The stone table is a mess of cups and plates.

Zhao Yanheng sat down on the stone bench and said in a low voice: "I can't do anything about it!"

Death is approaching day by day, torturing Xiao Mao to death, and also torturing him to the exhaustion. To this day, there is still that kind of panic and powerlessness attached to the body. He let out a long breath and wiped a handful of sweaty forehead hair, his whole face was burgundy, and the strength of the wine came up in waves, wetting his cheeks, even his eyes were moist, flashing with broken light, as if they were gathered tears, and after the pulse surged, it gradually faded. All the struggle is in vain, panic and sadness, how unforgettable it once was, after so many years, it has also faded, like spring flowers and autumn moons, the ultimate beauty and tranquility, passing in the years.

"It's all in the past. ”

Zhao Yanheng almost used a weak and worried look in his eyes, quickly glanced at Li Fei and dodged out. Then he stretched out his hand and knocked down all the cups and plates on the stone table, he burped, stretched his arms and stuck to the stone table, and his hot face was pressed tightly on the cool stone table, like a meat patty, and pasted his left cheek to his right cheek, looking drunk.

Li Fei's elbow rested on the stone table, and he moved his position to face Zhao Yanheng sideways, and his slender figure remained motionless.

There was no figure in sight around Yu Puting, and Dong Rang and the others had already avoided it from afar. The trees are still, the birds are not smelling, only the dust visible to the naked eye floats in the golden light.

Li Fei's heart counted the beats and exhaled. Her state of mind was a little regretful, and she couldn't sort out her thoughts for a while. Regret is an escape, and a mess of the mind is also an escape. If Zhu Miaohua had malicious intentions towards her from the beginning and provoked her with words, Duan Jingjing's humble appearance was a scoundrel with affection, how could she have such confidence? What kind of affection is this? Time is reversed, and she can't ignore it.

It turns out that there is really such a relationship, such a person, or a man. Li Fei's heart then ached, and he was inevitably stunned.

It can't be like this, it's all over, it's all over! What can I do if it's all over? It's crying, making trouble, Li Fei's upbringing does not allow her to make such a tossing behavior. There is a priority in things, people have a priority, no one is at fault, asking Zhao Yanheng with the past, even she feels that this is a reproach.

But his heart was sullen and uncomfortable, Li Fei stroked his chest with his hands, his mind rushed left and right, and loudly persuaded himself that it was all over. Isn't it just a man and another man, who have been with each other for a long time, and they have not seen it in her life.

Li Fei took a deep breath and held up his head to force himself to be bearish. Others can despise this kind of affection, she can't, otherwise, how can she be worthy of the two uncles who raised her.

Her two uncles, Uncle Lin Yi and Uncle Lin He, are not like that, they have been with each other since birth, and their identities as one master and one servant cannot be contained. Later, Uncle Lin He was expelled from the house and lost the surname Li for the rest of his life; Later, Uncle Lin Yi avenged with death and fled with Uncle Lin He after the Li family was martyred. For the sake of such a love, they both lost their heirs.

When my mother was a child, she often read that she was born prematurely before she weighed three pounds, and her skull was soft when she was born. It was Uncle Lin Yi who sandwiched her under his armpit every night and sniffed her with his body temperature, and it was Uncle Lin He who stared at her every day during the day, if it weren't for the careful care of the two uncles day and night, it would be very difficult for her to feed prematurely. When she was young, her father was just a noun to her, her mother was running around for a living and family business all the year round, her grandmother was an exile, and she had to be taken care of by two uncles at least half of the time.

She never resented that the two uncles lived together like that, and it seemed that she shouldn't have criticized others for such reasons.

cut off the front and the back, in Li Fei's knowledge, the most persistent feelings are no more than this.

Zhao Yanheng and Xiao Mao seem to be far from being so resolute.

When it's time to marry a wife, he wants to marry a wife, although Xiao Mao and Zhao Yanheng know each other, they can't stay together.

Li Fei seemed to have spied on such a crack, and his breath was finally a little more relaxed.

I don't know when, Zhao Yanheng pointed his chin on the stone table, and looked at Li Fei with squinted eyes.

A-for-tat sentence by the lotus pond, those endless tears, made him toss and turn all night. What kind of husband is it that can get so many tears? He didn't know why he was so curious and impulsive, so he sent his henchmen to the southwest to investigate and secretly visit.

From her and the thousand households named Lu Yinglin, from meeting each other to getting married, they were as plain as a glass of boiled water. Well, a man and a woman compose moving deeds before marriage, and it is not a thing that is admired. So I can't find anything before marriage, but there are more after marriage.

The trivial records like the case file, looking at the past page by page, are all daily life trivialities, recorded in black and white, bit by bit, you can indeed see the warmth in it.

Every time Qianhu rests, he will take her to travel, run horses, go to restaurants, listen to book reviews, and worship Buddha, accompanied by two by two, traveling in the streets and alleys, teahouses and temples.

She always forgot the time to go home when she went to Wenlan Pavilion to read, and Qianhu called two jars of wine to wait in the restaurant outside; there were many chores in the guard, and when Qianhu also returned late, she always walked to the door of the house to look. In the army, the men went into battle shirtless in the school field, and Qianhu loved to show off that bit of martial arts in front of her.

Between relatives, in addition to the delivery of the festival gifts, Qianhu often let her go back to her parents' house to live, and for a third of the day, Qianhu lived with her in Li's house.

The surrounding neighbors, the same neighborhood, none of them did not say that they were a little couple, and then sighed pity.

What is the kind of affection between husband and wife? His father, emperor, and queen mother absolutely cannot be crowned with affection; he and Zhu Miaohua, after marriage, are each other, you can't get used to me, I can't get used to you, and there is disharmony everywhere. Then the brothers in front of him, King Wu and the princess, King Jing and the princess, have the name of affection, but there is no actual affection.

Everyone thought about it, and to be honest, he didn't quite understand. If the husband and wife are what he has seen and experienced, it is not as happy as him and Ah Mao together.

Such days are less than a year, and then there is a bloody storm in Lin'an.

Qianhu died very quickly, people could not return to Kunming, she took the doctor and medicinal materials to Yuanjiang, treated for three days, and died of serious injuries.

The Lu family and the Li family are full of Su Min, the mother who remarried in the thousand households, Mrs. Shama Tusi, a pair of children born after the remarriage, and many clan elders in the tribe came. At the funeral, Mrs. Toast hated her daughter-in-law who had caused her son to death, and there was constant rebuke and abuse in front of her spirit.

According to the people at the funeral at the time, she knelt in front of her mother-in-law and listened to all the reprimands, and then fainted in front of the spirit.

After the funeral, she moved to Yuantong Temple, sweeping the pagoda every day, frying scriptures, making fruit offerings before the Buddha, and living like a pool of stagnant water.

A thousand households died, and they had no children. The hereditary Yunnan defender is being separated by thousands of families without children, and this is how they are disposed of according to the system. However, the Shama tribe wanted Qianhu's half-brother to inherit, and the half-brother was not surnamed Lu, and the military government did not allow it. The old guys of the Shama tribe, including her mother-in-law, forced her to remarry her thirteen-year-old brother-in-law, which is also said, Luo Luo has the custom of accepting step-marriages, and the uncle can marry a widowed sister-in-law, they want to give birth to a boy like this, and then pass it on to a thousand households, and then inherit the military position after the child grows up.

A group of Nanban, a guard is a thousand households, and it is so much energy.

In front of the Li family, Mrs. Shama Toast asked her to exchange her life for her life and marry her brother-in-law.

Of course, the Li family and herself can't agree to this marriage. A few months later, she became a female official in Concubine Ning's palace, and the Qianguo Mansion made a private agreement with her, so that the thirteen-year-old uncle was Long Wuzhou, and after the age of sixteen, he inherited the Yunnan guard Zhengqianhu.

After Zhao Yanheng knew the detailed past, he suddenly felt pity for the dead Qianhu. If you die so early, you should be unwilling to die. But he immediately laughed maliciously, dying early, dying well.

A ripple rippled through his heart.

He imagined himself as a thousand households, and he was willing to accompany her on horseback, accompany her to worship the Buddha, drink coarse tea in a simple teahouse and listen to commentary, and go to all the streets and alleys to find food. He thought so at the time, she must have been lonely when she lost her husband, and he had been lonely since he lost Ah Mao.

Maybe two lonely people will not be lonely if they are closer.

Later, Zhu Miaohua insulted him hoarsely, saying that he didn't pay attention to it, saying that there were innocent people in the palace who didn't want it, but wanted a pair of broken shoes worn by others.

Isn't it a widow?

Why did he say it so ugly, in fact, he didn't mind at all.

Because when she had a husband, he had a husband.

Those who should come come, those who should go go. Fate and fate are all arranged by God, how to come and go.

Zhao Yanheng was lightheaded, his body shook when he stood up, he walked to Li Fei's side with the stone table, his feet were too light to stand, he slowly knelt down and sat down, his head slowly passed over, next to Li Fei's leg, and said angrily: "You have a thousand households, I have a Mao." It's all gone, let's not mind, okay. ”

Xiao Mao, the first person he can't keep no matter how he retains. Even if he didn't die early, he knew in his heart that he couldn't keep Ah Mao.

They have grown up, and he wants to be an iron-fisted ruler who will support the monarch in life and death. All his actions must be subject to this will.

Therefore, when they grow up, they can't be together, and a person who is criticized by others can't become a ruler.

Li Fei's frozen expression moved.

Thousands of households?

Luk Yinglin...... Mingrui!

An emerald green gem flower appeared in front of Li Fei's eyes. That was the last gift Lu Yinglin gave her. Before leaving Kunming, she transplanted the pot of jewel flowers to Ta'er Temple.

Taer Temple is an inconspicuous temple in the southern suburbs of Kunming, with only one pavilion and a statue of Maitreya Buddha.

The jewel flower has many overlapping leaves, and the rosette-shaped leaf disk resembles a blooming lotus flower, which blooms there over the years, meaning that it will never wither.

This affectionate friendship, she can only be enshrined in front of the Maitreya Buddha statue - I wish to see you in the next life!