Chapter 59: The Proposal for a Meeting

Zhou Jie's weight in Lin Qiang's heart even feels incredible to himself, for more than ten years, all the objects related to Zhou Jie Lin Qiang have been carefully treasured, and each of her letters is regarded as a treasure by Lin Qiang, reading her letters is a kind of beauty, a kind of indescribable enjoyment. （）

During the four years of college, Lin Qiang and Zhou Jie exchanged letters every month, and Lin Qiang still believes that the friendship between the two of them at that time surpassed the ordinary friendship of classmates, but regrettably, their friendship never had a chance to sublimate, and the two finally passed by and missed each other, which also became the lingering heartache of Lin Qiang's life.

Lin Qiang has always believed that a man's true and pure love is only once, and when that love comes, he will be crazy about it, crazy and crazy, crazy and painful, and die of pain. And when that love is gone, there will be no more in the future. That love was too deep, so it often hurt too deeply. Lin Qiang examined his heart again and again that had suffered the vicissitudes of love, it was proud, dreaming of perfection, it was weak, tossing and moaning in the world, it was even more lonely, swallowing the pain of memories again and again. After crying and pain, Lin Qiang also tried to seal that love forever in the depths of his heart, but he would always inadvertently recall this dark wound in his long youth, such loneliness, such loneliness, walking hesitantly, and no one cared about it.

There are too many things that disappoint Lin Qiang in the world of feelings, they are like dead leaves spread all over the ground, and he is walking blankly in this pile of dead leaves, waiting lonely and hopeless again and again, his heart is gone, his passion is gone, Lin Qiang finds himself as if he is a person walking behind time, and he feels the strong pain and infatuation brought to him by that feeling as if he is masochistic.

There is really only one love in a man's life, but how many women can feel it, cherish it, grasp it and respond with sincerity?

Lin Qiang, who has passed the year of standing, has long been accustomed to emotional disappointment, and should not have such emotions and impulses, but whenever he thinks of Zhou Jie, the memories of many years ago will echo on the riverbank of time, so vivid, so clear, there is always a heart-wrenching meaning in the chest full and dangling.

Although there are legitimate reasons and excuses, when Lin Qiang finds out the phone number left by Zhou Jie many years ago, he still hesitates and thinks about it. He sadly realized that the experience of life had never been able to change the cowardice and nervousness he felt when facing Zhou Jie, and what made him even more sad was that Lin Qiang suddenly understood that the reason why he had never dared to see her all these years, and even in recent years, he had not even dared to communicate, was not so much the reason why he had always thought that he did not want to disturb her peaceful life, but that he had always felt a lack of confidence in front of her and deliberately avoided it.

Bacon said that even the most confident person will bow his proudest head in front of his lover. Lin Qiang is even worse, for more than ten years, in front of his beloved, he has always been more cautious and less confident.

Lin Qiang had never spoken to Zhou Jie on the phone, which made him even more frightened. In the past, when they corresponded, the two of them were called very close, but now that they want to talk on the phone, how should they call her? What should they say after greeting? Lin Qiang remembered that when the two met alone during the winter and summer vacations, they were often relatively speechless because of shyness, but at that time, Lin Qiang still enjoyed this timely silence between the two, and although they were silent at that time, they could still make eye contact when they met face to face. But if you suddenly can't find words on the phone now, how to deal with that embarrassment?

Lin Qiang is like those actors who have become the male number one for the first time, thinking hard about the lines, and the actor at least has a script, but Lin Qiang has to wear many hats, the screenwriter, director, and actor are all himself. Lin Qiang, who has always been quick-witted, is like Jiang Lang at the moment, and he can't make up a plot that satisfies him.

During this time, Lin Qiang received calls from classmates almost every day, without exception, everyone opened their mouths to denounce Lin Qiang's disappearance over the years, saying that Lin Qiang had forgotten his old classmates. Lin Qiang really had a hard time, and he tried his best to explain it at the beginning, but everyone didn't believe the heavy experience he said, and Lin Qiang also knew that most of his old classmates had no experience of going to the sea, and they hadn't personally experienced the huge waves and reefs in the commercial sea, so they didn't bother to explain it anymore, and they just coped with it every time.

It's no wonder that everyone will say this about Lin Qiang, in the eyes of his old classmates, Lin Qiang has always been a role model, talented, everyone would rather believe that a smart and talented person like him can get ahead and make a career whether he stays in the unit or goes to the business sea to fight, and even Lin Qiang himself is full of confidence in himself before suffering a setback.

The classmates' calls continued, but Lin Qiang slowly discovered a strange phenomenon, that is, no classmate had ever told him Zhou Jie's phone number, Lin Qiang thought to himself, it must be that the guys in that class all thought that he and Zhou Jie often had contact, thinking that Lin Qiang's bitter love for Zhou Jie was an open secret of the class, but later Lin Qiang's frustration in the love field was little known, Lin Qiang has always been the kind of person who wants to share happiness with friends and suffer silently.

Lin Qiang still didn't have enough psychological preparation to call Zhou Jie, and he was still imagining all kinds of embarrassing scenes that might occur, he had to admit that his cowardice and gains and losses in the love field, and his keen and resolute behavior in the business world can be said to be two heavens of ice and fire, I really don't know how these two completely different personalities can be unified into one person.

Lin Qiang thought, maybe Zhou Jie is too good, which often makes him feel inferior, or maybe he loves her too much, cares too much about her, and always wants to show his best side in front of her, so that he is always restrained in front of her and can't relax.

Everyone thought that it was obviously unrealistic to organize a class meeting at the beginning, and many of its details could not be implemented at once, so Lin Qiang proposed to hold a small party first, and everyone met and sat down to discuss the whole class meeting.

Everyone thought that this proposal was good, so they decided to organize a small party in Guangzhou first, mainly for students working in Guangzhou, and all students were welcome to actively participate.

When Lin Qiang was busy with the reunion of his classmates, Cao Xu called and said that the renovation project of the Xinhui Hot Spring site was about to start, and the stone carving samples provided by Lin Qiang before had also been approved by Party A, and he would rush to Xinhui to see the scene tomorrow and determine the specific size of the stone carving.