In Bao'en Temple, Qin Yunyi is very relaxed, get up early to have morning classes with the old abbot, after breakfast, he will also be with the little novice, carrying a wooden spoon to water the vegetable field, after lunch, he will copy a scroll of scriptures, and even pick up the needle and thread after a long time, and sit in the courtyard with the maids to do some needlework to pass the time.

In the evening, when the weather is good, they will sit in the yard and chat endlessly, talking about everything.

Pei Yudu whispered to Miaoqing, "Why is Niangniang eating tofu and vegetables here, and her complexion is better than in the palace." ”

"Niangniang has never eaten any delicacies from the mountains and seas, and occasionally eating some green vegetables and tofu is to clear the intestines. Miaoqing said, "Niangniang didn't hold us here to eat with her, if you want to be greedy, you will go to the bottom of the mountain with Peizhu to eat." ”

Peiyu was a little embarrassed, "Then Sister Miaoqing and Sister Miaoan are gone, and we are not so greedy." ”

"It's what the mother means. Miaoqing said, "Say that you are still young, and you have no strength if you don't eat meat." ”

"It's so nice to be a mother. Peiyu said, "Why didn't Your Majesty come to see Niangniang, when will Your Majesty take Niangniang back?"

"That's not what you're supposed to ask. Miaoqing said, "Be honest." ”

Zhou Daniu knew that the concubine had arrived at Bao'en Temple, and asked someone to ask if she could come up and kowtow to the girl, Qin Yunyi naturally agreed, Zhou Daniu came up with a half-sized belly, Qin Yunyi hurriedly asked people to stop her from kneeling, "I said you were pregnant, I won't let you come up, how difficult the mountain road is." ”

"Folk women are healthy, there are not so many taboos, and they still go to the fields when they are pregnant. Zhou Daniu smiled and said, "If I don't come this time, I don't know if I will have a chance to meet the girl in this life." ”

"It's ridiculous to say, you didn't follow my current identity, but you had to hide it so that no one would know that you still had such a relationship with me. Qin Yunyi sighed and said.

"The name is gone, but the benefits are still there. Zhou Daniu smiled and said, "The things that the girl has sent over the years are enough for us to live decently and comfortably." Besides, if you want that name to do something, others will come to explain to us, and there will be endless bad things at that time. ”

"If my brother and I are capable, we can do something for the girl, but we are honest people, and it is good for us not to be famous. ”

Qin Yunyi looked at her with a smile, "You just figure everything out, just like a nurse." ”

"I'm my mother's daughter, so naturally I want to be like her. Zhou Daniu said with a smile. When she was born, her mother had been a nurse in the Qin family for several years, so

She has been used to it since she was a child, her mother is not by her side every day, but only comes back once in ten days and a half months, but every time she comes back, her mother brings her good things, hugs her and talks, and combs her beautiful braids, which is enough for her to show off in front of her friends.

During the New Year's holidays, my father would take her and my brother to kowtow to the lord's house, and every time she would go into the inner courtyard to see the lady and the girl, there were a lot of good things. Madame once proposed to let her mother take her to the house, anyway, raising a little girl is just a matter of a pair of chopsticks.

The mother declined the kindness of the lady, she said that she came to the Qin family to be a slave, not to enjoy the blessings, and she didn't want her daughter to come to the inner courtyard at a young age to learn the work of serving people, "It's a country girl, let her grow up in the countryside, marry an honest man when she grows up, and live a stable life, I will be satisfied as a mother." ”

Don't come to this rich land and be blinded.

Madame praised her for her good character, "That's why I left you to take care of Yun'er, leave it to you, I don't worry." ”

She didn't understand it at the time, but when she grew up, she heard more and saw more before she knew her mother's intentions. "The girl still remembers coming to play in the Zhuangzi when she was a child, and I took you to pick wild vegetables and fruits, and walked around the mountains here. ”

"Yes. Qin Yunyi smiled and said, "The two of us went secretly, but you forgot the road on the mountain, and the two of us didn't come back during the lunch break. ”

"I was so scared at the time, even if my mother punished me, how could I still punish the girl?" Zhou Daniu said, "Although the girl is righteous and wants to be punished with me, my mother should have pushed my punishment by taking advantage of the situation." ”

"The nurse's punishment is already very light. Qin Yunyi said, "When I go back, let my mother know that I stretched out my palm and took ten strokes." ”

"Really?" Zhou Dayu said in surprise, "I don't know, Madame looks like a bodhisattva with kind eyebrows, how can she bear it?"

"That's what I did wrong. Qin Yunyi said, "A gentleman doesn't set up a dangerous wall, I am greedy to put myself in possible danger, if I don't teach a good lesson, the more courage I have, the greater the disaster I will break through." ”

Zhou Daniu looked amazed, but Qin Yunyi smiled and said, "Fortunately, my mother still allowed me to come to Zhuangzi in the second year." ”

"Later, we all took a bunch of people to pick wild vegetables and fruits. Zhou Daniu said with a smile.

Speaking of interesting things from childhood, Qin Yunyi unconsciously forgot the time, and it was already dusk when he came back to his senses, "Look at me, I've been sitting with you as a pregnant woman for so long." ”

"It's nice to talk to the girl about these things. After all, the mother in the girl's memory and the mother in her memory can form a complete mother, Zhou Daniu smiled and said, "I am always sick to my stomach when I am pregnant with this, and it is rare that I am honest and not toss me today." ”

"If the girl doesn't dislike me, I'll come back tomorrow to talk to the girl. ”

"Your big belly is too tossy up and down. Qin Yunyi said, "But there are no conditions for you to settle on the mountain." ”

"Where girls can be placed, what can't I place. Zhou Daniu said.

Qin Yunyi left Zhou Daniu to live on the mountain, and asked people to go down the mountain to make vegetarian soup and give it to Zhou Daniu, "It's also that I'm not thoughtful, how can I keep you down to eat fast?"

"I haven't eaten well for a few days, I vomit when I smell meat, but my mother-in-law sees that I don't eat, and I can't stand it anymore, so I say I want to go back to my parents' house for two days. Zhou Daniu said, "Even if I'm not here, I'm also a vegetarian at home." ”

"It's a blessing to be pregnant. Qin Yunyi looked at her and said.

"Thankfully. Zhou Daniu said, "When I vomited to death and wanted to live, I wondered if my mother had suffered such a sin when she was pregnant with me." ”

"It's all very hard. Qin Yunyi said, "I heard that when my mother was pregnant with my brothers, it was very smooth, but when she was pregnant with me, she was very old and very happy. ”

"It's a pity that I didn't have a chance to be filial to her. ”

"I thought the same thing as my mother. Zhou Daniu said, "I'm not afraid of my mother's jokes, I still cried, I cried very fiercely, my mother-in-law thought it was Da Lang who bullied me and scolded him, so I told my mother-in-law that it was none of her business, I missed my mother." ”

"My mother-in-law persuaded me, she said that when she was pregnant and had a child, she also thought that if the child was not filial to her, she would beat him to death, and she would suffer in vain, but watching the child grow older day by day, crawling and rolling, she thought that the child could be healthy and happy, as for filial piety to her, it was secondary, and being a mother was as long as the child was good, and the child was better than anything. ”

"Your mother looks at you well, everything is fine, she doesn't care if you haven't been filial to her, as long as you live well, it's the best filial piety. ”

"Isn't this just to persuade people to be easy and obedient? ”

"My mother-in-law said that her mother did this to her, she did this to her children, and in the future, the children will do this to their children again. Zhou Daniu said, "Maybe which daughter is the reincarnated mother, who will pay off the debts owed in the previous life in this life, and the cycle will go on like this." ”

"What your mother-in-law said is not unreasonable. Qin Yunyi said.

"I only lost my mother, and the girl lost all her family. Zhou Daniu said, "I have a father, brother and sister-in-law to rely on, and my mother-in-law and husband have pity, and I feel heartache when I think of the old things, how uncomfortable should that girl be?"

"How did the girl come over all these years?"

"I didn't think about it. Qin Yunyi said that she reached out to touch Zhou Daniu's tears, but she didn't expect that she herself was already in tears, "This is the process that living people must go through." "If you can't let go of the worry about the dead, you will never come out.

"The girl is going to think. Zhou Daniu said, "If you think about it, you will figure it out, if you don't want to, you will never be able to figure it out." ”

"I want the girl to think about living well, so that she can live well. ”

Zhou Daniu sniffed and said, "I don't know if the girl has dreamed of my mother, I haven't dreamed of it for so many years, but the eldest brother said that he dreamed of it, and the mother said let him take care of his father, sister, and be a good person." ”

"That's good. Qin Yunyi said, "I haven't dreamed of it." "I just repeat the dream of that day, the nightmare of the day.

"My eldest brother said that he asked her when her mother was leaving, and asked her why she was so impulsive, and there was obviously someone in the palace, as long as she persevered a little longer, she would be able to survive. ”

Qin Yunyi looked at her with bated breath, "Then the eldest brother said, the mother only smiled and told her that if she did it again, she would still do it, and she was reluctant to die, she was reluctant to have too many people, but at that moment, she was reluctant to be a girl." ”

Tears poured out of her eyes, Qin Yunyi turned her head, covered her face with her hand, and Zhou Daniu took her hand, "The girl must live well, in this way, everyone's death is not in vain." ”

"The girl is not living alone, she is living for all the people of the Qin family. ”

"So the girl should eat happily, play happily, raise her eyebrows happily with her husband, grow old, and let all regrets stop at you. ”

"It's the Qin family's luck that the girl is alive. ”

Qin Yunyi hurriedly got up and left, returned to the room and fell on the bed and cried heartily, Miaoqing and Miaoan were guarding the door, waiting for when she finished crying before going in.

Qin Yunyi's heart knot over the years could not be completely disintegrated after one or two conversations, but chatting with the old people back then finally prevented her from carrying such a heavy sense of guilt.

Zhou Daniu stayed in Bao'en Temple for three days before going back, Qin Yunyi stood in the side hall, rolled up his sleeves, picked up the handkerchief, and wanted to wipe all the spiritual positions again, not letting people help. It's a chore, and there are so many spiritual positions that you have to wipe it for a day to wipe it clean.

Qin Yunyi was not in a hurry, pursed his lips and wiped it from morning to night.

When she rubbed her parents' spiritual positions, Qin Yunyi found that she didn't feel like crying this time, she carefully wiped each spiritual position, "Actually, it's not a bad thing to be alive, you see, you at least still have me to remember, there are so many spiritual positions here, I don't know how many of them have family members alive, and they are still thinking about them." ”

"I hate it. Qin Yunyi said, "I don't want to die, I found a bunch of reasons for myself to die, I don't want to live, and I found a bunch of reasons for myself to live, so awkward and twisted for so many years." ”

"I thought that living like this was the best solution, but in the end, I was sorry for the living and the dead. Mother must not recognize me as a stupid daughter. Qin Yunyi smiled and said, she picked up the second brother's spiritual position, "Second brother, you have made a good brother, if it weren't for him, I wouldn't be able to live so comfortably." ”

"I always feel that living is worthy of his heart to save me. ”

"Now that I think about it, I live like this, and I also violate his will. Qin Yunyi said, "I really thought about it this time, I won't repeat it, and I will live well in the future." ”

"For you, for him, and for myself. ”

"The world is very short, wave your fingers for decades, and I will come down to accompany you. ”