May 18, 2004 Light rain

This lesson is a math class.

I hate it the most.

It was raining lightly outside.

It's also what I hate the most.

Looking out the window, the school's newly renovated dormitory building has risen from the ground.

The world needs to move forward, and so do people.

But development means change, and change means that someone has something to lose......

People are much smaller than the world, so those changes tend to be very strong and even cruel.

More than five months ago, Shen Sijia and I were still a young couple that everyone envied. I happily called her "daughter-in-law", and she sweetly called me "husband".

More than five months later, Shen Sijia and I have become inconspicuous passers-by in each other's lives. Or rather, I was just a passerby in her life, and she became the pain I didn't want to talk about anymore......

She changed schools, and although the new school was still in L City, I don't think we would cross paths again.

When I learned last Saturday that she was forced to transfer because she was pregnant, my whole world had collapsed.

Although we were close to her when we were together, we never stepped into the thunder pool.

So...... That's right, the child is Chen Jie's.

Maybe after the breakup, when I was still thinking about her, she went to his bed.

I suddenly felt ridiculous.

I remember just a year ago, she begged me not to make that kind of request to her before I graduated from high school. Her request was sincere and sincere, and no one could refuse it.

To be honest, I was quite impressed. I think she's the one I want to protect the most.

So from then on, I made up my mind to at least keep her innocence until I graduated.

But this innocence, which I secretly swore to protect, is something that others can easily take away.

How much did she love him, and how could she do it for him?

I do not know.

But I'm now really sure she never loved me.

The story between us is nothing more than wishful thinking on my part.

But I think I should be relieved too.

When I first learned that she was pregnant and had been expelled from school, I went from shock to anger to heartache. For three whole days, I didn't think about tea and dinner, and my heart was so painful that I couldn't speak.

Every time I put pen to paper and want to record my feelings, I can only find more bitterness from the depths of my heart.

Brother Feng, Meng San, Zou Long, and the gods all persuaded me, but I could only smile at them, and then bury myself deep in grief and couldn't extricate myself......

It wasn't until this afternoon, when I was sitting under a tree on the edge of the playground in the rain, that a woman appeared, and I put my sadness aside for a while.

Su Qingqing hasn't appeared in front of me for a long time.

I thought my few refusals would eventually hurt this girl, but she was stronger than I thought.

To my surprise, she didn't come to comfort me, but came up and slapped me in the face.

I was speechless at her sudden move.

Isn't she just a woman? Why don't you die for her?

Su Qingqing was so angry that her shoulders shook.

I stood up and looked at her, gritting my teeth in anger.

I lost my first girlfriend and the first love of my life, again in this most heart-wrenching way. Isn't that worth grieving to my heart's content?!

That's when I suddenly decided on one thing, I'm going to change too, from this moment on!

After making up my mind, I looked at Su Qingqing angrily.

I guess my eyes frightened her a little, and her body, which was shaking with anger, suddenly froze.

I stepped forward, grabbed her shoulders with both hands, and pulled her into my arms.

No matter how much it is, Lao Tzu is going to be the worst cub in this school!!

I hugged Su Qingqing, kissed her fiercely on the mouth.

Ouch,!

His mouth hurt for a while, and he quickly pushed Su Qingqing away.

This little girl actually bit me.

I think my image in Su Qingqing's heart is completely ruined.

But I don't care, I'm going to make all the women see me as an enemy!

Surprisingly, Su Qingqing didn't slap me again.

She suddenly burst into tears.

I have made Shen Sijia cry and Zhen Songni cry, but I have never made Su Qingqing cry. Even if I've turned her down so many times.

And this time, I've seen it.

This little girl cries differently than they do.

She cried like a child, wah-wow-wow.

Originally, there were no people on the playground under the rain.

But when she cried like this, many people looked over here.

I quickly stepped forward and put my hand over her mouth, and then pulled her to a more remote place.

Wow wow wow...... You're bullying me...... Wow...... My brother never bullied me...... Wow......

She kept crying, overwhelming me, who had just decided to be the worst cub not long ago.

Right...... Right...... I wanted to apologize, but I felt like I couldn't.

Oops, no matter how much it is.

Lao Tzu's heart was horizontal, and he kissed it again.

This time, Su Qingqing didn't bite me, but made a sound of resistance while hammering my shoulder with her hand.

MD, it's all up to this, and I still care so much.

As soon as he grabbed her hand, his mouth kept poking at her mouth.

I don't know how long it took to poke, but she gradually fell silent.

I felt something was wrong and quickly separated.

Su Qingqing didn't cry or make a fuss, she stood there and looked at me expressionlessly.

At such times, someone has to speak first to break the awkward atmosphere, but that person can't be me.

I want to be ruthless, I want to be the Cao Cao who "would rather bear the people of the world than the people of the world bear me"!

But what makes a ruthless expression?

I was pondering in my heart, but I heard Su Qingqing say:

Forget about her, I'll be your girlfriend......

May 19, 2004 Overcast

I ended up with Su Qingqing.

Actually, I really like her.

Cute, strong, and even quite brave. On the road to self-happiness, this little girl is much more resolute than me.

But I can't say I love her.

The word "love" is still too early for us now.

I've thought I'm in love with Scarlett for the umpteenth time, but it turns out it's not love.

I don't know what love is, but it's never the kind of relationship I had when I was a student.

I was glad that I was able to get rid of the pain that Shen Sijia had brought me, but at the same time I felt a little distressed about what was going to happen next.

Su Qingqing is a girl that Fu Minghao has been chasing for a long time, but now she has become my girlfriend.

I don't even know how to tell Brother Feng about this.

It was not easy for us to turn our rivalry with Fu Minghao, but now we are ......

Oops, it's tangled.

At the end of class in the afternoon, Meng San sat down at my table and came up to me.

Your kid is finally alive, and my brothers are worried about you. Meng San said.

I looked at Meng Sandao embarrassedly, third brother, I'm sorry, I'm ......

Hey, don't talk about that, I know. Meng San smiled.

No, you don't understand, I'm in trouble again now......

Okay, okay, didn't you just find a new girlfriend, I know. Meng San interrupted me with a smile, my girlfriend is not a trouble, she is a woman who gives her happiness to us.

Looking at Meng San with a smile on his face, I really couldn't bear to tell him that Fu Minghao had been chasing Su Qingqing.

Fu Minghao is not Chen Zhe, even if it is Brother Feng, he doesn't dare to deal with him easily.

Alright, think about the next game. Tomorrow after playing the group stage of class eight, we have already ensured that we will qualify from the group, and then we will draw lots to play the team in the first year of high school. Brother Feng said, he went to arrange the first and sixth classes of high school, you know, it was Fu Minghao's class. Prepare for a great fight!

After Meng San finished speaking, he went back to his seat.

But I cried out in my heart.

It's really bad luck for TM to be afraid of anything......

May 23, 2004 Sunny

I don't know how Brother Feng arranged it.

At the draw ceremony after the group stage, the fifth class of our high school sophomore really drew the sixth class of high school.

The probability of a quarter was directly arranged by Brother Feng.

Although I am curious about what kind of means Brother Feng has used, the current situation is very serious, and I don't have time to care about it so much.

According to Brother Feng's words, it is necessary to fight early and late, so it is better to kill Fu Minghao and them in the quarterfinals. If we can't get past them, it only proves that we are nothing more than that.

The whole team was in high spirits, and I was the only one worried.

I couldn't put my worries into words at such a time when my blood was boiling. I can only hope that Fu Minghao doesn't know about me and Su Qingqing.

I also told Su Qingqing that in order to avoid unnecessary trouble, try not to spread the news that we are in love. That Zhou Xiaowei's experience made Su Qingqing extremely cautious about this matter, nodded and said, I understand.

The game is scheduled for the afternoon after tomorrow.

The so-called difficulty means that no matter how worried and sad you are, it will come eventually. So instead of worrying about it all day long, it's better to go with the flow.

I'll just do my best, and I'll leave the rest to God.

So I'm only worried about it so far, I said to myself.

Having said that, Su Qingqing is really a very good girlfriend.

Although because of Fu Minghao, our life is a little sneaky. But the cuteness she shows from time to time makes me feel that such days are also sweet.

Don't compare with anyone, I think Su Qingqing's personality really makes me excited.

How do you say that? It's like a little girl next door.

But after the pain of my last relationship, I don't plan to sink too deep.

I admit that I do like Su Qingqing very much, but I will never allow myself to fall to the point where I can't extricate myself.

Life is still a long time, and in this vast world of people in the future, we can't guarantee to accompany each other to the end. So instead of holding her tightly in your hands for fear that she will fly away, it is better to have fun in time and enjoy the happiness and sweetness in front of you.

Okay, that's it.