"You said you would really bless me, Xiaoli, this sentence doesn't count. ”。

Xiaoli received a text message from Xu Ying at five o'clock in the morning, and then, holding the quilt, looking at the foggy sky outside the window, his heart suddenly became empty.

Aunt Xing began to make dumplings early in the morning, today is the Chinese New Year's Eve, when Xiaoli walked out of the room, Chen Yan rolled up his sleeves, skillfully wrapped dumplings, the two cooperated quite tacitly, one rolled dumpling skin, one made dumplings, Xiaoli stopped, some unwilling to disturb, she is not the heroine, if Momo is here, what a happy picture.

Thoughts drifted again, Xiao Li remembered that Chinese New Year's Eve a few years ago, when busy in the kitchen was Dad, Cheng Zimu, Chen Yan, senior, Xu Ying, Mo Mo, a lively group of people, around the dining table, making dumplings, and then drinking, eating, that day, she and Cheng Zimu kissed for the first time, Chen Yan drunk in front of people for the first time, for Mo Mo, and Xing Mo's tragic life also began on that day, that is also a Chinese New Year's Eve that no one mentions so far, although it has too many good memories, but it is no match for the pain that night brought Xing Mo。

Xiaoli suddenly cried, she raised her hand to touch, the tears had fallen, and she smiled bitterly in her heart, since when did she feel so sentimental and cry like this? .

The mobile phone remembered again, a blessing text message was overwhelming, she remembered again, the New Year's blessing text message, it seems that she still taught this group of people, all kinds of disdain in the past, to now there is one every year, the content is varied, the little clutch of the mobile phone, walked to the table.

"What a filling, it's so fragrant. ”。

"It's just ordinary minced meat, go wash it, and I'll try it for you two later." Aunt Xing said to her with a smile on her face.

"Gotcha!".

"Eat for nothing, you are so embarrassed, look at me, you don't feel embarrassed when you see the dumplings I made. Chen Yan snorted proudly.

"This girl's jade hand is used to carry out the grand cause, besides, it is your honor to make dumplings for me to eat. Xiao Li opened his fingers and waved them very bewitchingly.

"Come on, it's hard to say if you can marry like this!".

"It's none of your business whether I marry or not, and I don't want you to support me for the rest of my life. ”

"I really can't afford it!".

"You!Aunt Xing~ Look at him bullying me!" Little off stomping feet.

"Okay, okay, don't quarrel with the two of you, it's the New Year, don't be angry, Xiaoli, go wash your face, Xiao Yan, you can get up too, the rest, don't need your help, go boil water." ”

Xiao Li raised his head and snorted fiercely at Chen Yan, and walked into the bathroom slowly, Chen Yan looked at her back, but suddenly smiled, such a Xiao Li, I haven't seen it for a long time, if Chengzi sees it, maybe it will be rare.

In the evening, after accompanying Xiao Ze Xiaoya to set off firecrackers, Aunt Xing led the two of them to watch the Spring Festival Gala, Chen Yan pulled Xiao Li, who was about to enter the house, "Go out for a walk, don't you say that there is a square that is very lively, take me to have a look." ”。

Xiao Li chuckled in his heart, nervous for a moment, bit his mouth, and nodded. What he wants to see,It's the square that Momo didn't walk to.。。

The two walked in the snow, the snow was trampled and creaked, Xiaoli looked up at the fireworks in the sky, and Cheng Zimu's face suddenly appeared in the brilliant sky, just like the smiling face on the first Chinese New Year's Eve in BJ that year, and his silent words.

"Xiaoli, I've always been there. ”

Chengzimu, it's another year, this year's Chinese New Year's Eve, I'm in Qingmei Town, but there is no you around for a long time, I used to think that no matter how old I am, the people who count down with me will have you, but, for so many years, I have spent one New Year after another without you, I have survived, only this year, I miss you very much, I never said to you that I like you, I haven't done anything for you, before I have time to do anything for you, we have parted ways, we no longer belong to the same city, Chengzimu, tonight, I want to tell you how much, I love you, I have liked you a long time ago, but it is too late, if I told you earlier, there won't be so many regrets, if I had loved you a little earlier, then everything that has happened, maybe I wouldn't care, if I had been a little selfish, stay by your side no matter what, and not hate you, tonight, I wouldn't be so sad.

"What do you want, do you miss a man?" Chen Yan jokingly patted Xiaoli's head.

Xiao Li didn't care about it for the first time, and said quietly, "Well, I miss a man, but the person who thinks about it is going to become someone else's man." ”

Chen Yan was stunned and sighed slightly, "Did the shadow send you a message? ”。

"Well, in fact, I already knew, at that time, I was very generous, very kind smile, and told her that I sincerely blessed them, but Chen Yan, I found that some words can be easily spoken, but I still can't get over it in my heart. ”

"It was you who pushed Chengzi away, Xiaoli, all these years, we all know that Chengzi only loves you, that day you were trapped in the elevator, you may not have seen his crazy appearance, I saw him like that for the first time, he once told me that in his life, as a man, he only cried for you, and cried countless times, I don't understand, why do you want to make each other so tired, you said that I and Momo, she doesn't have so deep feelings for me, I still pestered her, you two, obviously love each other, why are you not together. ”

"Chen Yan, in fact, I envy you, love if you want to love, you love Momo, she is Momo, between the two of you, maybe separated from the world and the knot, but at least you can work hard to solve it, no matter what the outcome is, you have the motivation to work hard, for me and Cheng Zimu, these years, you are just bystanders, you don't understand, there has been too much separation between us, too much, I hated him at the beginning, I really hated him, I said I didn't like him anymore, it was also true, and it was true to let go today, but that's it, between us, it's getting farther and farther apart, he owed me in the past, and now I owe him, the hurt we have given each other, the torture we have suffered over the years, My father, Xiaoqing, Momo, these traversal of the past between us, even in the past, but the hurt has been formed, with no amount of tenderness and love can not make up for it, he lost his sight for a period of time, the sadness and helplessness he experienced, is the most painful despair I brought him, between us, if it was the purest love at the beginning, how good, but, can never go back, even if we love each other, what if we miss it, it is missed, not to mention now, I can no longer hurt Xu Ying, for the senior, I am also full of guilt, I can no longer simply like him, the love between us is no longer pure, there is too much sadness, too much debt, too much complexityEven if we're together, one day, these will explode, and then, again, burn us, you know, I'm no longer the little girl he loved desperately, and he's not the boy I relied on infinitely. ”。

Chen Yan was silent, this was the first time he heard Xiaoli talk seriously about her and Cheng Zimu, he knew that this was the words in her heart, from the day he met her, she was lively and cheerful, she was different, she could cry when she wanted to, go crazy if she wanted to, do it if she wanted to, she almost became their favorite and favorite sister, in fact, that day, looking at Xiao Li, who committed suicide standing in the tuyere, he still feels distressed when he thinks about it, that Xiao Li, who always has the brightest smile and the most open-minded in his memory, helpless, desperate, and wants to end his life, the proud and strong Cheng Zimu, kneeling on the ground and crying bitterly, that day, he knew that perhaps, they really can't go back, But over the years, they have loved each other and tortured each other, their friends watched, but they couldn't do anything, looking at Xiaoli in front of her, she kept a smile under the fireworks, but her eyes were sad, Chen Yan couldn't speak except for being distressed.

"Actually, I knew for a long time that you like Momo, to be honest, at first I was afraid that she would be entangled by you, but now it seems that it is her luck to meet you. Xiao Li suddenly looked back at him.

"Well, it's love at first sight, at that time, I always felt that she smiled beautifully, with shallow dimples, quiet, tranquil, and exuding an incomparably fresh breath on her body, which made me intoxicated, I never thought that I Chen Yan would be willing to do this to a girl who fell in love at first sight in my life, Xiao Ion, in fact, when Momo had an accident, I really hated you, and I wanted to strangle you, but who made you too popular in the past, I couldn't bear it, at that time, I really felt sorry for Momo. Chen Yan mentioned Momo, his eyes were full of gentleness.

"I know, I also knew that you were so affectionate after that incident, Chen Yan, don't worry, I will definitely help you and convince your grandfather, our group of people, there must be someone who can replace us to be happy together!"

"When are you leaving?" asked Chen Yan.

"Tomorrow, go back and see Xiaoqing, and Momo. ”

"Do you want to take a ride with you? ”

"I don't have the money to cheer you on. ”。

"You haven't lost your kung fu yet!"

"That's, it's a kung fu anyway, isn't it!"

"Cut, your uncle. ”。

"Your uncle!"

"Hey, Chen Yan, you can accompany me to a place. ”

"Okay, let's go. ”

The two of them came all the way to the intersection of the town, in the snow all over the ground, Xiaoli squatted down and kept picking up something, after a long time, she stood up, looked back at Chen Yan, and said with tears in her eyes, "I knew that after so many years, it was long gone." ”

Cheng Zimu, the pair of shoes I sent you away that year are gone, I didn't accompany you all the way, and I didn't wait for you to come back, there are really no miracles in this world.

Chen Yan didn't know what she was talking about, but looking at the sad back, his heart was sad, after many years, there were too many things, and they were long gone.

In the compound of the BJ City Military Region, Cheng Zimu was wearing a black coat, standing alone in the backyard, his fingers stroking the swing full of falling snow, his eyes were full of longing, he didn't check Xiaoli's whereabouts, but he knew that Xiaoli left BJ, he could guess where she went, but, that place, he never dared to go back.

Xiaoli, you are in Qingmei Town, have you ever missed the years we spent together, are you cold, will you be afraid, I once said that I will always be by your side, accompany you every New Year, but, these years, without my company, will you miss me or resent me, I always seem to give you promises, but never fulfilled, between us, even love has not had time to speak, has gone to the end of the world, has become the most familiar stranger, my heart hurts every night, you know?.