*Letter from home in a memo - Part 3

2016.5.1

Chief Qiao, it has been more than ten days since her daughter was born, and in all respects, she is much stronger than her brother back then. Several adults in the family revolved around her, and she felt very secure. She is really well-behaved, so quiet that she doesn't want a newborn baby, she doesn't cry or make trouble when she wakes up, and she likes to stick out her little tongue and sell cuteness.

Our mother said that because she is a little girl, she is not as skinny as our son, so it is better to bring some.

Sir Qiao, if you see her, you will definitely hold her in your arms all the time, and you will be reluctant to let her go.

My mother put down the tutoring class and came to accompany me for so many days, I was very touched. In fact, I am in good health, I also have a nanny at home, and several friends take turns to take care of me, but our mother still stayed, she said, she can't be this grandmother for nothing.

My parents always felt indebted to me, and the most they said to me was "Qiao's family can't stand you". Not really, they've done enough.

In the year you were on assignment, almost all of them were parents who raised our children for us, and they raised them well. Grandpa's cooking is delicious, the dog given by grandma is very fun, and grandma's students pet him as a mascot...... I don't think our son wants to come back at all.

He was doing well in Port City, but I still cried from time to time. I'm his mom after all, and I can't stop worrying wherever he goes. He didn't cry for me like he used to, which means that he is not so dependent on me anymore, and I am very sad.

Our mother often said that raising the little commander by her side often has the illusion of going back in time, because our son is too similar to you. She also said that she was too strict with you back then, but you were very skinny and received a lot of beatings. The little commander is also very naughty, and he has caused a lot of trouble in his hometown, but his parents are reluctant to beat him at all, this is the legendary next-generation parent!

It's okay to have the little commander with you, so they won't be too lonely, and they won't be all tied to you.

Our mother also tried hard to enlighten me and told me not to be angry with you. It's not enough to be angry, but there is a lot of resentment. Especially in the first few days after giving birth, I made up my mind to ignore you for the rest of my life. But when I saw my little daughter, I couldn't help but think of her father, and I couldn't help but worry.

Maybe I'll be like this for the rest of my life, as long as I think of you, these two feelings are intertwined. I fantasized about the day when my family of four would be reunited, and I didn't know when it would come true.

I'm going to breastfeed my baby, so let's do it for now, good night.

2016.5.2

Wenwen, although I know why you are lukewarm to me, I pretend not to know. Let you have a child alone, I am even more uncomfortable than you. I don't have anything to defend myself, anyway, I owe you, and I will try to pay you back even in the next life.

I haven't been sleeping well lately, and I don't know if it's too stressed. Only by listening to the murmuring of Little Mulan can I sleep for a while. I asked you to send more videos, and you didn't send them to me. I know that I, as a father, can send her a few voices, and as punishment, you only send me a few videos a day. Truth be told, this punishment is not excessive.

I'll give you a report, yesterday I rescued a team that came to shoot a documentary, and one of the female hosts was so frightened that she couldn't speak, and it wasn't until the embassy staff of their country came to pick them up that her face was a little bloody.

You told me that when you graduated from high school, you went to the Middle East for a lap and almost got into an explosion. You girls, why don't you know what fear is? I often feel furious when I deal with guns all day long, why should anyone not be afraid to die to drill into the most dangerous places?

When I think of this, I feel scared for you. Fortunately, you are a mother, and your wife will live a peaceful life in the future, and I will accompany you wherever you want to go.

Oh, I almost forgot what I had to report. Yesterday, the host girl asked me for contact information, but I didn't give it, it's impossible to give it, don't think too much about it.

2016.5.2

Qiao Nan: Is there such a comforting thing for you?

I never thought that there would be a woman who asked you for contact information, you didn't confess yourself, and asked me not to think too much, can I not think about it too much?!

Get back at the end of the term!

(a few hours later)

I thought you were braving bullets and bullets every day, and the only people you could see were black soldiers.

It turns out that you still have women there, and there is still a chance for you to be a hero and save beauty.

It seems that Chief Qiao is living quite nourishing there, and you can still enjoy the adoration of beautiful women.

Yes, yes, I'm relieved.

2016.5.3

Wenwen, don't worry. As soon as you are relieved, I panic.

Of course, there are female staff here, and there are female military doctors, but they have nothing to do with me except for work.

It is my duty to save people, I can swear to you, I only have you in my heart, and I will definitely not look at other women.

I'm going to be busy, you have to trust me.

2016.5.3

Comrade Qiao Nan, you are still very able to withstand the test, of course I believe you.

Just kidding you, don't forget to go to your heart, if you have time, let's video today!

2016.5.5

Sir Joe, you've been missing for two more days, or are you angry because I'm joking with you?

I've always trusted you 100 percent, don't think too much about it.

Send you a few more videos of Xiao Mulan, she is getting more and more human, our mother holds it every day, and she is reluctant to let go.

2016.5.8

Qiao Nan, you've been missing for five days, give me a message!

Sure enough, I can't get angry at you, and if I get angry, it won't be a good thing.

Mulan cried a lot today, my mother and I are very anxious, I hope it will be better in a while!

I hope you're safe, too.

2016.5.9

Wenwen, I'm fine, daily patrols, it just took a little time.

I frightened you and our mother, I really shouldn't have been, I stood up straight and was beaten, and I definitely didn't hide.

As soon as I came back, I saw a lot of little Mulan, I like it so much, how can there be such a cute child, her father likes it so much that he is in tears.

My wife has worked hard, and so has my mother.

Also, I never felt like you were angry at me. Wenwen is the most gentle wife in the world, and occasionally yells at me, but she also cares about me, doesn't it?

I'll sleep for a while. No, I am reluctant to sleep, and I will look at my daughter a few more times.

2016.5.20

Happy birthday, Sir Joe, save up the birthday cake and make it for you when you get back.

Also, today is the full moon of Little Mulan, and she has been very happy since she got up in the morning, and she is also celebrating her father's birthday!

I have no other wishes, I just hope that you are healthy and safe, and our family will be reunited as soon as possible.

Our mom is leaving, she's been here for a month, and it's time to go home. Before leaving, I want to video with you, but I don't know if you have time.

2016.5.25

Sir Qiao, the situation there is very bad, and you definitely don't have time to celebrate your birthday.

I'm scared when I see the news these days, and I can wake up when I sleep. You're not hurt, are you? Are your comrades?

I beg you to come back as soon as possible, and the family can live a safe life together.

2016.6.4

Wenwen, I haven't been able to sleep for the past two days, I think you should know the reason.

Years ago, I experienced a sacrifice. I was very young then, and the warrior was a little younger than me. A living person, who says no, is gone, and doesn't even give us a little buffer time.

A few of our newly arrived cadres were so dazed that they forgot to shed tears. Several chiefs took turns to reprimand us, and I finally came to my senses - to inform the families, prepare a memorial service, and let our comrades-in-arms walk decently. The most important thing is that morale cannot be broken, and I have to do a good job of ideological work.

If you only experience something like this once, you will go through the vicissitudes of life for several years. I still remember the scene vividly.

In retrospect, sadness or something, it was only later that I felt it. When? Probably when he unconsciously calls his name and he never shouts "yes" again!

Later, I read an article written by a military writer that recorded a sacrifice in the sixties of the last century. At that time, a lot was happening on our borders, and in one of the battles, a squad leader died. Together with his comrades-in-arms, the writer changed the squad leader's clothes and gave him his last ride.

When they first saw the squad leader, they felt that he was asleep, except for the bulging waist of the squad, nothing special. But when they tried their best to take off his old uniform, everyone was stunned.

The squad leader had a bowl on his stomach, and under the bowl, there were all his intestines.

At that time, the enemy used dummum, which is banned internationally, and the bullet passed through the back and blew a large hole in the abdomen, can you imagine how tragic it was?

When I read that, I had been in the army for many years, had experienced several battles, and had hung up a few colors, but I was still shocked when I thought of the scenes described in the book.

In the past few decades, no matter which frontier line we are on, whether it is an open battle or an invisible front, there have been sacrifices of our soldiers everywhere. There are many ways to sacrifice, and what we have to face is often the most tragic.

When I was a young cadre, I was at a loss in the face of sacrifice, and now that I have been in the army for many years, I still can't face it calmly. Death is often accompanied by hatred, anger, and unwillingness, but there is no fear, and only want to make the enemy pay for it with blood, so that we will no longer have sacrifices.

can be sacrificed, but it is often with you.

Wenwen, I didn't want to tell you this, but you, as my family, should understand that death is also part of our work. If that day comes, tell the children that Daddy was guilty of them, but died a well-deserved death, and ask them to be proud of Daddy.

Okay, let's not talk about these words, I'm still alive and well. After a while, it will be dawn. I have never been more desperate to hope that today's sun can be the dawn of peace in this devastated land.