"What do you don't know what I care about the most? Actually, you know, it's just that you don't want to say it, you don't know how to say it, even if you don't want to admit it, but you have to accept it, because all your actions have led to me and my boyfriend now, it's ironic, right, in fact, I think so too, after all, you are his biological mother. ”

Wen Wanrong's face became bloodless in an instant.

Eleven said that the rest was not to make her heart fluctuate too much, but when it came to this, it was only when it came to Shen Nanyan.

"Eleven, you should know that all these things were done by me, and they have nothing to do with Ah Yan. In a way, he was just a victim who was affected. ”

Affected victims?

Eleven shrank in his heart because of this speech.

That's the pain that only comes when you think of Shen Nanyan.

Eleven was silent for a long time before she had the next sentence, and if she could, she actually wanted not to say a word.

"Regret it, because of you, let him suffer so much. ”

Wen Wanrong's eyes were moist, and she cried out in the end.

"If I could, I would choose not to worry about so many things at the beginning. ”

Eleven tugged at the corners of her lips.

If?

What a good word, and if she could, she wanted to say if.

However, that obviously doesn't work.

"Alright, I've said everything I need to say, and it's time for me to go. ”

She whispered this, apparently wanting to say something more.

But just as she was about to put down the phone, Wen Wanrong suddenly said loudly.

"Wait a minute. ”

Eleven raised his head, and his light gaze fell on Wen Wanrong.

The latter bit his lip, his eyes filled with tears.

Under Eleven's gaze, she left her seat step by step and knelt down.

"Eleven, I beg you. ”

Eleven was shocked, and at that moment, she forgot her words, and Wen Wanrong's words were in her ears.

"I beg you, don't let my behavior affect Ah Yan, I'm sorry for him enough, I used to think about how to stop it, how to let him follow my heart. But after coming in and thinking about the things in the past, I realized that I ignored his feelings, ignored that he was an independent individual, that everything was bad for me, that I should apologize, that I should atone for my sins. But he really loves you. That day, in front of me, he cried so sadly, so desperate, I can't imagine what he would do without you, so let me bear all the consequences, please, don't let Ah Yan be alone. Whatever you want me to do, I'll do it, even if you want me to die now, I'm willing. I'm sorry Ah Yan, I have loved him for the past few years, but I have never found the right way, it is my fault, everything is just my fault. ”

Eleven held the phone and didn't say a word for a long time.

In the end, she didn't say anything, just put down the phone and turned to leave.

ignored Wen Wanrong's tears, and didn't pay attention to Wen Wanrong's heartbreak.

……

A no-ju.

Eleven had just stopped the car, and before he could get out of the car, he heard a commotion in the living room.

She walked in slowly, and as soon as she walked to the door, she saw Shen Nanyan walking back and forth in the living room with Doudou in her arms, and Doudou was losing her temper very much.

All the people were around the pocket, and their faces were helpless.

Eleven spoke up, breaking the situation over there.

"What's going on?"

The sudden appearance of a female voice attracted everyone's attention, and everyone looked over to this side.

"Ma'am. ”

The first to speak was Zeng Xiao, her tone was a little surprised, obviously the arrival of the unexpected eleven.

Eleven mumbled.

She walked over and stood beside Shen Nanyan.

Strangely, after seeing her, Doudou suddenly fell silent.

It's just a little hand stretched out, obviously begging for a hug.

Eleven stretched out his hand and wanted to take it, but the man opposite didn't react at all.

She raised her head slightly, and her gaze fell on the man's angular face.

"I hug. ”

Her voice was very soft, and Shen Nanyan suddenly came back to her senses and handed her the dough.

His eyes were fixed on her, his thin lips pursed, and he didn't say a word.

Compared to his reaction, Eleven has always been in a very natural state.

She sat down on the sofa and greeted Lu Lao, who was sitting on the side.

Then I asked about Doudou's situation.

"What happened just now, why did Doudou make such a fuss?"

"She's looking for you, she's been looking for you since she got up in the morning. ”

Eleven frowned: "Didn't everything be fine before? ”

"Eleven, you are her mother, she can't be fine without you. ”

Eleven's body stiffened slightly.

She understood the meaning of Shen Nan's words.

Probably made trouble before, but Shen Nanyan took into account her feelings, so he didn't rush to bring Doudou over.

She didn't speak, she was playing, and the child probably really missed her. As soon as she arrived in her arms, she smiled, and the whole cute and cute appearance hit Eleven's heart.

Not long after eleven arrived, dinner was ready.

Aunt Zhang prepared a dinner by herself, but it was very rich, and she put her heart and soul into it.

Aunt Zhang hadn't seen her for a long time, and she gave her a big hug when they met.

"It's good that Madame is back, the family should be neat and reunited. ”

Eleven leaned on Aunt Zhang and gently patted Aunt Zhang's back.

"It's hard Aunt Zhang, this time. ”

"Madame is polite, there is nothing hard or not hard. ”

Aunt Zhang paused at this point.

"In fact, the hardest thing during this period is Mr., he has to deal with the company's affairs on the one hand, and he has to take care of the young lady on the other hand, and a few days ago, Mr. was sick and has not been well. ”

Eleven's face was shocked.

"He's sick?"

"Well, just a few days ago, we were all surprised by the sudden cold, Mr. has always belonged to the kind of good health, why did he suddenly get sick. ”

Eleven faintly knew something in his heart.

That day, after she met Shen Nanyan, she thought Shen Nanyan was going back, but at night, the maid told her that Shen Nanyan's car had been parked outside.

She was very complicated at the time, and went straight to sleep without saying anything.

And she felt that Shen Nanyan was not an ignorant person, and she would go back soon.

But she didn't expect that when she got up the next morning, the maid told her that Shen Nanyan had been outside all night and didn't leave until morning.

Now that I think about it, Shen Nanyan's cold should have been because of that night.

"Did he go to the hospital?"

"No, I just asked the family doctor to prescribe some medicine and send it over, but in those days, in order not to infect Miss, all of Mr.'s thoughts were on work, and the matter of taking care of Miss fell on Zeng Xiao. ”

Eleven had some complications in his heart.

She shifted her gaze and landed on Shen Nanyan.

His face was indeed not very good, and at this moment, he was standing there talking on the phone, and there were a few coughs from time to time.

Eleven couldn't tell what it was like, at that moment, she didn't seem to remember anything else, and her first reaction was to go over and hug Shen Nanyan.

Breeding this idea, Eleven almost walked over, but fortunately she still has strong self-control, otherwise it would be.

……

Dinner was plentiful, and Eleven was hugging his pocket.

The child is no longer noisy, but he is still very clingy to her.

Shen Nanyan sat down next to them, and when he saw that he was clutching the eleventh clothes and didn't let go, he was silent for a second, and he smiled at Zeng and said.

"Let's take the bag away. ”

Before Zeng Xiao stepped forward, Eleven lowered his voice and opened his mouth.

"No, I'll just hold her. ”

Shen Nanyan wanted to say something, but Eleven's eyes fell on him.

"It's rare for her to be like that. ”

Shen Nanyan moved his lips and didn't say anything more.

"I heard you've been really busy lately?"

During the meal, Eleven said this lightly to Shen Nanyan.

"It's been okay these days. ”

"Aunt Zhang told me, are you sick?

She was calm in everything, and when she said this, it was as if she were just talking to a friend.

Shen Nanyan's eyes fell on her several times, trying to get a glimpse of something from her reaction, but it was all in vain.

Eleven's mind is deep, even Shen Nanyan, and there is no way to guess what she is thinking now.

"Well, it's all eaten. ”

Eleven nodded faintly: "It's good to eat." ”

……

After the meal, Eleven went to her room with her pocket, and the child was very happy, pulling her to play with toys, and so on, and finally couldn't resist the drowsiness and fell asleep.

Falling asleep, Eleven carried her to the bed, walked out of me lightly, and just closed the door of the room and saw Shen Nanyan waiting at the door.

She nodded at Shen Nanyan.

The two of them walked downstairs together.

Downstairs, Aunt Zhang, Zeng Xiao and the others were very happy.

"Sir, ma'am. ”

"It's snowing outside. ”

Eleven was surprised.

"Really?"

"Well, it's snowing outside, and it's still a big one, I guess we can build a snowman tomorrow morning. ”

"That's good, new year. ”

When Eleven was talking to someone, Shen Nanyan kept looking at her.

She still has the coat she wore when she came, and she had no intention of taking it off during the whole process.

Is she still ready to leave?

Did she come back just to have a meal with Doudou?

Could it be that here, apart from Doudou, she doesn't have anyone to worry about?

Aunt Zhang went down with a smile, leaving only Eleven and Shen Nanyan.

Eleven looked sideways at Shen Nanyan: "It's snowing." ”

"Hmm. "The weather is in his mood right now.

"In the days before, I thought I was going to go, but I didn't expect to wait for many days. ”

Eleven's words were very light, and when he said it, there was a kind of warmth that he had not seen for a long time.

Shen Nanyan pursed his lips and didn't speak.

Eleven opened his mouth in the end.

"I went to see your mom before I came. ”

Shen Nanyan was surprised.

Eleven retracted his gaze and spoke.

"We talked a lot and stayed for a long, long time. ”

Shen Nanyan fell silent.

By now, Wen Wanrong has almost become the person he least wants to mention, and he knows how much it hurts Eleven.

It was precisely because he was clear that he didn't know how to say it, how to say it to make Eleven feel a little better.

Eleven walked forward slowly in Shen Nanyan's long silence.

"It's getting late, I have to go. ”

With her words, Shen Nanyan's heart continued to sink.

He knew that she would say something to leave, that she would not stay.

She still didn't want to let go.

So, after that, will she no longer love herself as much as before, right, and stop being his wife at all?

Thinking of this, Shen Nanyan laughed at himself.

He pursed his thin lips and said nothing.

Eleven.

She kept looking at Shen Nanyan.

She had already reached the door, and if she continued to walk forward, she would be in the snow.

Shen Nanyan still didn't say anything.

She sighed silently, but she still took a step.

But as soon as he walked to the side of the car, the man behind him suddenly chased after him quickly.

Before she could react, he held her tightly in his arms.

"Can you not go?"

Eleven turned his back to him, and when he heard this, he finally smiled shallowly.

"I thought you were really going to just watch me go. ”

"I don't want you to go, you don't know, I want to tell you all the time, how much I miss you during this time, I want to tell you that without you I can't sleep well, I can't eat well, I can't live well. ”

Eleven laughed.

"I don't think you keep me, I thought you wouldn't mind. ”

Shen Nanyan turned her around and looked directly at her.

"No, I just don't know how to speak, Eleven, you're so calm, calm as if you've decided everything, so calm that I feel like whatever I say is useless. ”

When Shen Nanyan said this, there was a sense of powerlessness in his tone, and an indescribable sense of fear.

Eleven fell silent again at this realization.

Once again, she found that this man really cared about her more than she imagined.

After a long silence, Eleven spoke.

"Actually, I didn't think about it so much before I went out this morning, but after meeting your mother, I found that I didn't have any of the points I had been struggling with before. She killed my parents, which I will never let go of in my life, and I will never forgive her in my life. But you're different, Nanyan, do you know what touched me the most? It was your mother who knelt there, crying bitterly and telling me how she did wrong, how she made the wrong choice. She said that she cared about a lot of things in her life, and she always wanted to give you the best in the past, but in the end, she was sad and sad because of what she did, and in the end, she begged me, begged me not to blame you for what she did, she told me that you are just a victim and should not be treated like that. Later, I kept thinking about this sentence. ”

Shen Nanyan's hands became stiff little by little, and every time Eleven said a word, his breathing became more unstable.

After a brief pause, Eleven spoke again.

"On the way here, my feelings are very complicated, I don't know what to say to you, I don't know, there is such a thing in the middle, how I will face you, how to talk to you calmly. Before, I thought it was a very difficult thing, until I arrived here, and when I heard Aunt Zhang tell me that when you were sick, I couldn't help but want to go up and ask about your situation, and I would blame myself in my heart, and I would wonder if I was too hypocritical in some aspects, and finally became like this. ”

Shen Nanyan felt that Eleven's words were hinting at something.

He stared at her for a moment, without moving his eyes.

"It's not you, it's me, it's me who isn't good enough. ”

Eleven shook his head: "It's not like this, in fact, I can listen to what your mother says, and I also think about it, Nanyan, am I too easily disturbed by other things." ”

Shen Nanyan didn't understand what she wanted to say, so she fell into silence.

Eleven doesn't mind either.

What she really wanted was not to ask Shen Nanyan to say something.

"I think I love you enough, but at the same time I love you, I'm emotional, and my parents' things make me very broken, I don't know how to say this is better, but Nanyan, I hope you understand, I need time, maybe the previous days made you think that I was too much, and I didn't even care about it, and I left Yinuoju directly. ”

"So, you're telling me this now because you figured it out?"

Eleven stared at Shen Nanyan's face, and she clearly saw that Shen Nanyan's face was full of nervousness at this moment.

"I figured it out, we are a family, we can't change the past, what we have to do is accept and let the future make up for the past. ”

After saying this, Shen Nanyan hugged Eleven tightly in his arms again.

How could she be so good.

"I thought you really didn't want our home. ”

His voice was muffled, and the man who had always been cold was a little more fragile at this moment.

Eleven was silent for a moment, she thought that she really seemed to have this kind of thought when it was the hardest.

But after thinking about it, I soon felt that it was impossible.

Shen Nanyan is an extremely important existence in her life, the things of her parents, the things that Wen Wanrong did, that is the pain of the past, she should be sad, but being sad at the same time causes more grief in the future, whether it is for herself or for other people, it is an existence that should not exist.

Shen Nanyan still hugged her tightly, as if he had forgotten to say anything else, and what he kept repeating in Eleven's ear was a sentence.

"I'm sorry. ”

……

in the bedroom.

Eleven was lying next to Shen Nanyan, the man was too tired, and his body was already a little uncomfortable, so he was almost asleep at this time.

She just looked at him like that, and decided to let go of the past and continue to live a good life with Shen Nanyan, which was a relief for her.

To the past, to Wen Wanrong, to Shen Nanyan.

In fact, Wen Wanrong was right, Shen Nanyan didn't know anything about all this, and she shouldn't be angry with him.

Moreover, she is really reluctant to him.

After so many days of separation, she always couldn't help calling his name, and when she was lying in bed at night, she always thought of the warm times with him before.

She should have understood.

Shen Nan said to her, it is an addiction that she can't quit in this life, she loves this man, even if she goes around all the way, many things are sad, but her love for this man has never dissipated for a moment.

Looking at the familiar face at the moment, Eleven hands gently put it up, she thought.

So be it, that's for the best.