He couldn't help but regret his past, how could he become so depraved and incompetent now when he was smart in elementary school and praised by his teachers.

When I was a child, I was well-behaved and clever, but how did I become so unruly as I grew older.

I still remember that before I was in the third grade, I was all in the top three in the class, and I was often praised by the teacher, but now the teacher sees me as a thorn in the side, a thorn in the flesh, and wants to expel him.

I can't blame the teacher for this, and I blame myself for it.

If you had followed the advice of your teacher in the first year of junior high school, started from scratch, studied hard, and laid a solid foundation, you would not have developed to the point where you are now.

It's late, everything is late, the knowledge of the past is blank, and the knowledge of the present is a mess.

Hey, it's hard to be smart, it's hard to be confused, it's hard to go from smart to confused, it's even harder to go from confused to smart, just break the jar and break it, and care about the southeast and northwest.

He often thinks about the past, but once he wakes up from a trance dream, he slaps himself again, he feels that the honor of the past belongs to his parents, the present faint life belongs to himself, and the future beauty belongs to others, and he has no luxury for the future at all.

Politicians, scientists, writers, and entrepreneurs he could not imagine that teachers, doctors, soldiers, and civil servants were the ideal Everest for him, and he felt that wandering beggars might be his best home.

What is life? Life is to be born to do nothing, to be dull and evil.

He is not as good as Jia Chongwen, and his criminal father is also stronger than his father, at least he has a little temperament.

He is no better than Shuang Xiaodong, although his parents are migrant workers, they are still young, and they can eat his father for at least twenty years.

He is not as good as Yang Yuelong, his father is the boss, BMW and Mercedes-Benz drive all day long, and he is not necessarily worse than Wen Tianhao.

He believes that his life is also divided into three realms:

There is no belief in life, no goal, flying without purpose, on the ground, in the air, indoor, outdoor, in the village, outside the village everywhere I figure, do not choose the location, do not choose friends, as soon as I open my eyes, I buzz and fly, play him in the dark, this so-called fly ideal, the first realm also.

The first step is not good, the second step can only be like a mosquito only to enjoy, not to give, only to squeeze, not to give, whether you are a mule or a horse, as long as there is living bright red blood, I have to bite it, this so-called mosquito philosophy, the second realm also.

Although I have a good life, swinging on the beard of a lazy person, but when people take a bath, there is a danger of extinction, this so-called flea future, the third realm also.

He hated himself, hated those students who were strong in his studies, and even hated his own parents, he felt that society was so unfair to him, and he lived in such a poor family when he was smart and talented.

The old-style mud-walled houses are huddled under the blue tiles and green tiles, which is particularly eye-catching. The house is poor, except for a table, there is only a chair left.

He eats vegetarian tea and light rice, and occasionally buys meat, and only his parents watch him eat three or two pounds, let alone "go to the restaurant".

Growing up, he always wore those gray and gray coarse cloth clothes, which were made from his parents' clothes.

That's not all, other people's parents are in the prime of life, and his parents have entered old age prematurely, and the heavy years have bent their waistbones.

Every time he saw his parents, who were short in coarse cloth, he felt a dull ache and anger.

He hated his parents for coming to school the most, and once he was angry at the students in front of them, and another time, because the students in the other class laughed and looked at his poor parents, he made an appointment with the "Four King Kongs" and squashed him severely.

Thinking of his pampered condition, he gritted his teeth with hatred, all of which was caused by his parents.

The ancestors have been poor for generations, and the poor father is called Xia Pocan, who married a Sichuan girl, and he was added after more than ten years of marriage. The family was overjoyed and loved him so much that they didn't let him do any work, and they cut down on food and clothing all for him.

I remember that when he was in kindergarten once, he lost his way, and they screamed in shock, and the two of them cried all night.

From then on, no matter whether it was sunny or sunny, whether it was windy or rainy, they would put down all their affairs and run to pick him up in coarse cloth clothes, which was six years.

They arranged everything for him, and they didn't let him go far at all. He felt that this was the sorrow of his parents and his own sorrow, and he felt that he should not come to this world, and he was superfluous to this world.

He even felt that he was a burden to the world, not that the world was unfair to him. He even wanted to fly away and never return, or quarrel with them and sever the father-son relationship.

It was also because of safety concerns that he was sent to Yunqiao Middle School, a key middle school with four closed walls like a prison.

The bell rang, the laughter and wonderful lecture had ended, Xia Changping retracted from his melancholy dream, and went out with Yang Yuelong's call.

He was very envious of Yang Yuelong, looking at how well others lived, he even felt that Yuelong had so many aunts and aunts who were enviable, which showed that his father had the ability.

And his father, who bought a daughter-in-law in his thirties, and she was out of town.

He also feels that he looks so ugly, and even his future fate is not as good as his father, so far no girl in the class likes him, look at Jia Chongwen, he has a beautiful girlfriend, Qingqing and I are enviable.

Since the world has failed me, then I will debauch the world. Smoking, drinking, fighting, sleeping in class, talking back to the teacher, everything was learned.

He is sometimes a little jealous of "mosquitoes", and his father's drilling in prison does not affect his falling in love, so when Nana was looking for Chongwen, he was crazy about making trouble with her, touching her pigtails, face, and even hugging her, Jia Chongwen just laughed on the side, can a friend's wife be bullied?

"Hand in your homework!" Ming Yuchan often shouted at him.

"No, I didn't write it!" he grinned.

"Hurry up and hand it in, tell the teacher if you don't hand it in!"

"Then let me copy yours!"

"Don't let me copy!" Ming Yuchan said sternly, as if she was a little teacher.

He casually took the galloping homework book, wrote his name casually, and stood for him several times.

Sometimes he spends money on other people's homework, and he doesn't care about the hard work of his parents, and he even has a good skill - he uses two pens to write English at the same time to cope with the teacher's penalty.

Teacher Wenren doesn't want to: Use my three fireworks to exchange your life for a blur.

Smart leaders are good at motivating teachers, just as smart teachers are good at motivating students to learn.

In the afternoon of the next day, Hao Qian's crisp voice came from the sky above the cloud bridge, asking all teachers to hold a meeting in the conference room on the fourth floor.

According to the speculation of the people, the purpose of the meeting is nothing more than twofold: one is to check whether teachers have left early, and the other is to praise the advanced and encourage the backward.