Chapter 146: What is the black hole in my heart?

"Lily, wife, you know, I have always listened to you for everything, before you get married, you want to dink, I will be fine, after getting married, whether it is buying a house or decorating a house, or buying any decorative furniture, as long as it is what you like, I will listen to you, and I have never objected. Liu Yufeng hurriedly confessed.

Wu Lili looked at him coldly, didn't squeak, didn't blink, just looked at him to see what he was thinking.

"But we never discussed, why don't you want children. Liu Yufeng finally got around to this topic.

Wu Lili shook her head and replied simply and rudely: "I don't like children, I hate children." ”

Liu Yufeng retorted: "It's not that you don't like children, I see that you look at other people's children, no matter how bearish you are, you have never been disgusted." ”

Wu Lili: "I don't have so much maternal love, and I don't want to sacrifice my career for my children, I'm busy." ”

Liu Yufeng: "Then if you don't want to stop, I stop, I'm willing to stay at home and take care of the children, I thought about it, the two of us, no matter whose income, can get by, at most we save a little, travel less, spend less unnecessary money, you don't want to affect the career, then change me to a step back, I can always solve the problem." ”

Liu Yufeng thought about these words for a long time, and he made this decision very hard, but he also wanted to know why Wu Lili was so afraid and resistant to having a child, if it was fear, he was willing to try hard to eliminate Wu Lili's resistance and fear.

Whether it can be solved or not, whether it can be overcome, if he has tried hard or not, since he can't let go of Wu Lili, he can only have a showdown with his mother, he doesn't dare to think about what the family will quarrel like, whether he has the ability to solve the problem.

Wu Lili stood under the tree, the color was already dark, the lights were on, the square dance was lively and lively, the festive and lively voice could not move her, she looked at Liu Yufeng, and saw him bow his head weakly.

"Let's talk. Wu Lili: "We had a good chat before we got married, I said that if you can't accept it, we can not get married, we can not get a license, and now I still say the same thing, if you regret it, if you don't want to, we can divorce." ”

"But wife, I can't help it, you know me, I really don't care about this matter, I'm not at home all the year round, and I don't want children, but my parents, Lily, and your parents, how many years do they have?" Liu Yufeng, he tried to pull Wu Lili's parents up, touched her heart, and deliberately ignored her about the divorce.

"Yes, they are already old, so we need to have a child for them to play with for two years?

"Are you sure you can quit your job for the sake of your child and stay home to take care of him?" are you sure?" Wu Lili asked.

Liu Yufeng nodded: "The child can be handed over to his parents to take care of, and I can leave my job if necessary, in short, this matter will not affect you." ”

He looked at Wu Lili, "Now that you are stationed in Linhai, you don't need to run around, your living and working conditions are much more stable than before, and you have the conditions to do this." Wu Lili looked at him and sneered: "So you want a child because your mother wants a child, but Liu Yufeng, the child is not anyone's toy, he came to this world to endure suffering, not to be anyone's toy." ”

Liu Yufeng also gradually lost his patience: "Then you confess to me, why don't you want children, if you can obey me, I will agree with you." ”

Wu Lili laughed in her heart, didn't this matter have passed a long time ago? Liu Yufeng asked again and again, just to let himself go.

She said coldly: "I'm just selfish, don't I don't want to affect my work because of taking care of the child, I don't even have time to get pregnant, if you really want a child, then let's divorce." ”

Liu Yufeng shook his head, Wu Lili is not such a person, she is not such a selfish person as she said, Liu Yufeng has been married for so many years, and this understanding is still there.

Wu Lili must have something she doesn't want to tell him!

Liu Yufeng shook his head and softened his tone: "You know that I am not such a person, if it is really my parents who want a child, then I will give them to adopt a child, I just want to understand the truest thoughts in your heart." ”

Wu Lili thought for a while, "I've already told you what I think, this world is too difficult, I don't want her to go through it again, and I don't have enough love to accompany her, if I can't fulfill the minimum responsibility of being a mother, why should I bring her into this world? It's like Wen Jia Coco, her mother brought her into this world, is she happy? Is she willing?"

"But Lily, that's don't spare life, we love each other, we are willing to pay for each other, our family will support the child, she doesn't need to have the same hard life as others, whether financially or spiritually, Lily, our child will be happy. Liu Yufeng was puzzled, their economic conditions could not reach Wu Lili's "suffering" no matter what.

Wu Lili's family conditions, he also knows, but Wu Lili's growth has not suffered much, why is she so stubborn, unwilling to bow to the world.

Wu Lili shook her head, but she didn't want to, no matter what Liu Yufeng was, she disagreed, Liu Yufeng had no choice but to end the topic hastily.

Only Wu Lili knows that there is a huge black hole in her heart, a huge black hole that devours everything, and she doesn't know what is in the depths of the black hole.

What adoption and surrogacy Liu Yufeng mentioned, as long as this child appeared in Wu Lili's life and required her to take on a trace of responsibility, she was unwilling to accept it.

Liu Yufeng is also very frustrated in his heart, Wu Lili is not an uncaring person, she will give money to children begging when she passes by, and when she encounters a sick child on the fundraising platform, even if she is a liar, she will donate some money, but ask for peace of mind.

Such a contradictory behavior made Liu Yufeng very confused, he was naturally reluctant to Wu Lili, they had been in a relationship for so many years, so they had to go back to have a showdown with their mother.

I don't know what kind of disaster will break out at home, Liu Yufeng is very worried.

Wu Lili also knew how much pressure this would put on Liu Yufeng, but the black hole in her heart, any idea of getting close, would be swallowed up, she didn't dare to try, and she didn't want to try.