Lao Zhou was stunned for more than ten seconds, and then she shook her head and said, "Impossible, how can you see her?"

"How is it impossible?" I quibbled to Lao Zhou, "I also live in the same city, why can't I see her?"

"Who told you we live in the same city?"

"You said it. I asked aloud, "Are you lying to me before?" You said she was also in Kunming. ”

Lao Zhou sighed deeply and said to me: "That was many years ago, and I don't know where she is now." ”

"She knows you. I said to Lao Zhou excitedly: "She knows that you opened this bar in Guandu Ancient Town, and she knows that when I mentioned you, although she denied it, the trace of panic flashed in her eyes is enough to prove that she still remembers you." ”

"So what?" Lao Zhou's calmness made me a little unnatural, he pretended to be very indifferent and said: "It's been so many years, we all have our own lives, and not disturbing each other is the best blessing for each other." ”

I suddenly didn't know what to say, I sat in the chair opposite Lao Zhou and was silent, is this what love is like in the end?

"What's wrong?" Lao Zhou saw me in a daze and asked, "Do you think what I said is wrong?"

"I don't know!" I took out a cigarette and put it in my mouth, "I don't know if what you said is right, it's just that I'm a little unwilling for you, the person you love very much is not far away, but you can be silent for so many years, waiting alone, and don't want to disturb her life, this is your so-called concept of love." ”

"Aren't you the same? You also like Jing Yao, and you don't dare to confess, you always feel that the distance between you is getting farther and farther away. ”

"Isn't it?" I said to Lao Zhou: "Do you know what Jing Yao is going to do? She is going to Italy today, to talk about cooperation with Gucci over there, to visit the local Italian luxury brands, she regards this as learning, and what about me? My so-called learning is just to go to the bookstore to buy two books, and lie on the bed when I am idle to double it, this is the gap, her height is no longer something I can achieve, and my liking is just that I can't let go, but I am detailed, sooner or later one day I will completely die." ”

"When?"

"Jing Yao get married, or, I found the one who can replace Jing Yao in my heart. ”

Lao Zhou hit the nail on the head and said: "You are thinking about finding a replacement for yourself to replace Jing Yao's position in your heart." ”

"Whatever you say, anyway, I think it's a little too wrong for you to give up. With that, I got up and walked up the stairs and went straight to the second floor.

Open the notebook, log in to QQ with the computer, find Jing Yao's QQ number and click on her space, find the talk and log she sent four years ago, every word, every time with the mood that belonged to that time, this log clearly records what she experienced when she first arrived in France, looking at these words, I can understand how helpless Jing Yao was at that time, a twenty-year-old girl, alone in a foreign land...... It's a hundred times more difficult than when I worked in Kunming.

An hour later, Lao Zhou knocked on my door and said to me, "Come down for dinner." ”

"I don't want to eat it. I sat in front of the computer and said to Lao Zhou: "You eat first, I want to stay for a while." ”

"Come down and have some drinks with me. ”

If it weren't for Lao Zhou saying to accompany him to drink, I really don't want to go downstairs to eat, on this night, two men with their own hearts sat at the wine table, a plate of peanuts and beans and a few bottles of beer, we didn't eat a bite of the staple food, Lao Zhou didn't say much, except for raising a glass is a toast, and I was also sad, sad because I was still thinking about Jing Yao, maybe one day like Lao Zhou said, I would find someone to replace her, but who can really replace Jing Yao?

There can be many times in love, maybe we will forget a lot, but who really forgets the feeling of holding hands for the first time, hugging for the first time, and kissing for the first time? It is a time with soul, blood, flesh, and unforgettable memories.

Drunk, I went back upstairs to call Jing Yao, and the voice prompted that the other party had turned off the phone. Open the WeChat dialog box, enter all the thoughts into it, tell me how much I miss her over the years, enter a lot of it, and then click send...... Because I knew that Jing Yao couldn't see it at this moment, after sending it, I began to count the numbers silently in my heart: 1, 2, 3...... 118, 119, and when I counted to 119 seconds, I withdrew the message that had been sent.

After all, I still don't have the courage to confess, these thoughts can be "entertained" in the dead of night, withdraw the message, turn off the phone, and go to sleep!

At night, I had a very long dream, when we went back to high school, she was sitting next to me, lying on the table and looking at me with a side face, her eyes were as clear as water, I bowed my head to do my homework, I knew that Jing Yao was watching me by my side, this feeling was very warm and wonderful. But when I turned my head to look at her, I found that the person next to me was not Jing Yao......

When I woke up from my dream, I realized how deeply I missed Jing Yao!

When I turned on my phone, I saw that it was only five o'clock in the morning, I threw my phone aside, lay on the bed and squinted for a while, only to find that there was a message from Jing Yao on my phone after getting up early: What did you withdraw?

I didn't pay attention to it after reading it, and pretended not to see it, anyway, I can't say that I regretted posting a pornographic picture, right? No......! I really replied to Jing Yao: I sent a Japanese love action movie, and when I sent it, I saw that the wrong person sent it, so I quickly withdrew it.

Jing Yao quickly replied: Why did you withdraw the message you sent me casually? No, hurry up and resend it to me.

Me: Ah, a Japanese romance action movie, it's the kind of video without clothes, one man and one woman...... You know.

Jing Yao: I understand, I asked you to send it.

I:...... Don't make a fuss, have you already arrived in Italy? Yesterday I watched Cheng Jiafa's circle of friends send you to the airport.

Jing Yao: I'm in Beijing, I stayed here last night, today's noon flight, Beijing direct flight to Rome, don't you want to change the topic, hurry up and send me the video, I'll watch it.

I suddenly became a little depressed, I never thought that Jing Yao would chat with me like this, I lay on the bed and scratched my head anxiously......