Li Anan just left, I was angry with me, I didn't look back at her, although I don't want to do such a desperate thing, but there are things that must be done!

The room suddenly fell silent, but my mother pointed at me, sighed in disappointment, and said, "Why are you so disobedient......, this child! Tell me, what's wrong with her?"

I don't speak, I eat with my head down.

My mother was so anxious that she called out to my dad again: "Lao Lin, look at your son, don't you say a few words?"

My dad put down his chopsticks, got up and walked to the sofa with a soft call, and then said, "He's so old, he knows how to handle his own affairs." ”

But my mother still couldn't let go, and accused me again: "What do you want me to say about you? What's wrong with An An? If An An hadn't been in prison for three years, you probably wouldn't have been able to see ...... now."

My mother suddenly stopped talking, then sighed angrily, looked out at the balcony and said, "It's raining now, she doesn't even bring an umbrella, so she can't get wet when she goes out!"

I was stunned, there was a light rain when I came back just now, and now it was heavy again, and the water from the eaves was constantly falling on the canopy where the balcony was.

I immediately put down my chopsticks and rushed to the balcony as fast as I could, looked downstairs, and saw Li An'an standing alone by the flower pond downstairs, and did not leave, just appeared alone under the street lamp.

From the light of the street lamp, you can see dense raindrops falling on her head, drenching her hair.

I was looking at her when my mother suddenly shouted to me again, "Why are you going to chase after you?"

Without hesitation, I turned around and ran to the door, grabbed an umbrella and chased it out.

When I came downstairs to the flower pond, Li An'an was gone, I looked around and couldn't see her, I was in a hurry, looking for her everywhere, shouting while looking: "Li An'an, you come out for me, come out...... Li An'an, I'm calling you, come out quickly! Li An'an......"

I was the only one in the neighborhood and the sound of raindrops lapping on umbrellas.

I hurriedly chased out of the community along the wet floor, but I didn't see her again, she was gone, and this time I believe she was really gone!

At this moment, my heart also became empty, and I looked at the place where she had just stood in distraction.

The rain is getting heavier and heavier, and the "crackling" keeps beating the umbrella, just like my state of mind at the moment, not at all.

Half an hour later, I returned home dejected, and my mom immediately approached me and asked if I had found anyone.

I shook my head in disappointment, didn't want to say a word, and locked myself in my bedroom.

I just lay on the bed smoking cigarette after cigarette until I remembered to send her WeChat, but when I sent her WeChat, it was a red exclamation mark, proving that she had deleted me.

This must have been done when she was downstairs by the flower pond just now, and I should understand how sad she was at that time.

Maybe that's fate!

It is destined that me and her will not be possible, and it will never be possible!

From my heart, I don't want to give her hope, because I can't give her any promises, I don't want to delay her, it's better to be ruthless as soon as possible.

But I don't know why, I suddenly feel a little uncomfortable, especially when I'm lying in bed alone, I think of her inexplicably.

I feel empty inexplicably, and I'm always empty.

Yes, I'm a person who is very good at thinking about the trajectory of discovery, so I tend to have more troubles than others, which is fatal to me!

The rain outside seemed to be getting heavier again, and there was a constant "crackling" sound on the canopy......

I also feel that I am too cruel, whether it is to Jin Yunxin at the beginning or to Li Anan this time, it is quite cruel, I am really not human!

I only blame myself for not being able to give them happiness, they are emotional, but I have to be rational. Because love is a thing, it really can't be eaten.

I suddenly felt that I was very ungentlemanly, why can't I dare to love and hate as much as before?

Three years ago, I was not afraid of heaven and earth, even if I knew that it was impossible for me to be with Jin Yunxin, but I still had the courage to confess to her, and now I am indeed a coward.

Why can't I fight for them?

I think the answer is obvious, because I used to be too simple, and I always felt that I was the best in the world, but the three years in prison made me understand that I was just an ordinary and ordinary little person, like most people.

I slammed my head twice, and then pulled the quilt over my head, isolating my mother's endless complaining outside, and also cutting me off from the existence of this real world, leaving only one person in the world.

……

I had a dream, it was raining heavily, I saw a figure standing on the cliff, she seemed to be about to jump, I couldn't see who she was, I could only desperately shout at her not to jump.

But she still jumped for life, and at that moment I pounced on her and failed to catch her, and just watched her fall into the abyss.

……

I woke up from my dream, sweating profusely, and it was half past seven the next morning.

After taking a shower, I went to the Internet café, and today I have to PK with the other two teams, and finally select a team to represent the Internet café.

My teammates are very energetic, but I don't have any energy, and the whole person is confused, as if I have lost a very important thing of myself, and my heart is empty and uncomfortable.

It is impossible to play without form, and during pre-match training, my teammates noticed that something was wrong with me and asked me what was wrong.

I just said sorry and quickly adjusted myself and started the game at 2 o'clock in the afternoon.

We lost the first game, two wins in three games, and if we lose again, we will have no chance at all, and so many days of hard work will be in vain.

I was scolded by my teammates again because my record was so humiliating.

Even Yu Kun pointed at my nose and complained: "I said, Brother Dong, what's the matter with you?

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I'll come on, I'll definitely qualify!" I said apologetically with my hands folded.

Hua Zi waved his hand and said angrily: "Don't always apologize, you wake up, it's a game now, you might as well come to a bronze like this, or we will temporarily replace you." ”

The brother who played the assistant said: "No, temporary substitution is a big taboo, and the Internet café will not allow it." ”

Yu Kun comforted the big guy again and said: "Okay, don't blame each other, this is a team game, everyone encourages and cheers together!"

Half an hour later, the second round began, and the person opposite came on the field and made a "disdainful" gesture to us.

I knew I wasn't in shape, but I couldn't adjust, but my teammates didn't blame me anymore, they all encouraged me, and said that it didn't matter if I lost, everyone didn't care.

Even if they say so, my mentality is not much better, in fact, the opposite side is not very powerful, Yu Kun can hit three at a time, but the opposite side will catch me according to this line, and it will be caught until the high ground.

Twenty minutes passed, and one of our Highland Crystals was destroyed, and my teammates still didn't blame me, they were all trying to fight, and no one gave up.

This also made me even more ashamed, in the end, our base was basically bulldozed, basically there was no chance of winning, and the people watching the battle next to me were also disappointed and stood on the opponent's side.

However, at this moment, a familiar voice suddenly appeared in the crowd: "Come on, Lin Dong, come on, Lin Dong come on, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on, ......come on, come on, come

Although the voice was very monotonous, I heard it as soon as I heard it, and when I looked up suddenly, it was Li An'an.