In 1994, the eastern coastal countryside.

The night rain was like a pour, crackling and hitting the windows, making a desperate sound.

Wang Qiang stood at the door of the room, watching his parents scuffle together on the ground, using their bodies as a battlefield, the cabinet collapsed, and the mirror was broken into seven or eight pieces and lay weakly on the ground, in a mess.

What a familiar scene.

If memory serves, more than 20 years have passed.

Wang Qiang's eyes were wet, and he looked at it in a daze, seeing that his parents were still fighting, he felt a deep powerlessness in his heart, and wanted to step forward to pull the two away, but he didn't know why, his legs were as heavy as being filled with lead, and he just couldn't take a step and walked in.

It's been more than twenty years since the nightmare.

Why do you want me to go through it again?

How much he longed in his heart that everything in front of him was fake, but it hurt his face that his mother's rubber shoes flew from her hand, it was true, and she really went back to the miserable and unparalleled era more than 20 years ago.

Poverty is a disease that goes deep into the bone marrow.

It makes people crazy, they lose their minds, and sometimes they lose the fear of death.

The parents in front of them are fighting because of this terrible "disease".

When I was a child, I often heard my father tell stories about the separation.

The grandparents gave birth to three sons, namely Wang Qiang's uncle, father and uncle. In the countryside, the old man generally loves the eldest son and the younger son, because of feudal superstition, the vast majority of people believe in the existence of the king of Hades, and after death, the eldest son needs to carry a burden when sending grass, otherwise the dead old man will not be able to kneel for a long time, and the young son is young and is often spoiled as if he is not growing up.

What about the son in the middle?

It's good to be able to feed them, after all, some people have five or six children, and just eating every day is a huge burden.

Wang Qiang's father was divided into a family under that circumstances.

At that time, Wang Qiang was only three months old, and his grandfather knocked on the table and asked what time it was today-meaning that it was time to split up.

My parents, who had only been married for more than a year, realized that they had separated from each other, and except for the two huts inside and outside, they were only given nine bowls, yes, only nine bowls.

In the face of Wang Qiang, who was waiting to be fed, his parents could only bow their heads in humiliation and borrow money, and the seven aunts and eight aunts borrowed everything they could, and finally reluctantly built this family.

The father, who was physically weak, had no skills, and followed his uncle to work as a small worker on the construction site, reluctant to eat, reluctant to use, in addition to providing for the family's expenses, the remaining money was used to pay off the debt at the end of each year.

Thinking of these Wang Qiang couldn't help but feel sad, when he was a child, he only had a meal of meat every New Year, and he didn't think about it at other times, which also caused him to be relatively thin and weak as an adult, and he didn't look fat until he was middle-aged.

And everything we see today is caused by debt.

But it's not the debt he owed before, after all, Wang Qiang is seventeen years old this year, and his parents are no longer patient, and they can pay off their debts by living a tight life.

It took five years of continuous repayment of debts after the separation of the parents to pay off the debts completely, and then they reached school age, which was another heavy expense.

Wang Qiang once watched his parents work hard for 12 years, and finally saved enough money for a new house, and built it in the first half of this year.

It's just an accident that Wang Qiang, who has always had average grades, exploded in character during the high school entrance examination and was admitted to the second-rate high school in the county.

The current 1,000 and a half is not the future, which is equivalent to the annual income of ordinary farmers!

The parents who had just borrowed foreign debts from the house finally got together the money, the third aunt of the creditor was seriously ill and bedridden, and the third aunt came to collect the debt in desperation, and the parents discussed, the father felt that the third aunt should be repaid first, and the mother had no opinion, but was worried about where Wang Qiang's money for high school would come from.

Originally, this was a very normal topic, but the parents had a quarrel while talking, and then the two became more and more excited, and finally evolved into a full-arms fight, and it is not uncommon for husband and wife to fight in the countryside in this era, in the final analysis, there is basically one reason - poverty!

Two years later, just as they were about to pay off their debts, just as they were about to see hope, the sudden nightmare struck again.

Grandpa's diabetes complications broke out and he was sent to first aid, and Wang Qiang's family once again raised his debts for treatment.

If you can't afford to be sick in China, if you are sick, your whole family may destroy the accumulation of countless years of hard work, not to mention your own family, which was originally in debt?

Relying on his three sons to dig out the family's funds, the grandfather lasted for more than half a year and finally left, leaving a big mess.

Since then, Wang Qiang has hardly worn new clothes for the next six years, and when he went to school, he only ate two meals a day, breakfast and dinner, which was ridiculed by his classmates.

When you are poor, others will not pity you, on the contrary, it is likely to become a joke in everyone's mouth.

It was in that environment that Wang Qiang studied hard, was admitted to a good university, and worked hard after coming out, just to make more money.

Poor and afraid.

Only those who have been really poor know how terrible it is to have no money, otherwise it will not be clear in a thousand words.

He grew up in that environment, under the ridicule of countless classmates.

Wang Qiang once complained about his parents and hated that he didn't have a good baby, until he became a parent, he knew how difficult it was for today's parents, and gradually felt guilty about how naïve his resentment was.

It's just that he didn't think about it, and after he understood, he didn't know if God was joking with him, and he returned to the starting point of pain.

It's one thing to figure it out.

It's another thing to go through it again.

Looking at the poor and walled home, Wang Qiang laughed like crazy, laughing so much that tears came out, and laughing so much that the parents who were beating stopped abruptly and looked at each other.

The mother's sobbing stopped, and she whispered, "Qiang, Qiang, what's wrong with you?"

The father, who was pressed to the ground by her and pressed his face, was frightened, pushed his mother away, got up suddenly, rushed to his son, grabbed his shoulders and said excitedly: "Qiangzi, are you okay? Don't scare Dad!"

Wang Qiang didn't stop laughing wildly, shook off his father's two hands on his shoulders, turned around and rushed out the door.

Open the door.

He rushed out, laughing in the rain, and then howling and crying, until he collapsed on the ground, his hands slapping hard against the mud.

One time.

Two clicks.

The father and mother chased him out, and no matter how much they pulled him in, in the end, the family of three hugged Qi Qi and cried bitterly in the rain.

The mother cried and said loudly, "We will not fight in the future!"

"Yes, we're not going to fight anymore!" the father shouted with all his might, "Come in with me, come in with me!"

To be honest, Wang Qiang didn't know why he was crying and why he wanted to get drenched in the rain, but he felt very sad in his heart, so sad that he wanted to suffocate.

Rebirth is a very beautiful thing for many people, which can fill the regrets in life and re-appreciate the beauty of life.

But for Wang Qiang, being reborn is a terrible thing like going to hell, not only to relive the difficult years that can make people collapse, but also to fear that he will never see his wife again, and that he will never be able to watch his hard-working son marry and have children.

I can't see it.

Never again!

Wang Qiang, who was crying heartbreakingly, was very reluctant to accept the reality, but he had to admit that some things may really be lost forever.