By late April, Qiao Nan had undergone three eye surgeries.

Originally, after doing it the second time, he didn't want to do it anymore. But the doctor said that in the end, he could try again, and after the bruising around the macula was removed, his vision could recover to some extent.

At least they are all sincerely for their own good, how can Qiao Nan be embarrassed to say that he doesn't want to be cured, restore that 0.1, or a little more, he doesn't care anymore, so be it, he's really tired.

Can you really give up hope? No, he is the most urgent one. He still cares about the 0.1 very much, and there is still a voice in his heart urging him to try. My sister also said that this is the last time, this time it is done, no matter what the result is, I will never do it again.

Qiao Nan couldn't disagree, but he also made a request, that is, after the operation, he would go home to recuperate, and come back to the hospital on the day of the reexamination.

The last time I went to the hospital for a follow-up, Qiao Lu accompanied him. In order to prevent him from taking a deep foot and a shallow foot, Qiao Lu has been staying inch. It seemed that there was still some time before it was his turn, Qiao Lu asked him to sit and wait for him, and she went downstairs to go to the toilet.

Qiao Lu walked from his left hand, but when he came back, he took the elevator on the other side and came back from his right. Qiao Lu sat down on his right hand side and didn't speak for a while.

But Qiao Nan kept looking in the direction of the left-hand side, he was still waiting for his sister to come back, and he didn't know that his sister was sitting next to him.

If his right eye had returned to normal, he would have seen her presence with a sweep of his right eye, but he hadn't seen it.

Qiao Lu instantly understood, in fact, his eyesight still did not change at all.

Unspeakable despair, but there were so many people here, she didn't want to break down, so she pretended to pat her brother on the shoulder as if nothing happened, and said, "What do you see?"

Qiao Nan saw her at this time, just like when he was a child, when he returned to his empty home, he only felt safe when he saw his sister. At this time, it was no exception, Qiao Nan smiled when she saw her sister: "Why did you come from over there?"

"There's an escalator over there, which is more convenient. ”

Qiao Nan didn't realize that in fact, she had been coming up for a long time, and Qiao Lu didn't say anything, this kind of desperation, let's let the doctor talk about it.

The doctor gave him a more precise examination and sighed, "We've done our best." ”

This means that his eyes are sentenced to death.

Qiao Nan's Adam's apple was shocking, and he didn't know what to say. Qiao Lu held his shoulders and asked, "In other words, it is inevitable that you will have to wear eyes in the future, right?"

"I tried it just now, and even with glasses, his vision can only recover to about 0.8 at most, which is secondly, this area of his eye, which is the macula, has been damaged, and the process is basically irreversible. ”

Not only is his vision blurred, but from then on, no matter what he sees, there will always be a dark shadow in front of his right eye.

Anyway, the demeanor should still be maintained, Qiao Nan squeezed out a smile and said, "It's okay, it's okay if you're not blind." Thank you for your trouble. ”

The doctor said sincerely: "We are very sad to hear that you are a sharpshooter, so your eye is injured. But to be honest, it's not easy for your eyes to hurt so badly and drag on for so long, to get back to what they are now. ”

Qiao Lu's strength was all exhausted, this result was not unexpected, but it was not so easy to accept it. She asked weakly, "It's impossible to operate anymore, right?"

Without waiting for the doctor to speak, Qiao Nan preemptively said: "Sister, don't have surgery, it's okay, last time is the last time." ”

This spring, he underwent ten surgeries, large and small, and was exhausted enough. Although Qiao Nan never said it, every time he had an operation, he had to be groggy for a long time, and he had to struggle with all kinds of unbearable pain after waking up. He was indeed tired and exhausted.

Doctors were also not in favor of continuing the operation: "It doesn't make much sense, the macula is damaged and cannot be recovered by surgery." It is unlikely that vision will continue to recover, but with proper maintenance, dark shadows can still be improved. ”

The doctor's words became more and more cautious, and the subtext was probably to tell him not to report any hope.

The doctor prescribed a bunch of vitamin supplements (which was actually a psychological comfort), and then the siblings went together to get glasses. Qiao Nan didn't need to measure his naked eye vision at all, he couldn't see the top one of the eye chart clearly, and he couldn't even touch where the eye chart was. A person who has never worn glasses has formed an indissoluble bond with glasses since then, and it is a rather thick pair of glasses.

After putting on the glasses, the blurred world became relatively clear, but seeing herself in the mirror, Qiao Nan still felt very unaccustomed. Especially with such a high prescription of eyes, he is still a little dizzy and needs time to get used to.

He couldn't get used to it for a while, and suddenly he felt irritated. For a moment, he felt that life was really annoying.

He said he accepted reality. But as soon as he walked out of the optical store, he threw the glasses case to the ground violently, without warning, very violently. The glasses case snapped in half, causing pedestrians to scream loudly, thinking they had encountered a pervert.

Qiao Nan slammed the glasses case that was split in half again, leaving a "" that resounded through the heavens and the earth, and strode forward.

How hard do you have to use to break the glasses case in half at once? From the moment he fell, Qiao Lu was already scared stupid. Qiao Nan also forgot to wait for her sister and left by herself. Qiao Lu didn't rush him, she knew that when he finished venting, she would wait for her.

Sure enough, Qiao Nan was waiting for her at the entrance of the subway. When she came over, he was embarrassed and said vaguely: "Sister, I'm sorry ......"

"What are you sorry for?"

"That's just a tantrum. ”

Qiao Luwan looked at him with glasses on, and said, "Even if you are a big hero, you still have the right to vent." You can vent it, my sister feels very relieved, this is the normal reaction of a normal person. ”

Qiao Nan was stunned, from now on, he could only try to be a normal person, and it was impossible to be a big hero anymore.

Sitting on the subway, Qiao Lu took a closer look at it again, and said with a smile: "When you were admitted to the military academy, didn't our mother wholeheartedly want you to become a military scientific researcher? Now that you wear glasses, you really look like a researcher." ”

Qiao Nan smiled and didn't say anything. To be a military scientific researcher, you must at least graduate school. It's not that he didn't think about it, but he was all rejected.

He didn't know how many times he had secretly scolded those inhuman devil sect leaders, and more than once wanted to report and leave that perverted unit, but when he really had a reason to leave, he felt that his body was hollowed out, and the whole person was at a loss.

He can make up for the physical strength he has lost after recovery, but his eyesight is not something he can solve by working hard, and he is a person who eats with his eyesight.

He couldn't touch the sniper rifle anymore, not only because of his glasses, but also because of the black fog in front of him, and the world he saw through the scope was a black shadow. Even if he had never been a sniper, the thought that he would not be able to shoot in the future made his blood half cold.

In addition, it is not enough to be a sniper, he always has to look at the telescope. One truth, what you see from the telescope, is also a black shadow. As a commander, he had no way to make an accurate judgment. And once they make a mistake in judgment, they are greeted with defeat and death.

He waved his hand frantically, trying to break the shadow away, but to no avail, and he blinked vigorously, but it was useless.

The dark shadow in front of him seemed to be laughing at him—no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't do anything with it.

Qiao Nan slammed his seat coldly, scaring the people around him again. Qiao Lu hurriedly grabbed him, and didn't know how to comfort him, so she had to pass on the temperature of her palm to him little by little.

When he got home, Qiao Nan lay down on the couch in a decadent state - since he moved over, that's where he slept. The two girls insisted on giving him the room, and he didn't care at all. He is accustomed to sleeping in the open air, as long as he sleeps at home, he is comfortable in any corner.

Before Wen Jing went home, Qiao Lu told her the results of the examination. Wen Jing was already prepared, she said: "In the past few days, I have consulted some people and checked some dietary therapy methods, and I have changed the method for him every day, and I can recover a little bit." ”

It seems that the younger brother does have a vision, and after finding such a gentle and capable little beauty, Qiao Lu is not worried at all. After Wen Jing came back, Qiao Nan adjusted herself almost, at least her emotions stabilized and she wouldn't mess up anymore. Anyway, his eyes were already like this, and he advised his sister to go back to the United States as soon as possible and not waste any more time.

Qiao Lu had just finished downloading a movie, and the computer was not turned off, so she said to her younger brother: "I won't leave until you find a new purpose in life." ”

Qiao Nan lay back on the sofa, and on the white ceiling, a black shadow appeared for no reason, like a demon hovering above his head, sneering at him.

He had tried to find a way to take off this military uniform, but now he only thought about what he could do to continue to wear this olive green and continue to be a person who was needed?

He stared at the demon on the ceiling and sighed, "If I go back to the army, I'm afraid I'll only be an electrician." ”

"Qiao Nan, let's go study, and become a staff officer or something in the future, so it's okay, right?"

As a staff officer, or a staff officer with a dark shadow in front of him?

Qiao Nan hadn't thought about it yet, his mind had never been so messed up.

It was almost six o'clock, and Wen Jing urged Qiao Lu to ask her to go to her classmates for experiments. As soon as Qiao Lu saw the time, she hurried out of the door, forgetting to turn off the computer.

Qiao Nan didn't think about the road that his sister said, but he still had to learn more about it. After his sister went out, he got up from the sofa and saw that her computer was not turned off, so he used her computer to check it.

As soon as he opened the browser, an email popped up in the bottom right corner. Qiao Nan didn't plan to peek at her sister's email, but the title of the email made Qiao Nan involuntarily click on it.

"RE: About the withdrawal application

Miss Qiao Lu, I would like to reiterate to you once again that your withdrawal application should be signed by the professor and stamped by the department office.

Of course, if you don't do this and don't come to the U.S. at all, there's nothing you can do. However, please be reminded that this may leave you with any problems with your stay and affect your future entry. ”

Qiao Nan thought that he had seen it wrong, that black shadow was really a hoodoo thing, which made him doubt his eyesight and English level. Wen Jing saw that his expression was abnormal, and hurriedly came over to watch with him. After reading it, her hands and feet were also cold.

Qiao Nan completely collapsed in the chair, the sister he had always trusted the most, the sister who had never lied to him, told a big lie.

She didn't graduate with a PhD at all.

Even, she did not make a graduation defense.