Walking on the street at night, the lights above her head were flickering, what was the mood of returning after a long absence, Shu Yun smiled slightly and walked into a lattice house café.

She's back, and she's back after twenty-five years. She ordered a glass of Blue Mountain, thinking about how she got here twenty-five years ago and how she got out. Her eyes were a little distant, looking out the window, the road was wider, there was more traffic, what would she do if she went back in time.

Qin Xuyang pushed her, the child was not saved, she was not very sad, she just felt at a loss, there was such an opportunity to keep Xuyang but she didn't do anything, it was difficult for her to have a second chance, and naturally she couldn't use the same drama again, as for the child, it was just a means she used to achieve that Guan Xiaoqun could divorce Xuyang, since he didn't play the ideal role, it didn't matter if he stayed or not.

She was a little disheartened at the time, she didn't expect that the relationship between Guan Xiaoqun and Xuyang was so strong, she tried all her might, but she still couldn't break them up, she recuperated for a few days, she went to Su's house to visit Tao Ying, she didn't have any friends in this city, and she didn't like to interact with people, only Tao Ying was still a person who could talk about her heart.

She remembered that when she walked into the Su family that day, Tao Ying's eldest son happened to be six years old, and the Su family invited many guests to celebrate his birthday.

She was out of place with everyone, sitting in a corner of the couch watching the birthday party that had nothing to do with her. Qin Xuyang and Guan Xiaoqun were still in the hospital, and the Qin family did not come. She listened to the sound of excitement and laughter, and everyone had smiling faces on their faces, how brilliant those smiling faces were, but her heart was like a withered flower, and there was no longer time to bloom.

"Is Xiaoqun's health better?Tao Ying, how was she when you went to the hospital?"

She saw the smile on Tao Ying's face freeze for a moment, and then glanced at her, and the smile was a little reluctant: "It's much better." ”

"You said that there are still two months to give birth, why did the child say that it was gone, how could the small group of two couples stand it?"

"That's right, I've seen Xiaoqun before, with a smile on her face looking forward to the birth of a child, and she and her husband went to the store to buy baby products, how sad you would be if you said it would be if you came home and saw it!"

The smile on Tao Ying's face has been collected, and when everyone saw this, they were a little embarrassed, the Su family and the Qin family have always been good friends, Tao Ying naturally couldn't listen to this, and felt uncomfortable, not to mention that she was now pregnant with three children, and the mother couldn't listen to these unlucky words, so she quickly opened the topic, and the topics between women are inseparable from these trivial things in life, so they went around and around, and the topic returned to the child.

"I guess your baby must be a daughter, you see this round belly, yes. ”

"It's been a few months now, you have to eat more, so that you can lose nutrition to the child, you are so beautiful, the child must be born a great beauty." ”

The mother couldn't help but laugh when she heard these compliments, Tao Ying gently stroked her belly, and said: "It's been more than four months, and I also have a feeling that it should be a daughter, Han Siya also yelled all day long to see my sister, I said it's still early." ”

"Is there any fetal movement?"

"Yes, I was still kicking. ”

……

Her acquaintance with Xuyang was that year when she went to Tao's house to return the book. Her family and the Tao family are neighbors, only separated by a wall, her parents are busy with work, often can't take care of her, sometimes busy, Tao's mother will let her go over to eat.

The Tao family and her family have a different living environment, the Tao family's father is an engineer, the Tao family's mother is a teacher, and the scholarly family naturally even has a different learning atmosphere from other families. Tao Ying is two years older than her, she has been beautiful since she was a child, has good academic performance, and has a generous and hearty personality, and is her role model in the eyes of her parents.

Xuyang also came to Tao's house to return the book that day, Tao's mother is Xuyang's middle school teacher, and Xuyang is now a classmate with Tao Ying, because Xuyang's family is not good, Tao's mother takes care of him a lot. When she walked into the study that day, the oblique light shone through the window, and shone on him, half bathed in light, half in shadow, his face handsome and with a distinctive elegance that distinguished him from others.

He was really good-looking.

She was stunned, and he turned his head and saw her, but he was stunned for a moment, and then shy and nervous.

She smiled slightly, she liked him at first sight, and although she was nervous at the time, if you fall in love with someone, you will have a courage that will surprise you. She is not that kind of lively character, others call her "cold beauty" at school, she never looks at the boys who pursue her, but for Xuyang, she turns around and chases him.

She listened to Tao Ying give them a brief introduction next to her: "Xuyang, this is Shu Yun, like you, I also like to read, you two can get to know each other." ”

In this way, she and Xuyang met, and later, Xuyang and her also fell in love.

Tao Ying was admitted to a good university and went to City B. And Xuyang because he had to take care of his elderly father, he went to college in a neighboring city, and returned to his hometown to become a middle school teacher after graduation.

Tao Ying rarely came back after getting married, so she and Tao Ying had not met in those years, but there were calls with each other, Xuyang would still go to Tao's house from time to time to visit Tao's mother, at that time their family had moved, sometimes she would go with Xuyang, Tao's mother was not in good health, she only had Tao Ying's daughter, Tao Ying wanted to take her over to live together, but Tao's mother was unwilling to leave her hometown.

For some reason, on this occasion, at this lively time, looking at Tao Ying's face full of maternal brilliance and happiness, Shu Yun suddenly felt that her smile was a little dazzling. Her acquaintance with Xuyang was in the Tao family, and it was Tao Ying who made them acquaintance, she used to like Tao Ying a lot, and now she and Xuyang have come to this point, Xuyang and Guan Xiaoqun's acquaintance is because of Tao Ying. If she hadn't been in the lead, after Xuyang's father passed away, he wouldn't have returned to City B to marry Guan Xiaoqun.

She stared at her, wondering in her heart whether Tao Ying also had some responsibility for her current tragedy. She couldn't sit still, and then she made an excuse to go out. But the resentment in the heart arises, but it is difficult to get rid of it.

Regarding Xiaoqun's matter, Tao Ying knew the details very well, Tao Ying's attitude towards her gradually faded, and she no longer came to Su's house, and later because her father urged her again and again, she resigned and returned to her hometown. On the day she went back, she stood at the train station, thinking about the bits and pieces of the past year, her heart was full of unwillingness and resentment, when the train started, the scenery regressed, she told herself that she would definitely come back.

She didn't think about harming Tao Ying, at least not at first, but who made her go back to her hometown at that time so coincidentally.

The death of her father hit her too hard, and she finally had nothing. She sat on the stairs of the hospital, just like the day when Xuyang sat on the stairs in despair, she felt like her heart was dead, she really didn't know where her motivation was to live. Until a voice sounded above her head: "Shu Yun, why are you sitting here?"

She raised her eyes and looked at Tao Ying, Tao Ying had a big belly, and said with some embarrassment: "I haven't seen you for three months, it turns out that you are back, and I am still very worried about you." ”

How gentle her smile was.

She stared at her face, and then looked at the child she was stroking and about to give birth, and felt more and more that she was a monk, if it weren't for her, she wouldn't have lost the sun, and she wouldn't have sat here alone like she is now, without even someone to rely on.

When she came back to her senses, a cup of Blue Mountain coffee had already cooled, Shu Yun picked up the cup and took a sip, she waited for another fifteen minutes, and finally saw the familiar face that was long overdue, her heart was beating fast, beating fast for him, just like when she saw him for the first time that year.

Qin Xuyang looked at this face that impressed him, for twenty-six years, that scene often appeared in his nightmares, he would wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, and the scene of her falling down the stairs made him feel guilty all these years.

He sat down and didn't order anything, he looked at her and felt a lot in his heart. They used to have many unforgettable times together. Now that she was sitting with him, time was no longer forgiving, he was no longer young, and neither was she. He is here today because he has felt that he owes her a "sorry" all these years, and he wants to come over for the sake of the child who lost the opportunity to come into this world because of him.

Wrinkles were crawling up his face. Shu Yun smiled, looked at him intently, and said, "It's amazing, your appearance hasn't changed at all from when we met, you are still so handsome, and you still have a scholarly and elegant temperament." ”

Qin Xuyang was a little stunned, he didn't expect her to be so calm, what she said made him a little distracted, no matter who it was, there was always a moment of distraction when he first fell in love, and the past events of walking through the window and the roof in those times would always make people's hearts fluctuate.

A waiter came, and he finally ordered a cup of coffee. Then he took out a paternity test sheet from his pocket, looked at her and said, "This is just got today, Shu Wei's child is not mine." ”

Shu Yun expected it, she smiled, took a look, and said calmly: "She is indeed not your child, your child, she was gone the moment she was pushed down by you, she was adopted by me." ”

Qin Xuyang's face turned pale, looked at her and said, "That child, is it really mine?"

"Can I have a child alone? If you don't believe me, I can't do anything. But if my child is still alive, you can also take the same paternity test today, wouldn't that prove it?"

Her words were like knives that made him turn pale. Qin Xuyang looked at the cold hatred in her eyes and the chill in her smile, and suddenly understood why she still didn't let him go after so many years. He felt a heaviness in his heart, and this heaviness had been weighing on his chest all the time.

"I'm sorry, in fact, I've always wanted to tell you this sentence, I've been guilty about this for many years, but the past is also in the past, I hope you, stop clinging to the past. Now that you have your family and have had a child of your own, you should come back to them, and that's who you really should care about. ”

"So today, are you here to say goodbye to me? I know that you and Guan Xiaoqun have not had a chance to have children for many years, do you hate me too?"

Shu Yun looked at the grief hidden in his expression, and felt a trace of happiness in her heart, but the happiness was mixed with pain, she loved and hated him.

Qin Xuyang didn't speak.

Shu Yun ordered a cup of coffee again, compared to his expression, she looked much calmer, after the coffee was delivered, she took the spoon and slowly turned it and stirred, while saying: "You are not me, how do you know that I will feel happy in my future life? I will only love one person in my life, you abandoned me and killed my child, Xuyang, how can you say that I can still fall in love with someone else? How can I not hate you? I love and hate a person, have you ever experienced this kind of torment?"

Her eyes were like sharp blades, Qin Xuyang couldn't look directly at this kind of eyes, he lowered his eyelids, Shu Yun looked at him with such nostalgia and hatred, he sat for a while, and finally stood up and left, Shu Yun watched him walk out of her sight step by step, she knew that this might be the last look, so tears welled up uncontrollably in her eyes.

The next day, Shu Yun got on the train, and the destination was her hometown, which was now very backward, but she was reliving the state of mind that she had left, as if she was saying goodbye to herself when she left here.

She didn't even make a phone call to Shu Wei, although she raised her, but she has never been able to love her as her own, although she knows in her heart that this child is innocent, but the heart knot is separated by a layer here, and no one can untie it, as for her life experience, she tilted her head slightly, looking straight at the mountain scenery outside the window, she didn't care if she would know.

Tao Ying got out of the car with her luggage, she hadn't been back to her hometown for many years, and when she opened the door of her former residence, memories came to her face, like the fragrance of flowers sending bursts of fragrance, which was intoxicating.

Su Hanchen followed behind her, looking left and right at this small courtyard, although he had also accompanied his mother back twice, he had no impression anymore.

"Mom, this place hasn't been cleaned yet, let's stay in a hotel for one night. ”

Tao Ying smiled: "This is my home, why should I stay in a hotel? There is dust, just clean it." She walked in with her luggage, opened the door of the house with the key, and saw that although there was a lot of dust, it was not too thick, and said with a smile: "Mom will ask relatives to help clean it at the end of every year, and this dust has accumulated for a year." ”

Su Hanchen smiled slightly, looked at the old objects in the living room, and said, "Then I'll go to the yard to fetch water to wash, my mother is tired, so I'll find a place to sit first." ”