119. Those Forgotten Stories (Part II)

"If you want to say. ”

Mo Yunbai glanced at the sky, there was not a single cloud on it, the horror of the sky blue, the same as the dazzling white on her body!

"I hate white. Mo Yunbai closed his eyes and snuggled on the swing, "But I just call this word, at least, until I was sixteen years old, I still liked this word, at that time, my friends called me Xiaobai." In the summer of the first time in high school, I met the first love of my life, he was very handsome, a rich second generation with a lot of gold, with a hint of ruffianism, there were many girls of the same grade around him, and I liked him too, so he became my first boyfriend, and I became one of his many girlfriends. Of course, this was also known after my breakup.

Sometimes, people's sixth sense is very accurate.

Especially women. On Christmas Eve of my freshman year of high school, I followed him to his friend's so-called party. Unguarded, I drank the drink he handed me. When I wake up again, my youth will be over!"

Mo Yunbai laughed.

"Later, every time he called me again, he would show me a video of Christmas Eve, pointing at my body reaction and moving more excessively. I closed my eyes and endured the humiliation. I didn't dare to mention it to anyone, my mind, body, and abilities were all disgusting images like bugs. I have also changed from a little white to a little flower, a little black, a little red, and a little green...... That was also the first time I knew what PUA was! Although, that thing had already been played rotten among the rich second generation.

It was also at that time that I learned that the video, he had already been sent to the age group as a Christmas gift on Christmas, that is, the day after he was obsessed with me. My so-called friends, none of them have ever mentioned this to me. In this way, I became the target of ridicule in the whole school, and everyone would look at me strangely when they saw me.

Xiang Yao, have you ever seen it? It's the kind of gaze that seems to give you a glimpse through it, like a bullet. Later, these bullets often appeared in my dreams, along with the contemptuous eyes of that handsome guy. I really had no choice, so I told my parents the truth, and begged that the income was not high, and my parents helped me transfer to a school to come here!

With the lessons of the last time, I have become a little more withdrawn and no longer open my heart easily. Then, I met you, and then I met Dong Huai'an.

I fell in love with him! From the first glance, it was probably my fate! I hated myself for meeting him too late, but I couldn't help but want to be close to him.

Just when I was thinking about loving regardless of it, God poured a big basin of cold water on me, and I was actually pregnant with that person's child! In the hospital, I embarrassed to tell my story to Dong Huai'an as if I was facing my mother back then. He listened very carefully, and finally he hugged me and said he wouldn't mind, and that day, he hugged me, and tears soaked my white shirt. And I felt that my heart was torn again, and where it was cracked, it was bleeding.

When we came back from the hospital, we were called to the office by the teacher. His parents and my parents were there, really, I didn't glorify his family, her mother was very gentle and calm about the incident, told me okay, don't think too much, and didn't object to us being together, just said that things had too much impact and wanted us to keep a low profile. I suddenly realized that some words, said calmly, hurt much more than slapping people's mouths! More important things, although I am not to blame, they grow on my body and are with me. ”

"I don't blame you. ”

Xiang Yao had no way to comfort her, and even felt that as long as she spoke, she would hurt her.

"We're friends, aren't you?"

"What can I do for you?"

"That's good!"

She opened her eyes and looked at Xiang Yao, speaking softly and smiling.

At that moment, she was transparent. Like the sun at two o'clock in the afternoon of this midsummer, it roasted the memory of Xiang Yao's youth.

At that time, she saw Mo Yunbai for the last time.

A cigarette burned out.

Dong Huai'an looked at Xiang Yao under the street lamp, and at this time, she also looked back! They must have returned to the past together. It's just that what they see may be different, but the protagonist is such a white girl.

"When did you start carrying cigarettes?"

"From the time I learned she was leaving. ”

"She doesn't smoke. ”

"I hope she can smoke, I hope she can drink, I hope she learns badly and becomes a girl who doesn't pretend to be sad. Just like you. ”

"Then it won't be her. Xiang Yao didn't look at him, but stretched out his right hand and moved simply under the light. "Besides, the memories are in the body, growing with you. ”

"yes! Dong Huaian took out a new cigarette and lit it for himself. "We often look at the changes of a person, point to their nose and say that you have changed, but on the other hand, we envy the maturity, steady, gentleness, and sensibility...... What a double standard. ”

"I want too much, I want too much. ”

"Ahh ”

"Why don't you come back and see her?"

"She doesn't want to see me again!"

"Isn't it arbitrary?"

"No, I don't think that's enough. Empathy, what a subjective word. Even if the same thing happens to two people, the feelings are completely different!" Dong Huaian raised his eyelids and looked straight at her, "Didn't you just come out of that black hole?"

"Yes. Emotions are truly private and personal. Even close people may not be able to intervene in suture treatment. It can only heal itself. ”

Xiang Yao nodded helplessly, she couldn't say that she had come out completely, which was why she didn't dare to go back to Ji's house now, she was still afraid of the piano.

"I tried to get close to her. However, that whirlpool of sadness is too big, as long as you lean in, you will be entered, and you will not be able to get out for a long time. I was scared, really, even now, I feel sorry for her. Dong Huai'an's tone was low, "At this point, I really admire Dongfang, so he resisted stubbornly!"

"If you can't resist, it's also the norm of life. No one asks us to carry everything we've been through. ”

"But the price is staggering, and if I had been stronger, she might have survived by now. ”

"Her hurt was never given by you. ”

Xiang Yao raised his head and saw a few flying insects in the light, constantly hitting the light source, if it was ancient, would they have been burned to death.

Doodoo ......

Xiang Yao took out his mobile phone, it was Dongfang's phone.

"Where?"

In addition to his voice, she heard the sound of the car whistle. I guess I'm looking for her.

"Under the street lamp about 150 meters to the right in front of the coffee shop. ”

"Something's wrong!"

"Who?"

"Early summer. ”