Chapter 44: The Tragedy Feeling

"Bear with it. Mo Shaojie ordered me in a low voice and said: "Like a gentleman, is it interesting to have red eyes at every turn? You may not be able to find me here, that Santana was originally a deck, and I wore a mask that night, even if the camera took it, it was nothing, whether I could be found or not, it all depends on whether the little policewoman will tell the truth." ”

I raised my head and looked at Mo Shaojie and asked, "Is she important?"

Mo Shaowei was curiously calm, and analyzed: "At present, the only person who can associate this matter with me here is the little policewoman named Qin Mu, she suspects that you have revealed your whereabouts to me, how likely do you think she is to track it down?"

"I don't know!" I took out a cigarette and lit it myself, lowered my head and took a puff and said, "I don't know her very well, and I haven't known her for a long time, but I can feel that she is a girl with a sense of justice, and she belongs to the kind of straightforward and fast-talking." ”

Mo Shaojie was silent for a moment, got up and said, "Go and get busy with you, it's okay, call your parents more when you have time." With that, Mo Shaojie walked over to the ring and continued to teach his members.

Although Mo Shaojie said that the cloud is light and light, and the word "it's okay" is brushed aside, why do I always feel a feeling of "explaining the future"?

Leaving the fitness club, I happened to meet Yin Yihua coming back with a lot of food, she saw that I was very kind, and asked, "When did you come? Eat something and then go, I bought milk tea and snacks." ”

"Nope. I lowered my head and said to Yin Yihua: "Sister Hua, you eat, I'll go back first." ”

Yin Yihua paused and said to me: "Then you go back first, I'll call you later, and I'll talk to you about something." ”

The raindrops fell on my shoulders, my hands in my trouser pockets and walked aimlessly along the pedestrian street, I never felt that this world was very beautiful, all that was left to me was cruel, and I was hung with a couple chain given to me by prospect Yao for a few years, thinking of Jing Yao, I suddenly had an inexplicable heartache.

In the rainy season, there is dampness everywhere, and in the battery spring community, "Bubu" squatted where Lin Yifei left last, staring at the ground and motionless.

I crouched in front of "Boo" and looked at it, and it was looking at me too, and we were both drenched in the rain.

A resident of a community who passed by told me very kindly: "This dog was raised by a girl, after the girl jumped off the building and committed suicide, it became a stray dog, and it stayed here every day, the security guard beat it several times, and the dog did not leave, and then the security guard saw that it was also pitiful, so he let him stay here, everyone passed by occasionally, and gave it some leftovers, you see......" The resident pointed to a small basin placed on the side of the green belt, "It is the basin, which is usually used to hold food." ”

I nodded politely and signaled to him that I understood, and passers-by saw that I was still staring at the stray dog, and shook their heads helplessly, probably thinking that there was something wrong with my head.

In the rain, I approached "Bubu" and touched his head, and "Bubu" fell to the ground with his whole body, whimpering and choking. I took "Boo" upstairs and bathed it, and at night we were living together in the living room, but we were found by the landlord who came to inspect it.

The landlord was a middle-aged man in his forties, after meeting, he saw a dog, and he didn't do much at the time, handed me a cigarette and said to me: "Brother, I also know a rough idea of what happened in the past few days, I have seen Feifei this girl once, that is, the day she moved in, I signed a contract with her, I didn't expect her to leave like this, it's a pity!"

The landlord took a puff of cigarette and continued to say to me: "Actually, I am a bit taboo, it is not good for such a thing to happen in my house, it will affect my overall fortune, I decided to put this suite in the intermediary and sell it at a low price, so ......" The landlord opened his bag, took out a pile of cash from it, put it on the coffee table and said: "So I will refund you the rent as it is, please find another place to live, and ...... I won't take the rent of Fei Fei's child, please pass it on to the little girl you and Fei Fei helped you, it's also a little bit of my heart, brother, I'm sorry. ”

"It's fine. I put away the money and said to the landlord: "It's dark now, it's not realistic for me to go out to find a house now, I'll go out tomorrow to look for it, and move out as soon as I find it." ”

"Don't worry!" the landlord said to me: "You can move out within a week, I have already handed over the keys to the agent, and there may be people coming to see the house these days and disturbing your rest...... I'm sorry, but I'm sorry to trouble my brother to leave early. ”

After the landlord left, I sat on the ground and hugged "Bubu", smiled self-deprecatingly and said, "Let's wander together tomorrow." ”

Bubu raised his head and looked at me, whined a few times, and lay on the floor in a daze, I sat next to "Bubu" with my laptop, opened QQ's "Talk", and left a line on it: When will I find a sense of belonging?

Yes, we all need this feeling so much, and in this huge city, without a sense of belonging, you will feel like you are wandering, like "Bubu", wandering without purpose.

QQ's talk was only sent out for a minute, and Jing Yao sent me a message in the QQ dialog box: Are you okay silently?

Me: Well, it's fine.

Jing Yao: I'm back to China, I'm back to Kunming, if I'm free, I want to meet you.

Me: I was so good in France, why did I suddenly return to China?

After this message was sent, it took ten minutes to get a response, and such a paragraph appeared on the screen: Because there is no sense of belonging, I feel the same as you, I was excluded by my peers, they created a series of evidence to slander my work for plagiarizing their elements, the company thought I was Chinese, indiscriminately fired me, I didn't want to explain, I didn't bother to argue, I was fed up with grievances and chose to return to China, there is no sense of belonging in a foreign country, it is a terrible thing.

After reading this passage sent by Jing Yao, I suddenly became very heartbroken, very heartbroken, she has been very good since she was a child, how could plagiarism happen to her? I pretended to be very wanting, comforted Jing Yao and said: Everything will be fine, it is good to go back to Kunming to develop, with your ability, will you still worry about not being able to find a job? Does Cheng Jia know the news of your return?

Jing Yao: I know! At the moment, I am with Cheng Jia, he came to pick me up at the airport, and now he will send me home.

Seeing these two words, my heart hurt even more, and I even suspected that Jing Yao's return to China had something to do with Cheng Jia, although it hurt, I still had to pretend not to care, and tapped the keyboard and replied: Go home? Go back to his home? It's good, bless you......