Chapter 65 I Feel Sorry for Your Past (Forty-Four) You are the dust of the world, but you are the only wind and snow I have
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Another night of sleeplessness, another night of sadness, and another night of misery and pain that I can't bear to look back on.
Tyrannical and manic, filling this seemingly peaceful but extremely unquiet night.
Aggression and harm, again and again, again and again, like madness!
And Yuxi burst into tears again and again, again and again!
Once, again, again, next time, don't have a next time.
How long will it take to digest the sadness in my heart when I am hurt again and again?
Perhaps, it will never be possible, and maybe, it will never be forgotten for the rest of your life, until you die......
And this night is not the end at all, just the beginning.
In the days that followed, although he rarely came back here, every time he came back, he would be violent to her.
He vented all his resentment, all his anger, all his mania, all his abuse on her.
In his words, he had taken out a lot of money to help her save her mother, and she should have made a sacrifice, and she had become what he had.
Moreover, in life, he will give her whatever she wants, so that she has no worries about food and clothing, and she has no worries about survival. And his cruelty to her at night is what she should bear, or pay.
One month, two months, three months, four months, six months, one year...... In addition to catharsis and excitement, it was also because I found it fun and interesting. Every time he came back, he would punish her cruelly, he would rape her and humiliate her!
How many times did she cry, how many times did she feel helpless, and how many times did she despair in so many nights?
Nobody knows......
Even she didn't know about it!
How many times did she think about ending her own life. It's just that in the end, she didn't have the courage to take that step.
In addition to the fear of death, she also thought of her deceased parents!
So, again, again, again, she could only continue to endure humiliation and steal her life. Until that day, she accidentally found out that she was pregnant.
Although she has never experienced it, she has also read a lot of books, so she naturally knows what it is.
At that moment, her whole person was confused, and her thoughts were like messy catkins in the wind, and she didn't know where to go to zero.
At that moment, she was particularly helpless, desperate, and extremely tormented in her heart.
At that moment, she really thought of death again.
Pity the world, countless sadness.
Once again, she felt that death would be her final salvation.
At night, slipping under the noses of the drunken security guards guarding the courtyard, she sneaked out of the well-guarded compound.
After a long time, she finally stepped out of the villa and came to the outside world. Although, this is still in the villa area, still within the man's guard.
And she didn't know where to go, so she finally sat down on a bench, whimpered, choked, and wept. She is weak, showing her pity.
It was also here that she met Su Yang, who followed the sound. Then, there was the next story with Su Yang.
Some of the past is too profound to look back.
When Su Yang listened to the past stories told by Yuxi, his heart was twitching and knotting, and he was so heartbroken. As an observer, he is like this at this time, and Yuxi, as a party concerned, should be so sad, helpless, and painful when he tells these sad pasts?
Seeing her tears raining down and crying with makeup, Su Yang really had one fire after another condensing in her heart. It was sympathy for her past and anger at those who had been ruthless to her.
When he met Yuxi for the first time, Su Yang was full of pity for this delicate and poor girl, and he had the desire to protect her.
And at this moment, this feeling has never been stronger.
He stepped forward and couldn't help but hug her gently, hugging her with moist eyelashes and tears still hanging from the corners of her eyes, he said gently: "No matter what in the future, I will always be by your side, and I will always protect you and not let you be hurt in any way." ”
Although these words were said under the impulse of the heart, it gave people the feeling that they were not rigorous or solemn at all, because although Su Yang's words at this time were the result of impulse, they were completely from the heart.
When he said this, he was serious. The star-like eyes shone brightly.
Being held in her arms, Yuxi did not have any resistance, on the contrary, she was very obedient. Smelling the smell on Su Yang's clothes, feeling the warmth coming from him. She is sweet in her heart, and there is a taste of happiness in her heart. And this kind of feeling, such happiness, she has not had it for a long time.
He embraced her into his arms.
She leaned lightly into her arms.
It's just that, just hugging each other so gently, but it makes them feel warm and happy with each other.
Sometimes, happiness is really simple, it doesn't need too many words, it doesn't need too many material gifts, just a smile, a bouquet of flowers, a greeting, a hug, and so on, it makes people feel sweet and warm enough.
At this time, the two of them can be said to have a clear understanding, they don't need to say anything, they don't need to say anything, everything is silent.
Yuxi silently shed tears, not tears of sadness, nor tears of pain, but tears of joy, happiness, and moving. Just like the tears she shed when she saw Su Yang again outside the villa before.
"Yuxi, I like you. I liked you when I first met you. Looking at the rain like tears in his arms, Su Yang suddenly said emotionally. The eyes are very sincere, and the eyes are very sincere.
He wasn't lying, indeed, her presence haunted him the night he first saw her. And if you count the acquaintances in the game, then his liking for her has to be pushed forward. At that time, although he had never met, although he didn't know each other in reality, she was innocent, humorous, gentle and kind, and full of charm in the game, which had already made him deeply moved and admired.
As for Su Yang's confession, Yuxi couldn't help blushing slightly, she said "um" softly, her voice was delicate and glutinous, full of shyness.
Although she has experienced a series of experiences that are completely unimaginable to ordinary people, she still maintains her authenticity and nature, which is really commendable.
As if realizing that she should also respond to Su Yang, she looked at him, a bright and moving smile appeared on her snowy face, and said, "I like you too." That evening, in the hospital room, I asked if it was okay if you didn't go home, and you answered me with a smile. ”
Thinking of that evening, thinking of that picture, she still remembered that her heart was pounding like a deer. At that moment, she clearly felt the feeling of heartbeat.
Although there are still tears on her face, at this time, she is smiling like a flower, but she is not less beautiful, but she is even more bright and lovely. Perhaps, this also has something to do with the fact that she was born good-looking.
And such a good-looking Yuxi made Su Yang secretly swear in his heart that he must let her out of the predicament and get rid of all the existing suffering.
He wanted her to be happy.
............
You're wearing my T-shirt, and it's a little funny;
Like a desert overnight rainstorm, the rules are absent.
Toys that are both real and fake, are still in your hands;
It is not surprising to eat through gentle violence.
When you were taken away, I kissed the scar on your jaw with a calm expression.
Are you a clear spring in the world, or the mysterious peacock by the spring?
Before meeting your soul, let greed take advantage of the fire.
You are the dust and leisure of the world, and you are also my only wind and snow;
I am grateful for love or hatred, and I will receive phantom fragments in the kaleidoscope.
You are the world's fleeting clouds and smoke, and also my dazzling lightning;
I am restless or silent, and I will leave a real memorial in the kaleidoscope.
——Xu Song, "The World"