April 20, 2003 Gray and rainy

Grandma's funeral ended on the 15th.

Her body was buried next to her grandfather, next to a path up the mountain.

I don't think in a few years, except for our family, no one will remember those two old people buried here.

Maybe one day, even we will forget.

Grandma's funeral was very simple, just like her whole life.

I thought I would cry a lot at the funeral, but I didn't cry except when I cried at the funeral. Even though my cousin was crying with tears and snot on the side, I didn't cry.

I feel like I've cried enough.

The rattle in my hand was not handed to my grandmother in the end, and the bowl of bean curd with extra sugar had already become my last regret to my grandmother with the cold wind.

I blamed myself for not buying that rattle at the time, maybe I could have stayed by my grandmother's side when she closed her eyes.

But my mother told me that when the old man was dying, she said that she didn't want her grandson to watch her leave, which would make her feel that she had not lived enough and would be reluctant.

After hearing this, I was already in tears.

Grandma, do you know that grandchildren are reluctant to let you ......

Once again, I locked myself in my little room.

The tears that I thought had been shed a long time ago once again welled up in my eyes like bursting the embankment.

I kept looking at my grandmother's picture and biting the corner of the quilt for fear that I would cry.

If there is a next life, I will also be your grandson, grandmother......

21 April 2003 Cloudy

For the first time, I didn't get bored in math class.

I don't know if it's because I sent a class or what, I didn't yawn in a class, and I didn't pass a note.

Even though I already have three notes on my desk.

One is passed down by Chongshu,

"Brother Yang, be strong. Our grandma's paradise will be fine. ”

One was passed by Shen Sijia,

"I'm worried about you. ”

There's also a note that I never thought she'd pass to me.

"Li Muyang, come on!"

Zhen Songni's handwriting is very delicate, just like her person.

But I didn't get any back.

I don't want to look cold, I just don't want to go back.

Including Zhen Songni's note, I don't think it's my honor.

If it was because of my grandmother's death, she would have spoken to me like this.

April 22, 2003 Cloudy

Today is Tuesday, and this is my time at school.

But I'm writing this in my diary at home.

I had a bandage on the top of my head, and I still had a dull ache.

At the end of the morning incident, Chongshu hurried to the scene.

Zou Long was lying on the ground with his face covered in blood, and I stepped on his face with one foot, and several of his subordinates around me were already stunned.

Chongshu rushed over and hugged me, stop!

He did it on himself!, I yelled.

Zou Long did it himself.

I wasn't originally a violent person.

But when I was cleaning the common area in the morning, Zou Long passed by me.

Cubs. He said a word, then looked at me and tilted his head and sneered.

I'm not going to ignore him.

X Your grandmother has a leg, he said lightly again, and continued to laugh.

When I was cleaning before, I noticed a broken brick in the corner of the flower bed. It is probably left over from the previous construction of the sports field.

So it became my weapon, and it made Zou Long's head bloom.

I shot very suddenly, and Zou Long didn't react.

But his men reacted and rushed over and hit me.

The bricks flew out of my hands.

I didn't stop, picked up the broom and continued to hit Zou Long.

They kicked my broom away again.

So I continued to kick Zou Long with my foot.

Maybe they haven't seen anyone like me either, and no matter how much they beat me, I won't fight back. I have only one goal, and that is Zou Long, who is lying on the ground and can't get up.

They may be tired, they may be frightened, and they stop.

But I didn't.

Until Chongshu rushed over and hugged me.

Then the school stepped in, and then JC.

I was taken home by my dad and waited for the results.

Surprisingly, my dad didn't beat me up. Maybe it's because I already have a blue nose and swollen face, and he can't bear to criticize me again.

My parents didn't even ask me why I was beating, and they were so hard.

My mom kept shedding tears, and my dad was smoking a cigarette and was silent.

It's wrong to hit someone, but I don't regret it. If Zou Long still scolds that sentence in front of me next time, I will beat him the same.

But for some reason, I still burst into tears.

Tears wet my diary......

April 27, 2003 Sunny

The verdict of the last incident was that it was private.

Our family paid 20,000 yuan for medical expenses, and then the school handled the matter in a low-key manner and only gave me a major demerit.

My dad told me if there was a next time I broke your leg.

This time my mom didn't help me, but reluctantly told me, son, it seems that you can't buy a computer when you go to college.

I don't care about computers or anything, I'm happy that I didn't get fired in the end, didn't go to the juvenile detention center, and didn't leave Chongshu and Shen Sijia.

When I returned to school, I noticed that the way my classmates looked at me had changed.

In the past, I was like a transparent person, except for Chongshu and Shen Sijia, I was real in the eyes, and no one else would react to someone like me who was too ordinary to be ordinary.

But now it's different, and I can tell from their eyes that they're starting to be a little afraid of my presence.

If it was before, I wouldn't be used to it, I would be distressed.

But now I won't.

Chongshu said, you are really a celebrity now.

No, I'm wicked, I say.

April 28, 2003 Sunny

Zou Long was beaten into the hospital by me, and it is impossible to avoid a character like Liu Chuanfeng for such a thing.

I've been waiting for him to come to me, and I'm ready to be beaten.

He did bring someone to me.

The tree stands in front of me,

Brother Feng, please let him go.

Liu Chuanfeng ignored him, but walked up and bowed to me.

Takaki and I were taken aback by his sudden move.

I apologize to you on behalf of Zou Long. Liu Chuanfeng said expressionlessly.

This sentence made my second monk even more confused, you know, it was Zou Long who entered the hospital, not me.

I...... I didn't know what to say for a while.

Brother Feng, don't be like this, if you want to beat me, I'll return it to Brother Long for Muyang. Takaki interrupted me and stepped forward.

You guys didn't figure out the situation, did you? Liu Chuanfeng said with a smile behind him.

Liu Chuanfeng also laughed and said, I, Liu Chuanfeng, am by no means a bastard who bullies the weak. I said that no one can bully my Liu Chuanfeng's brother, but it doesn't mean that my brother can bully others.

I've learned about this time, and Xiaolong did go a little too far. But as a brother, I can understand his feeling of wanting to protect my face, so I hope you can forgive him regardless of your past suspicions.

Liu Chuanfeng's words were plain, but there was an irresistible majesty. He asked me to forgive Zou Long, and it seemed impossible for me to say no.

What's more, after sending everyone to the hospital, I don't hate Zou Long anymore.

So I nodded, okay......

Forget about it, we'll be brothers in the future. Liu Chuanfeng smiled and patted me on the shoulder, and then patted Chongshu's shoulder. Then turn around and leave.

Looking at the back of Liu Chuanfeng leaving, I suddenly felt a little afraid of this person.

Although he apologized on behalf of Zou Long and seemed very generous, his temperament of not being angry always made me panic.

I really can't deal with such a person. I think.

But Chongshu was overjoyed, he finally didn't have to go against Liu Chuanfeng, it was too TM!

April 29, 2003 Cloudy

Shen Sijia has been annoying me to death these days.

Tell me all day about the moral behavior of middle school students, and then teach me the secret art of self-defense that she doesn't know where she learned.

I asked her, do you want me to fight or not?

Of course not!" Shen Sijia said.

And teach me self-defense? I said.

Of course, you have to learn, if you can't beat it, you can run, and if you can't run, you can fight again. Self-defense is for you to use when you can't run.

What about the code of ethical conduct for middle school students?

That's what told you to run.

So am I going to hit or run?

Running and fighting, she said after a little thought.