In the past two years, except for Yang Minglang, she has not seen anyone before, Chen Yan went abroad inexplicably, gave up Tsinghua University, and ran to an unknown school, there is no news, Mo Qiao and Chu Xin are no longer the military academy students who followed them in the rebellion, one of them is in the army, and the other is now a trainee criminal policeman, of course, it is Mo Qiao who remains in the army.

For two years, Yang Minglang insisted on coming to see himself once a week, and he would not mention any topics, except for silence, he gently patted her on the shoulder, and said the same words as he touched at the beginning, "I will always be behind you." ”

There must be touching, they didn't get closer to each other, as if they had been discussed, but they maintained such a close relationship, year after year.

She didn't see Cheng Zimu again, the only time she heard his name was on Grandpa Cheng's birthday last year, she mustered up the courage to go back to the birthday banquet, although she was fully prepared, Yang Minglang held her, and she even thought of how to pass by him, but that day, he was not there, the birthday banquet was over, and she heard Xia Qian and Xiang Huashan's quarrel outside the study.

For the first time, there was no majesty and toughness in Xiang Huashan's tone, with a strong sense of helplessness and exhaustion, he said, "Qian, I am not a good comrade-in-arms, not a good son, and now, I am not a good father, I can't keep Xiaomu, I'm sorry." ”

Xia Qian's cry pierced Xiao Li's heart, the aunt who was always smiling, the female officer who was not inferior to a man in a military uniform, the cry at the moment, so sad.

Almost immediately, Xiaoli was sure that something had happened to Cheng Zimu, but in what position did she push the door in and ask, and she also found that although a trace of worry flashed in her heart, in the end, there was no desperate idea.

Cheng Zimu, you see, in just two years, I almost put you down.

When she saw Chen Yan again, she accompanied Qu Qing to a TV station to study as an exchange student, Qu Qing went to the Ministry of Information, she walked around the building, at the door of the bright and luxurious office on the 20th floor, she heard Chen Yan's voice, there was no longer the original hooligan and banter, but a mouth seemed to be able to see the eyebrows and eyes of the past.

"Listen to the master, who the fuck dares to send this news, Lao Tzu swept his whole family with a gun, you all listen to me, from today on, your company, the news about Xing Mo, except for the good and bad ones, are not allowed to be published, tell those paparazzi raised by bitches, any brother of Lao Tzu can come out and kill him, without paying any responsibility, Lao Tzu is not afraid of life, I don't believe it, they are not afraid of death!".

The door was vigorously opened, and Chen Yan was surprised to see Xiao Li standing at the door, looking at Xiao Li who accidentally appeared in front of him with deep eyes, and Xiao Li was also staring at him.

They have all changed, Xiaoli has a neat ponytail, wearing a white shirt, jeans, a black backpack, a pair of white wedge shoes, and light makeup, which is extremely fresh, without the appearance of the original tomboy.

Chen Yan was wearing a decent black suit, a dark blue tie, a white shirt, and the buttons around his neck were open, his eyes were sharp, and he still looked like he used to laugh, and he was holding a stack of press releases in his hand.

"Did you find Momo? Where is she? When is it, how is she now, Chen Yan, don't lie to me. Xiao Li's tone was cold, approaching his face step by step, and his cold eyes looked straight at him.

"Zhang Xiaoli, even if we don't meet, I will go to you, because you owe her too much. ”

Chen Yan hasn't changed much, this idea came to mind when Xiao Li saw his extremely sassy Maserati sports car, young master of capitalist.

In the private room of the newly opened Jinting Hotel, watching Chen Yan wave his hand and order a table of dishes, Xiao Li took a rough look at the menu, obediently, one meal, more than three thousand, she looked at the dishes on the table intentionally or unintentionally while eating, thinking about which one to pack back for Qu Qing later.

Chen Yan did it on purpose, and Xiao Li thought sadly after a long time.

Before she was full of food and drink, he never spoke, no matter how she threatened, he just didn't speak, but after she was full of food and drink, he spoke to her slowly, but his tone was cold and biting.

"Xing Mo has been with me for the past two years, and I went abroad because of her. ”。

Xiaoli was stunned, and a cloud of doubts unfolded in his mind, didn't he say, didn't he look for her, what? .

Chen Yan ignored her, stood up, walked to the window, looked at the endless crowd outside the window, and lit a cigarette, "Xiao Ion, have you ever thought that when she insisted on leaving, leaving her mother, younger brothers and sisters, for what, her father left, shouldn't she stay with her mother to comfort her?"

Xiao Centrifugal jumped faster, looked up at him with panic in his eyes, his back was lonely, and his voice became deeper and lower, "Actually, we can't think of it, we can't think of it, how could we have thought that in that dark alley, why did those people clash with her father, Xiao Ion, guess what?" Chen Yan suddenly turned around, staring at her fiercely with red eyes, Xiao Li stood up, but he was forced to sit on the stool.

"Those beasts, beasts are not as good as things, they, they ,,, bullied Xing Mo, just almost, her innocence was completely ruined, so she will leave, with that kind of sadness and despair, with that kind of shame, but also to go away, she is only seventeen years old, to work to make money, do you know, I have been looking for a long time, I didn't find it, just when I was about to give up, I saw her, I don't have to go into detail about the process, but I saw her again, she followed a man who was older than my old son, and carried him to the hotel to open a room, do you know, at that time I almost killed that man, and she looked at me with a complaining face, saying that I was nosy, said that this is her first customer in this business, the price is very high, I cut off her money, Zhang Xiaoli, can you imagine her expression at that time? I swear, if you see her at that time, you will want to kill yourself. ”。

Xiaoli couldn't breathe anymore, her heart was like a dull bell ringing, her head was splitting, she felt that she was dying at the moment, she almost forgot to cry and cry, she looked at Chen Yan, wanted to speak, but couldn't speak.

"Zhang Xiaoli, that is the first girl I Chen Yan liked in my life, I pestered her so brazenly, even if something happened to know that she liked my brother for so many years and couldn't bear to give up the girl, do you know how much I hated you at that time, she didn't want you to know, she said that she didn't want to mention the past, she didn't want to see you again, she said that seeing you, it would make her disgusting, I told you today, I just think you should know, later, I took her away, she said she wanted to make money to support her family, to become a person, and return to her hometown in style, she signed up for a draft, and got her wish, she was taken abroad for training for two years, and I have been following her, But I know she doesn't like me, I've gone through so much, the prince in her heart, there is still only Cheng Zimu, but I don't care, I Chen Yan used to be a bastard ruffian, but, now, only I can stay by her side as a friend, she will soon return to China to develop, but her past has been picked up, Zhang Xiaoli remember, don't go to her, she finally succeeded, now the paparazzi are holding on to her, she can't have a scandal, remember, now, she is not Xing Mo, her name is Xing Ran, she hopes to say goodbye to the past completely, start over, and be a rising new life, so, don't bother her, especially you, don't hurt her again, otherwise, Xiao Ion, don't blame me for ignoring the love of the year. ”。

After Chen Yan left, Xiao Li vomited on a table of dishes, the vomit was dark, almost collapsed, Qu Qing rushed over to pick her up and cried in fright, Cheng Fei took her to the hospital, she was like an angry doll, her eyes were empty, she didn't say a word, no matter how Qu Qing cried and begged her, she didn't say a word.

Chen Yan, thank you, be by her side, Chen Yan, I hope you can have a happy ending, but I am not qualified to bless you.

Momo, I can't imagine how broken your heart was when you left, you were very thorough with me, broke your first love, hurt your father, and even, ruined your life, but, what to do, I still want to go to you, hug you, even if you beat me, I won't let go.

Youth is gone, and the pieces that are accidentally left behind, and the stabbing are not just the heart.

The longing was fruitless, and finally poured out.

It's another year, entering her senior year, Qu Qing has already begun to intern at the contact TV station, watching Cheng Fei and her say goodbye and hug under the street lamp every night, Xiao Li looks at them at the upstairs window, and then she can't help but look at Fang Yi hidden behind the tree, with countless sentimentalities in her heart.

Xiaoqing, the sky is slightly cool, we learn to grow up, learn to smile, learn to be strong, learn not to shed tears easily, but, I don't know, have you learned to forget Fang Yi, forget his persistence and waiting, sad him behind the tree, have you ever seen it, if you do, what kind of mentality do you have, hugging Cheng Fei.

The phone rang countless times, and the message was about to fill the inbox, Xiaoli stood at the window, his eyes were blank, until he stretched out his hand to turn it off, Xu Ying, why you? .

Xu Ying's last message was almost filled with boundless resentment.

She said, "Zhang Xiaoli, how long do you spend liking someone, how long will it take to forget, and then spend your whole life to remember, I don't believe it, in just three years, you can forget Cheng Zimu, I don't believe it, you don't miss him, you said, if he dies, you come to see him, now, he has lost the consciousness of survival, life is better than death, why can't you come to see him." ”

The next day, Xiaoli was blocked downstairs by Xu Ying, Xu Ying became more □□ brighter, her soft long hair was permed into a charming big curl tied up high, brown shiny, light makeup, wearing a spiritual army uniform, black leather shoes, driving a white Audi sports car, delicate face, intellectual, mature, beautiful and moving.

Xiao Li looked at her quietly and said calmly, "Let's go, I promise you, go see him." ”。

The car was speeding fast, Xiaoli looked at Xu Ying, who was skilled in driving, time went back to the past, Xu Ying at that time, gentle and generous, was a proud girl, now, she is mature, her eyebrows and eyes are full of strength, three years, she is still dazzling, and she will never look at herself with disgust and sarcasm herself, but she still stuffs all the good things into her hands.

Walking into the main courtyard, the soldiers at the door greeted her with a smile on their faces, along the way, many people greeted her, she responded with a smile indifferently, still high, but it would not make people feel alienated, came to a separate floor, there were several soldiers standing on both sides of the aisle, and came to a VIP ward, the door was gently pushed open, and a group of people stood in the room, Xia Qian, Mo Qiao, Chu Xin, and four or five young people she didn't know, but Xiao Li recognized their armbands, they were comrades in the Chengzimu Commando, and there was also a person Xiao Li was somewhat familiar with, that is, the officer who had Xiao Li's hand。。

Although Xiaoli kept telling herself along the way, calm and indifferent, but the moment she saw Cheng Zimu, she pretended to be extremely calm on the surface, but her heart was already full of torrents, and all the countless emotions hidden in her heart had already exploded, and she couldn't even take a step.

Cheng Zimu lay quietly on the hospital bed, his eyes closed, as if he was asleep, his head was wrapped in thick gauze, and the instruments beside the bed quietly made a ticking sound, Xia Qian looked at Xiao Li with red eyes, grabbed Xiao Li's hand, and tears flowed down before he could open his mouth.

In the bright ward, they can hear each other's breathing quietly, the four team members saw Xiaoli for the first time, and they all looked at her suspiciously, in their eyes, the women who appeared next to Cheng Zimu except Xu Ying were their mother and grandmother, they all thought that Xu Ying and Cheng Zimu were a couple, and now the girl who appeared here, the girl who made several people change their faces, who is it?

Xiao Li approached, three years, Cheng Zimu, we haven't seen each other for three years, in fact, at the beginning, I let go of not your and my love, not you, but you and I can no longer outline the beauty and future, I thought that in this life, I can just stick to the end, completely forget you, no longer see you, perhaps, deep down in my heart know, you will always live in this corner of the world, so I can let us not meet, do not miss each other, and, in the past three years, I have also done it no longer miss you, maybe occasionally, I heard a sad song, wronged, but I have long since not relied on you desperately, miss your mood, Cheng Zimu, now see you lying here quietly, It's still the eyebrows and eyes that used to be, but it's no longer the face I remember at the beginning, your thin bones are distinct, your skin is rough, deep and shallow wounds, now you, like a child who has gone through the wind and frost and slept peacefully, I used to hate you and resented you, and even hoped that you would die to relieve the pain in my heart, but now, why am I still afraid that you won't wake up, why do I still come to see you, Cheng Zimu, I am so entangled, so embarrassed to face my past ruthless vow, if you don't wake up, how should I face myself。。

Xiao Li stood quietly beside the bed, and she said softly, "Cheng Zimu, I'm coming to see you, can you open your eyes." ”

Tears finally slipped down, dripping down on his sleeping eyes, Xiao Li suddenly turned around, turned around and left before the defense line in his heart collapsed, squatted at the door, bit his finger out of blood, the instrument suddenly ticked, the doctor rushed in, Xia Qian cried out, and then under everyone's sad and stunned eyes, Cheng Zimu opened his eyes slowly, and Cheng Zimu, who had been in a coma for a month because of his mission injury, miraculously opened his eyes, yes, miracle, maybe ridiculous, but, because of Zhang Xiaoli, he came to life, but the blankness in his eyes, no focus, once again pierced everyone's hearts。

His hoarse and painful voice sounded, and his hands touched the air indiscriminately, "Xiaoli, is it you? I heard your voice, Xiaoli? Is it you, is it you coming to see me, where are you? Xiaoli, I can't see you, it's dark, why do I wake up, but I still can't see you?".

Xiao Li stood up outside the door, watching him wave his hands like a lost child, with a panicked face, he stumbled and pushed everyone away, groping desperately in the room, over and over again, shattered and shouted "Xiao Li, Xiao Li, where are you, why can't I see you, Xiao Li, I can't see you anymore." ”

Xiao Li grabbed the clothes on her chest until she grabbed blood from her palms, she forced herself not to look at his embarrassed and desperate face, forced herself to leave, and could no longer bear to listen to his broken and uneasy voice.

Cheng Zimu, I'm not an angel, I'm no longer the Zhang Xiaoli who you opened your mouth to tell me to go over and I will appear by your side, in the future, with Xu Ying by your side, I believe you will get better, she will give you new hope and love, today, is the last time I take the initiative to see you, for I once cursed you so cruelly to death, now you wake up, we, we don't owe each other.

Xiaoli finally read Xu Ying's text message, knowing that after being taken away by Cheng Huashan that year, he took the initiative to apply to go to the peacekeeping force, he followed a commando team with strong combat effectiveness, left the motherland, and went to other countries, where he was the first to rush forward in any danger, in Xu Ying's words, he wished that he would sacrifice himself, use his life to eliminate the hatred in her heart, he was deeply convinced, as long as he sacrificed, as long as his name was engraved on that stone tablet, she would be as promised, and she would be able to see him again.

Xiaoli couldn't imagine how he carried the gun on his shoulder when he was young in such a harsh environment, in that place full of gunsmoke, she couldn't imagine how his white fingers were as white as jade bleached and burst the enemy's body, that bright and sunny teenager, how many times he died before he became what he is now, and finally, he injured himself like this, without a trace of survival consciousness, in exchange for her to see him.

Cheng Zimu, you owed me in the past, and now, it has been paid off, we may return to the original point, you have been tortured, I let go of the past, but, at that origin, you are no longer the former Cheng Zimu, I am not the original Zhang Xiaoli, we no longer owe each other, but there is no longer a bond, from then on, you and I, without this trace of resentment involved, no longer have a relationship.

Cheng Zimu, I let go, I let go the moment I saw you, I know, my parents, everyone around, has never blamed you for resenting you, only me, guarding the resentment in my heart and unwilling to let go, now, three years, you come back to life, let all this end today, start again, it's just that there is no longer me in your world, and there is no longer you in my world.