The years have taken away all the joys and sorrows, but they are never willing to return them to us.

The aroma of summer dissipated, autumn came slowly with a gust of breeze, and it was more than two months after going out again, Qu Qing pulled her luggage, took Xiaoli, and walked into the university campus.

No matter how Grandma Cheng persuaded her, Xiaoli stubbornly moved back to the Qingmei Formation, and since that day, she has never seen Cheng Zimu face-to-face, no Chen Yan, Yang Minglang, Xu Ying, Mo Qiao, Chu Xin, everyone, as if they were passers-by in that memory, came in a hurry, and left in a hurry, maybe not because of Cheng Zimu, Xiaoli wanted to isolate, but the atmosphere that once made her feel extremely warm, because, she no longer needs it.

She has changed, she has become taciturn, she has become quiet and indisputable, the occasional smiling face has made Qu Qing bitter, Xiaoli knows that time will bury all the past and secrets, maybe one day, she will slowly forget her grievances and hatred for Cheng Zimu, until finally, she will completely forget him.

During the days of hospitalization, every day, she was locked in the ward, every day, through the transparent and heavy glass, she could see Cheng Zimu's decadent figure squatting at her door, separated by a door, cutting off her dependence and sustenance for more than ten years, and also cutting off his emotions and love for more than ten years.

On the day she was discharged from the hospital, she stood at Beijing Railway Station, pulling a small suitcase, she knew that when she left now and came back again, she and the city, there was no sense of belonging at the beginning, there was Cheng Zimu, there was a family, there were friends, and this time, only she and Qu Qing, Cheng Zimu hid behind the crowd, looking at her mottled and thin body, he saw her walking towards him, his eyes suddenly brightened, as if he had the hope of rebirth.

Xiao Li looked at him calmly, " Cheng Zimu, this month, I thought a lot, Grandpa Cheng is right, my father, he guards what he wants to protect, this is his choice, I take back the excessive words I said before, we have gone through so many years together, I don't regret it, I don't hate the one who relied on you and liked you, I don't deny that you were once so good, infinitely tolerant of me, and you who are deeply affectionate to me, because that's you, I never regret meeting you, and all kinds of things between you, I don't deny, I don't deny your kindness to me, my dedication, I hate you, and I just hate you now, between us, no longer pursue who is right and who is wrong, no longer entangled in regret, there is no compensation and repentance, Me and you, it's over, all the past, I myself will slowly get used to it, maybe I don't hate you as much as I imagined, but, all this can't be changed, even one day, I don't hate you anymore, I won't come back, because, I just can't like you anymore, just anymore, no, can't like you anymore, that's it. ”

She turned around indifferently, like a strange traveler, pulling her luggage, without saying goodbye, without looking back, without hesitation, with her head held high, and disappeared into the crowd.

The little bit of brilliance in Cheng Zimu's eyes disappeared, he always thought that even if she hated herself, at least this hatred could still make her remember herself, one day, she let go of her resentment, he could finally stand by her side, he would never leave, he could wait, a few years, another ten years, half a lifetime, but now, she is so indifferent, she easily says his good, and easily downplays her hatred, she doesn't hate herself, it's just, in this life, she will never look back, will not return to him, will not like, never.

Xiaoli, I would rather you hate me, hate my life, than you completely isolate me from your world, Xiaoli, are you too cruel, or I am too demanding, we, even if we can go back to the past, we can't go back to the beginning.

Qu Qing took Xiaoli to run around for two days, and near the school, she chose a small house, one bedroom and one living room, public toilets, and public bathrooms, but Xiaoli felt extremely relieved, she no longer liked to be lively, no longer liked to be bustling, she sat on the sofa from the second-hand market, and quietly watched Qu Qing decorate this small house very warmly, and her heart warmed a little.

Zhang Tiancheng's pension came down, plus the previous deposit, as well as the insurance money he silently entered for Xiaoli, Grandpa Cheng asked all of them to be integrated, and handed over a card to Xiaoli, the money in it was enough for her to spend college and have a good life, but Xiaoli barely moved, put it at the bottom of the box, decided to work and study, and the Cheng family tried all kinds of ways to insert into her life, she refused one by one, she knew that she was a little cold-blooded, after all, she still respected and loved Cheng's grandparents, but she couldn't bear the rejection in her heart, after a long time, gradually, they also respected her life, no longer involved too much, just asked, a month, Xiaoli returned to the house once,In the absence of Cheng Zimu,Go back and see the second elder.。。

Xiaoli knew that as long as she was in Beijing, she would not be completely cut off from the past, she would meet that group of teenagers, she would meet more people who knew her past, and even, she would see Cheng Zimu, so she was ready, but she wouldn't know that the day she saw Cheng Zimu, everything had already been turned upside down.

The years are dark, the time is not old, the years are a two-life flower, it will dismiss all your old friends, and it will also bring you a sudden encounter.