"I didn't think I'd get divorced. I got married very early, and I got married when I graduated, because my husband was my high school classmate. Get to know each other. The feelings are deep. He's very nice, he's not ugly, and my friends like him very much. ”

"My mother saw him when she was alive, and I thought he was good, honest, and good to me. My dad was also very satisfied with him at that time, and my grandmother and the old man liked children like him, who didn't talk much and was upright!"

"I was in a relationship with him for four years, and three of them were long-distance relationships. At that time, he was in college in Changsha, I was in Beijing, and he took a hard-seat train to Beijing to find me on the National Day of his freshman year. We were in a relationship. ”

Xu Ling heard Bai Yi talk about her husband, and her heart was sour, everything she had before was only the man who betrayed her. It has nothing to do with him Xu Ling, MD, I would have been born a few years earlier! Maybe I met you in college and cut you off a long time ago!

"I chose to come back to my hometown from Beijing, mostly because of him, and half because of my father. Xu Ling has never heard Bai Yi talk about her family, and just now I heard Bai Yi say that when her mother was alive, now her mother must have passed away. What about Dad? Xu Ling listened carefully to what Bai Yi said.

"My dad was alone, and my mom was gone when I was about to take the college entrance examination! I had to come back to accompany him! When I came back, I took the civil service exam, and I went to work very smoothly. Then I got married naturally, I was young at the time, and I didn't plan to have children! But the more I stayed in the office, the more I wanted to go out. Later, I had a child, and after giving birth, I told him that I wanted to go to Beijing to break through, and if I succeeded, it would be the best!

"Then did he agree at once?" Xu Ling suddenly said.

"No, it was a long-standing idea, and my dad had remarried, and he had a few fights with me because of his new wife, and I had just given birth, and my grandma was still alive at the time, and he thought I was just in a bad mood because of my dad's business, and he was just going out to have fun. He felt that there were not only him and his children here, but also his grandmother, who had raised me since childhood. So let me go!" Bai Yi thought back to the beginning, not knowing whether his original choice was right or wrong.

"I got a job the first year, but I was just an ordinary employee, and he was waiting for me to come back. But I didn't realize it. Come back once a month. Later, I had a lot of work and didn't go home for months, but I wanted to work hard, mix it up, and earn money for them. When he came home for the Chinese New Year, he changed. But I didn't realize it. "Bai Yi said that there are no regrets, which is false.

"He told me that you can continue to stay in Beijing, but we don't know what the consequences will be, so if you can bear the worst consequences, you can continue to develop your career! I got the news at the time that I would be promoted to supervisor after the year, so I agreed to him, I always felt that our relationship since childhood can withstand the grind!" Bai Yi sneered helplessly, how much she believed in that person at that time!

"The next year, I got my wish to sit in the position of supervisor, and for a year, my boss, who was the director at the time, honed me in a devilish way. In the third year, she left her job and went home to get married and have children. I took her place! To this day, I have suffered the consequences that I deserve. So, I don't blame him!" Bai Yi felt that he should be relieved, since she had chosen this path at the beginning, it was a road of no return, and she Bai Yi had to go on resolutely.

"Hehe, a slap doesn't make a sound, and I have a big part of the reason! It's my fault! I'm not a good wife, and I'm not a good mother! I'm too extreme! I always want to earn money for them, and I always think that I can make a difference. Bai Yi was actually poor when she was a child, and she has always been extremely afraid that without money, everything can be done. That's how society develops, isn't it?

"When I was a child, I was afraid of being poor, and then my ordinary life didn't give me a sense of security. But who knows, I don't love money, I love my family, and I want them to have a better life! I'm not a slave to money, I want to fill my sense of security with money, I was really poor when I was a child, I was poor, I couldn't do anything! I was always looked down upon by my relatives. Bai Yi was afraid to think back to the old days.

After speaking, Bai Yi didn't say anything anymore, he was still sitting in that position, motionless. It was already dark!Xu Ling didn't speak. In the dark, quietly, he could hear Bai Yi's heartbeat. Not in a hurry, not slow, steady, powerful heartbeat.

Xu Ling knew that Bai Yi calmly accepted this consequence, as for her saying that this was retribution, Xu Ling disagreed, but felt that this was Bai Yi's opportunity, maybe abandon all worries and cut off the previous troubles, Bai Yi would live more chic, but now, Bai Yi still needs time to slowly accept this fact!

Bai Yi sat for a night, she didn't drive Xu Ling away, and she didn't know why she talked so much to Xu Ling, you must know that Xu Ling was still a child, she had not experienced marriage, and she didn't have too much emotional experience. Can he understand?

Xu Ling was too nervous in the afternoon, there was no sound in the dark room, and she fell asleep on the sofa after a while. Bai Yi listened to his steady breathing, and was particularly envious, only people who have nothing to do in their hearts can sleep so soundly, Bai Yi has not slept as fragrant as Xu Ling for many years.

Bai Yi moved, her body was stiff and numb, she got up and went to the ground barefoot, walking on the carpet without sound, her bright eyes glowed in the dark, she touched the thin box of cigarettes, quietly lit it, swallowed in the dark, flickering and dimming. A little bit of red light flashed in Bai Yi's eyes...