Chapter 51: The Heart Knot

Although he scolded Xu Ling, but on the last night, Xu Ling would definitely not let Bai Yi go. Bai Yi seemed to be pretending to hate Xu Ling, but in fact, he was reluctant to leave Xu Ling in his heart.

But Xu Ling just likes to see Bai Yi look like he wants to be abstinent but can't stand his teasing, and the expression on his face really loves him to death. The more Bai Yi was like this, the more Xu Ling wanted to tease her, so this night, Bai Yi didn't sleep well.

Xu Ling didn't want to wait any longer, the dim wall lamps in the hotel, and Bai Yi's face was emotional and obsessed. The wet and soft hands are full of every nerve of Xu Ling. Just as Xu Ling was about to pull off the thin piece of fabric, Bai Yi suddenly pressed Xu Ling's restless hand and forced himself to wake up from his desire,

"No! Xu Ling, I'm sorry, I really can't!" Bai Yi said with a crying voice.

Xu Ling had already guessed Bai Yi's heart, so he said, "Baby, I don't care what you did before, now that I love you, I won't care what you think!"

"No! you'll regret it!" Bai Yi struggled.

"Bai Yi, let me tell you! I, Xu Ling, never do anything I regret! I regard you so important! Why do you have to belittle yourself?" Xu Ling was a little angry.

Bai Yi's tears flowed down the corners of his eyes to the pillow, and then he let go of Xu Ling's hand. No longer resisting, no longer refusing, but has been silently crying.

Xu Ling also let go of Bai Yi and sat on the bed. It was he who didn't control himself well and forced Bai Yi to do what he didn't want to do. Leaning his head on the head of the bed*, he lit a cigarette.

"I'm sorry! It's me who is wrong!" Xu Ling apologized first.

Bai Yi didn't make a sound, and he didn't move. After a long silence, Xu Ling's eyes were almost finished, and Bai Yi suddenly said,

"It's me who should say I'm sorry! It's me who can't get over that hurdle in my heart, it's because I feel that I'm not worthy of you! With this ruined body, I can't face you!"

"I said it, don't belittle yourself in front of me! "Xu Ling didn't play coquettish this time, she was very serious, special masters!

Bai Yi got up and leaned against Xu Ling at the head of the bed, turned over and took Xu Ling's cigarette, and lit one himself. Smoking silently, Xu Ling frowned, he only saw that Bai Yi had smoked the night before the divorce, but he didn't expect Xu Ling to hurt her this time.

Bai Yi's smoking action is very beautiful, and it is also very tempting in this scene. Bai Yi turned his head, and there were still tears in his eyes.

"Xu Ling, do you know? Actually, you are very good in my heart! You say that I am the goddess of moonlight in your heart, then you are like the sun in my heart, and I feel that I am a tengu, and if I get in touch with you, my light will slowly disappear!"

"Xu Ling, I came to you this time, and you know my thoughts! I don't want to hide my thoughts from you, I don't want to hang your appetite, I admit that I also have lust for you, but..."

"You touch, my scar, I don't have the courage to face you!" Bai Yi's hand holding the cigarette couldn't help but tremble.

Xu Ling's fingers touched the scar on Bai Yi's lower abdomen, which was very neat, and the long length ran through Bai Yi's entire front abdomen. Xu Ling didn't understand what this was, could a little chick know what it was? So he asked, "What is this?"

"When I gave birth, I was born prematurely, and when I was more than eight months old, I was accidentally pushed downstairs by Cheng Qing's mother, so I could only give birth to a child in the palace, and I almost died!" Bai Yi said calmly, but his heart was not calm at all.

Xu Ling frowned, but the anger on his face became deeper and deeper.

"At that time, it was actually a few words, but it almost killed me and my child. So this scar, not only because of giving birth, but also because of the humiliation in my heart. I felt that I was living too aggrieved at that time!"

"And in the face of you! I have a natural inferiority complex. I don't want you to see my scar, I'm afraid you will ask, I'm afraid you'll dislike it, I'm afraid you'll feel disgusted! I'm afraid that after you have sex with me, there will be a psychological shadow!"

"Oh, it's actually that simple! Blame me for being troubled! I'm sorry, Xu Ling! Maybe we're not suitable for being together, I haven't had any clear attitude towards you, it's me who is not good! I think in this life, my dad and Cheng Qing will hate me and betray me, so I don't believe it, you can really love me! It's just a moment of passion and I get carried away! If you think that having sex with me makes you temporarily happy and satisfied. Then I do! Even if it's a pao friend, it doesn't matter!"

After Bai Yi finished speaking, he turned around and kissed Xu Ling.

Xu Ling pushed her away, his eyes looked at Bai Yi deeply, he was not angry, he only felt distressed, but suddenly, he thought of something, restrained the emotions in his eyes, and held Bai Yi's shoulders with both hands. There was no longer any erotic action, and the pure big eyes stared at Bai Yi, who was now languishing and decadent.

"Chan'er, no matter how many jokes I have made with you before, when I say I love you and like you, it's not a joke, it's not an impulse, it's my sincerity! I just say it once, you remember it! I don't dare to guarantee how long I can love you, and I don't dare to make such a promise, but I can guarantee that in these days when I love you, I will be sincere to you, and make up for the love you lacked before! No longer make you insecure! I will do my best!"

"I won't dislike you! I won't allow anyone to belittle you! I want to bully you! I want to be with you! I want to love you and want you! This is what I really think about these days when I love you! The scar you care about is not humiliation but distress to me! I won't have a psychological shadow, I will only feel more sorry for you! In fact, in my heart, I am ready to accept your daughter, do I still care about a scar on your body? Is it that you put too much pressure on yourself!"

"Don't think about it yourself in the future! We have missed seven years, and I don't want to delay it any longer! If you want, I will try my best to love you, and try my best to delay the time to love you, preferably this time is the lifetime of each other!"

Xu Ling didn't launch a love offensive against Bai Yi again, and the two just hugged each other and spent their last moments. It didn't take long for dawn.

Xu Ling didn't fall asleep all night, this was the first time he had insomnia in 24 years. He has been thinking about how much Bai Yi has suffered, from Bai Yi's words every time, he knows a little more, but he doesn't go back and take the initiative to ask Bai Yi, Bai Yi wants to tell him that he doesn't need to uncover Bai Yi's wounds, Xu Ling doesn't want to ask Bai Yi's past, he just wants Bai Yi's future.

Xu Ling went downstairs to buy breakfast and came back, Bai Yi had already packed his luggage, Xu Ling always enjoyed the feeling of eating with Bai Yi, and the color of the food was also, Xu Ling felt that when talking about love, in addition to having requirements for each other, in fact, eating is also a kind of love requirement, if there is no daily meal time, then such love is missing and imperfect.

Xu Ling still has a scene to film, Bai Yi took a taxi to the airport by himself and said goodbye to Xu Ling. Neither of them is slimy, and it is difficult to separate. Bai Yi is not a coquettish woman anymore, such a separation is only because Xu Ling wants to become a better version of herself, which is inevitable. And Xu Ling rarely didn't play coquettish jokes, he was afraid that his occasional joke would make Bai Yi feel uncomfortable and helpless, reluctant to leave but had to go. Both understand each other and think about each other.