I have been friends with Jolene for so many years, and what I envy her the most is not that she can dance, nor that she has good grades, but that she grew up in a very happy family.

Although, she often said that her father was stingy and broke a penny in half, and her mother was very irritable and often yelled...... But this does not prevent them from becoming well-known model families.

Jolene has an older sister who came out of the textbooks - hardworking, kind and upright, strict with her younger siblings, but gentle and considerate. Everyone said that if Brother Xu Wei really married Sister Qiao Lu home, he would have picked up a big baby who had been blessed for at least three generations.

Girls want to have older brothers, and I'm no exception. In the past, my perception of my brother came completely from Korean dramas, most of those brothers had gentle personalities and took care of their younger sisters in every way, but Brother Qiao Nan was not like this at all. There was a rumor that he had a hundred ways to tease his sister and make her go around, and that his sister, Jolene, had invented a thousand ways to kill him. But they are both alive and well so far, this is probably brother and sister.

Qiao Lin often complained that her mother stared at her too closely, and even remembered the scores of the weekly exams clearly, and even made a curve chart to record the changes in her grades. But when it comes to parent-teacher conferences, her mother always dresses up and is the most dazzling mother in the crowd.

I envy such a mother. After all, my mom didn't even know what class I was in, let alone what I wanted to do.

She and her dad didn't know anything about me.

Xu Na and I ran to Qiao's house when we had nothing to do, because their family atmosphere was so charming. For us who lack love, listening to her parents quarrel and watching their brothers and sisters quarrel is so charming.

Xu Na and I both grew up in broken families, and maybe I was worse off than her. Her parents quarreled to the end, and finally chose to divorce, and since then the smoke has cleared and everyone is fine, and my parents quarrel every day, and I want them to leave, but they refuse to divorce.

After a long time, I resented my mother a little, she was too cowardly when it came to marriage. She often said that if a woman is divorced, it is over!

My mom is not a traditional weak woman, on the contrary, she is a rather strong woman. He is thin and thin, but he can move goods with the stevedores without falling behind. She quarreled with her father again and again until her blood pressure soared, and finally got into a fight, but my dad and my milk combined may not be her opponent.

But as soon as my grandmother got involved, my mom stopped fighting. After all, the daughter-in-law beats her mother-in-law, which is unreasonable. My dad is not enough for the masters, my mom has stopped, he continues to fight, and I am ashamed of him, so I also helped my mom escape.

Of course I feel sorry for my mother, but I hate her even more. I asked her more than once why she wanted to spend time with someone like my dad, and her answer was always the same – if she was divorced, it would be over!

After an argument with my mother that day, I cried for a long time in the tunnel, and finally called two good friends, who cried with me. Sometimes I hate myself too, because I'm crying all the time, and I'm not as sweet as Jolene, at least she cries like a girl, and I cry like a whimpering she-bear.

We went to the beach for a long time, and finally Xu Na took me to her house. She lives near the school and owns a large house by herself. She doesn't have a doll at home, her guitar tabs are thrown everywhere, her kitchen is piled up with unwashed utensils, and her couch is littered with "The Golden Age," "Walden," and a copy of "The Selfish Gene......

I definitely couldn't see those books for ten minutes and fell asleep, but Xu Na read them more than once. How can I be friends with such a great god?

I like to clean up the house, which is one of my advantages! We had a big cleaning, and after cleaning, Xu Na smiled: "Actually, it's not very useful, and it will be back to the same state tomorrow morning."

Son. ”

…… Well, it's okay to be clean for a while.

I told them about my future plans - I still decided to go to Rongcheng to study art, which is the tutoring class that Su Su had attended before, and the pass rate of art exams there was almost 100%. I want to increase the probability of taking the Academy of Fine Arts, not by luck, but by strength.

I planned to send an email to my teacher and ask her to allow me to work there, and I could do anything, just to cover the expensive tuition fees.

I used Xu Na's computer to send an email to the teacher, but after a while, the teacher replied: "Your art exam results this year are very good, we can accept you." But we already have two students here who are working part-time, so we don't really need part-time workers. ”

When I received the email, I was depressed, and the road I had thought of was blocked again.

Qiao Lin and Xu Na are really good friends, and the two of them soaked in the Internet to find other tutoring classes for me. However, there are too many people who have the same idea as me, and many of them are working in studios to prepare for the college entrance examination.

God should be punishing me for my willfulness and not giving me a chance at all.

But the more I got to this moment, the more stubborn I became. I want to earn some money first and go to a tutorial class in the provincial capital.

After I made up my mind to work, Jolene asked Sun Ruiyang's mother that her studio was in need of staff during the summer vacation, and that I could teach children to draw there, and that the bar where Xu Na sang needed a waiter, and I could work for four hours at night. By September, I will be able to earn about 5,000 yuan, which can support me to study for a while.

I didn't want to go back to my parents, and I didn't want to go back even more after I worked. My parents were also ruthless and ignored me. Only Zhao Leilei has a little conscience, and the money saved is quietly stuffed into my pocket.

Although Xu Na doesn't like to clean, she has a strict plan for life and is very disciplined during the holidays. Under her influence, I have identified two goals for the next year:

First, he was admitted to the Central Academy of Fine Arts;

Second, slim down.

People must have goals, and after having goals, there is hope in life.

This life lasted for about a month, and before the Olympics, my mother suddenly approached me. I had just finished typing that night and yawned on my way home. My mom hurried towards me, she should have come out to look for me.

She raised her hand and gave me a slap in the face, which made me unsteady on my feet, and her sharp voice echoed through the street: "What time is it, you are still wandering outside, aren't you afraid of accidents?"

Luckily, it was almost midnight and there was no one on the street, so I would have lost my life. Even so, I was still very aggrieved, and I couldn't cry: "Anyway, you don't care about me, and I don't need to know if I die outside." ”

At that moment, a flash of panic flashed in my mother's eyes, and even a little sadness.

The two of us confronted each other in the midsummer air, and neither of us would give in.

In the end, it was my mother who spoke first: "Are you really determined to go to the Central Academy of Fine Arts?"

"Hmm. ”

"What should I do if I can't pass the test again?"

"Then move on. ”

"You're not going to give up?"

"I don't give up when I die, painting is my life. ”

My mother didn't speak for a long time, and I thought she was moved by me, so she gave me a little money. But no, she dropped the sentence "Where is love", and went upstairs.

Alas, it really fits her style, so why should I look forward to it.

On that day, my grandmother had my birthday, and my mother stayed overnight in the house on Jixiang Road. There was also a cut cake on the table, which seemed to be for me. I swallowed a lot of saliva but put that little piece of cake in the fridge anyway. I'm dying of hunger, but I'm going to lose weight, late

Don't eat sweets.

The next day, the studio was closed, and I could sleep until I woke up naturally, and then I would go to work at the bar in the evening. I don't know who opened the door and left, waking me up. I looked at my phone and it was eleven o'clock in the morning.

It may be that Zhao Leilei's rabbit cub went to the Internet café to play games, I got up irritably, and suddenly saw a bank card on the bedside table, except for the card, there was nothing, not even a note.

My phone vibrated twice, it was a text message from my mom.

"Don't let your dad know, the password is your brother's birthday. ”

"Stop working. ”

Dad is a money junkie, and all the money in the family is in his hands. My mother only had a bank card, and she used to joke that if she got sick, she would use the money in this card to treat her, and when the money ran out, the person would be almost gone.

I think she's being rude when she says that. But my mother left me her only bank card, her life savings.

She wouldn't tell me to stop watching MP4s, stop chasing stars, gamble and study hard, and didn't even say "take the money to buy something delicious". She left only this card, leaving her last expectations for me.

I chased her barefoot and I wanted to hug her and say "thank you" to her. When the bus came, she squeezed into the bus with the crowd, and before getting on the bus, she spit into the flowers.

Before I could disgrace her, I started crying.

My family is well-off, but my mother doesn't have a decent bag, and her hair is still permed five or six years ago. She was short, thin, and unsightly, and in the blink of an eye she was drowned in the crowd.

I have lived in Jixianglu for several years and have met many of my friends' mothers. I think Sun Ruiyang's mother should be the most ideal mother in everyone's mind, right? She came from a prominent background, spoke softly, and was calm and gentle at all times. She can bake delicious and beautiful cookies, can draw warm pictures, on the child's birthday, she will hold a warm birthday party, bake the cake herself, and when attending school activities, she dresses elegantly and decently, like a European and American female star in the fifties and sixties. It is precisely because of such a mother that Sun Ruiyang has grown into an extremely considerate warm man!

There are also many people who envy Min Rou and Min Jia's mother, she has explored the highest level of learning information for her children, and found the best teacher for them, although she is very strict with her children, she cares about her children meticulously, and can fight to the end for her children, she is a tiger mother full of tenderness.

Wei Chenglin's mother is very similar to my mother, but she is more independent, courageous, and supports a family by herself, which is very admirable; perhaps Qiao Lin's mother is what most mothers look like! Busy with work, hot-tempered, nagging every day, and training her husband and children. It's such a mother, and I'm extremely envious.

And my mother, who wore the cheapest clothes, permed her hair that had long gone out of fashion, spat rudely in the streets, and never said a sweet word to us. She was often subjected to domestic violence, but she did not have the courage to divorce.

I used to hate her and avoid her, but ...... I never understood her. I never thought about how she spread her thin wings in front of her rough father and grandmother and cared for me, who was never taken seriously.

I accused her of not being a good mother, but I was also an incompetent and careless daughter.

If I could choose my parents in my next life, I would still choose her to be my mother, I would hold her hand and tell her that I would protect her and let her live a good life.

When I bought a house on Jixiang Road, my mother once said that the bedrooms are all on the south side, and the sunlight can come in, which is great!

Under my mother's protection, I lived in the sun, away from the gloom, but she didn't.

So, I have one more goal - to design a big house for my mother, with sunlight in every room.

.。 m.