and some things if I don't do them, I will be very uncomfortable and uncomfortable." He smiled and said, "This is what you are doing, and you are hypocritical." I looked at him with a wry smile: "You're right, but now that it's like this, I have to finish it." He asked, "Did you tell Rollo?" and I shook my head, "I wanted to, but I couldn't." He asked, "Then what do you need me to do?" I shook my head: "I don't know, I always feel like I should do something at the moment, such as explaining to her, keeping her, or doing something, but I don't want to do anything." He nodded and patted me on the shoulder.

We were drunk that day, and the landlord made a lot of phone calls but couldn't find us, and then he opened Lin's door and found me and Lin sleeping soundly on the sofa. We all left spare keys with each other, and we always felt that we wouldn't use them, but who knew that it would be so awkward when we used them.

The landlord woke me up, Luo Luo also looked at me coldly, Miss Q also looked at me with those cold eyes, I got up, rubbed my swollen eyes and face, and by the way, Lin also woke up on the side, he woke up a little overwhelmed: "Ah, it's all there, that, what time is it." The landlord said angrily: "It's already half past seven, the bar didn't see you two tonight, and I didn't answer the phone, and I thought you two were missing." Lin got up in a daze: "Okay, you sit, I'll change my clothes." ”

After Lin returned to the room, the atmosphere in the living room instantly became awkward, and the landlord walked up to me and kicked the wine bottles that Lin and I were drinking: "Oh, you two can." After speaking, he walked beside me and patted me on the shoulder: "You Luo Luo told us about it, it's not that she is talkative, it's just that we saw that she was in a bad mood when she went to the bar today, and now she is dragging it to you, you can watch it." After saying that, he took Miss Q to the door, and Miss Q turned around and glared at me: "Tell me well!"

They hadn't gone out yet, I still didn't say a word, I found the cigarette case from a pile of wine bottles, I wanted to light a cigarette, I shook it, and found that the cigarette case was empty, I groped around with myself for a while, and saw a pack on the TV cabinet opposite, I stood up and walked over, lit a cigarette and sat down on the spot.

Rollo also kept looking at me coldly, and after a long time, we were still silent, Rollo didn't say a word, turned around and left. As soon as Luo Luo left, Lin walked out of the room: "Why don't you explain it to her." I shook my head, "Explain what?" He walked quickly to me and pulled out a cigarette from the TV stand behind me, "That's what you told me today." I shook my head: "Forget it, even if I say it now, she won't believe it." He kicked me in the foot: "If you don't say it, she won't know, you don't care if she believes it or not, you can talk about it first." I smiled bitterly and shook my head: "Forget it, you know, a person like me, if I do it, you hold a knife to my neck than if I say I didn't do it, I will admit that I did it, if I don't do it, you also hold a knife on my neck and let me say I did it, I will also say I didn't do it, if you believe it, if you don't believe it, then I won't do anything superfluous." Lin squatted down and said, "Eh, this is your future daughter-in-law, what's wrong with you lowering your head and admitting your mistake?"